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None of the women talk.
“Get in line,” a nurse says, handing me a folded hospital gown.
“Oh, but I’m just here to see the doctor. . . ” I start, my voice trailing off. Obviously I’m here to see the doctor—obviously all the women here are. “I mean,” I add at the nurse’s impatient look, “not the, uh, gynecologist, but the other doctor, the one who’s usually on the third floor. ”
“Only got one doctor,” the nurse says. She eyes my red hair and pale skin a little closer. “I take it you’re not here because of the Season?”
“No!”
She sighs. “Follow me. ”
The nurse leads me down the hall, weaving in and out of clusters of women. Many of the women look up and stare at me with a surprised sort of curiosity, as one would look at a strange person on the bus. None of them speak; they don’t seem too greatly bothered by me.
“Only one doctor, with this many patients?” I ask the nurse.
“He’s got us nurses, and he’s got assistants—several of the scientists have been working under him directly for years. ” The nurse sighs again. “But Doc won’t pick any as his apprentice. Not the trusting type. ”
I wonder what trust has to do with hiring more help, but there’s no time to ask. The nurse stops by an open door and jerks her head for me to go in. I enter. The doctor is sitting at a chair between the stirrups of a bed, with a woman’s legs propped up in the bed’s stirrups. Everything the woman probably doesn’t want me to see is right there.
“Oh my gosh! I’m sorry!” I cover my eyes and turn to go. Why did the nurse let me in the room in the middle of an examination, a very personal, private examination?
“It’s okay,” the doctor says. “What did you need me for?”
“I don’t think she wants me here. . . . ”
“She doesn’t mind. Do you mind?” he asks, peering up at the woman over her knees.
“No, of course not,” she says. She sounds bored.
All I know is that if I were lying on a stirrup bed with my legs in the air and my private bits just out there for everyone to see, I’d be mortified. My mother made me go to the gynecologist after I first started getting serious with Jason, and I have never had a more uncomfortable half hour in my life. I didn’t want anyone in the room with me, up to and including the doctor, the nurse, and my mother, let alone some stranger.
But this woman couldn’t care less. I risk opening my eyes, and she meets my gaze with a calm look. She doesn’t seem bothered in the least by my presence.
“I, um. . . ” I try to ignore what the doctor is doing with that clear goo and that metal thing that looks like a torture device. “I wanted to ask you about the Season. ”
“Ah,” the doctor says. He’s just going right on with his examination. I mean, couldn’t he stop for a second?
“Does it change people?” I say it all at once, trying to get it over with as quickly as possible.
“What do you mean?”
The doctor’s metal thing slips. The woman grimaces, but doesn’t say anything. She’s staring at the ceiling blankly.
The glazed look in her eyes, the passive way she’s lying there, it all reminds me of the way that couple acted when I was attacked. Those people’s apathy wasn’t normal. . . but neither is this woman’s. In fact, all the women I saw in the hallway were a bit off. They were all sitting so patiently, so quietly. . . so blankly. With that many women all lined up to take a gynecological exam. . . they should be impatient, they should be talking, they should be nervous or disgusted or anxious or a thousand other things than nothing.
“What’s your name?” I ask the woman. Her face shifts downward so she can see me, and I can tell that she’d forgotten I was there but isn’t entirely put out about it.
“Filomina,” she says in an even tone, even though the doctor’s doing something to her now that would have made me squirm with unease.
“Are you happy?” I know it’s a weird question, but it was the first thing I could think of.
“I’m not unhappy. ”
“Amy, what do you want?” the doctor says.
“It’s like she’s not even human,” I say. “Can’t you tell? You’re a doctor! You should know this isn’t normal!”
“What’s not normal?” the doctor asks as the woman lets her head slide back to the center of the pillow. She stares blankly up at the ceiling, her eyes blinking but otherwise showing no sign of life.
