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"It's your mother's ball," I say. "You must go. Sixty-seven, sixty-eight . . ."
"I've nothing to wear!"
I gesture grandly to the bed and resume my counting.
"Won't you be wearing one of the gowns your mother had made for you in Paris?" Ann asks. She's holding one of the dresses against her body, turning this way and that. She gives a slight curtsy to an imaginary escort.
"They're so bourgeois." Felicity snorts. Ann runs her fingers over the water blue silk, the beadwork along the delicate neckline."I think this one is lovely."
"Then you wear it."
Ann pulls her fingers back as if they burn. "I couldn't begin to fit into it."
Felicity smirks. "You could have if you'd given up those morning scones."
"It wouldn't make any d-d-difference. I would only insult the dress."
Felicity springs up with a sigh that borders on a growl. "Why do you do that?"
"Do what?" Ann asks.
"Belittle yourself at every opportunity."
"I was only making light of things."
"No, you weren't. Was she, Gemma?"
"Eighty-seven, eighty-eight, eighty-nine . . . ," I answer loudly.
"Ann, if you keep saying how unworthy you are, people will come to believe it."
Ann shrugs, returning the dress to the heap on the bed. "They believe what they see."
"Then change what they see."
"How?"
"Wear the dress. We could let it out on the sides."
"One hundred." I turn to face them."Yes, but then it wouldn't fit you any longer."
Felicity's grin is feral."Exactly."
"Do you really think that's a good idea?" I say. The dress is quite expensive, made in Paris to fit Felicity.
"Won't your mother be cross?" Ann asks. "She'll be far too involved with her guests to notice what we're wearing. She'll only be concerned with what she's wearing, and whether it makes her look young."
It seems a bad idea, but Ann's already touching the silk again as if it were a treasured kitten, and I'm not going to be the one to spoil it for her.
;Then Herod, when he saw that he was mocked of the wise men, was exceeding wroth, and sent forth his men, and slew all the children that were in Bethlehem, and in all the coasts thereof. . ."
Why is there no panel showing women saying, No, I'm sorry, I don't want this gift. You may have it back. I've sheep to look after and bread to bake, and I've no desire to be a holy messenger.
That is the window I long to see.
A ray of light breaks through the glass, and for a moment, the angel seems to flare like the sun.
I am allowed to spend the afternoon with Felicity and Ann, so that Grandmama and Tom may tend to Father. Mrs. Worthington is seeing to the outfitting of little Polly, which has put Felicity into a hateful mood to match my own. Only Ann is enjoying the day. It is the first Christmas she can remember in a real home with a ball to attend, and she's positively giddy about it, badgering us with questions.
