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Why aren’t his parents stepping in to protect his fucking brain? Or his teammates?

Nothing defined as a “traumatic brain injury” is anything to mess around with.

According to the internet, physical signs and symptoms of a concussion may include:

Headache

Ringing in the ears

Nausea

Vomiting

Fatigue or drowsiness

Blurry vision

Other signs—because apparently the first list isn’t enough—and symptoms of a concussion include:

Confusion or feeling as if in a fog

Amnesia surrounding the traumatic event—this adds heft to his story. Not that I didn’t believe him, it’s common sense. If you take too many hits to the head, you’re probably going to damage your freakin’ brain.

Dizziness or "seeing stars."

You may observe these signs and symptoms in the concussed person:

Temporary loss of consciousness (though this doesn't always occur)—according to the internet this has happened at least three times since Raffi’s hockey career started getting documented online. Why does he keep doing something with such a high risk of getting knocked out? And the list isn’t even over yet. It keeps going.

Slurred speech

Delayed response to questions

Dazed appearance

Forgetfulness, such as repeatedly asking the same question

Concentration and memory complaints

Irritability and other personality changes

Sensitivity to light and noise

Sleep disturbances

Psychological adjustment problems and depression

Disorders of taste and smell

None of this sounds fun. Not even a little bit. Most of the symptoms can last for days, but with post-concussion syndrome (PCS) it can be weeks, sometimes even months.

But the fact that there’s a clear gap in his memory—I’m doing my best to believe he genuinely has no recollection of our night together, and he’s not just pretending because he thinks I’m shit in bed—suggests it’s doing more long term damage to his body.

No one knows the full extent of how the human brain works, or how injuries can impact the brain.

The exact reason why some people develop PCS after a blow to the head is not clear. One theory is that it is caused by tiny areas of bruising or other damage to the nerve cells in the brain, caused by the initial head injury. Another is that the head injury causes an imbalance of chemicals in the brain that leads to the symptoms.

I read on, my eyes lingering when I see a short list.