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His face darkens, but I ignore his reaction and put my arms around him. Gazing at us both in the mirror - his beauty, his nakedness, and me with my covered hair - we look almost Biblical, as if from an Old Testament baroque painting.
I reach for his hand, which he willingly entrusts to me, and guide it up to his chest to dry it, sweeping the towel slowly, awkwardly across his body. Once, twice - then again.
He's completely immobilized, rigid with tension, except for his eyes, which follow my hand clasped around his.
My subconscious looks on with approval, her normally pursed mouth smiling, and I am the supreme puppet master. His anxiety ripples off his back in waves, but he maintains eye contact, though his eyes are darker, more deadly. Showing their secrets maybe.
Is this a place I want to go? Do I want to confront his demons?
"I think you're dry now," I whisper as I drop my hand, gazing into the gray depths of his eyes in the mirror. His breathing is accelerated, lips parted.
"I need you, Anastasia," he whispers.
"I need you, too." And as I say the words, I am struck how true they are. I cannot imagine being without Christian, ever.
"Let me love you," he says hoarsely.
"Yes," I answer, and turning, he hauls me into his arms, his lips seeking mine, beseeching me, worshipping me, cherishing me... loving me.
He trails his fingers up and down my spine as we gaze at each other, basking in our postcoital bliss, replete. We lie together, me on my front hugging my pillow, he on his side, and I am treasuring his tender touch. I know that right now he needs to touch me. I am a balm for him, a source of solace, and how could I deny him that? I feel exactly the same about him.
"So you can be gentle," I murmur.
"Hmm... so it would seem, Miss Steele."
I grin. "You weren't particularly the first time we... um, did this."
"No?" He smirks. "When, I robbed you of your virtue."
"I don't think you robbed me," I mutter haughtily - Jeez, I'm not a helpless maiden.
"I think my virtue was offered up pretty freely and willingly. I wanted you, too, and if I remember correctly, I rather enjoyed myself." I smile shyly at him, biting my lip.
"So did I if I recall, Miss Steele. We aim to please," he drawls and his face softens, serious. "And it means you're mine, completely." All trace of humor has vanished as he gazes at me.
"Yes, I am," I murmur back at him. "I wanted to ask you something."
"Go ahead."
"Your biological father... do you know who he was?" This thought has been bugging me. His brow creases, and then he shakes his head. "I have no idea. Wasn't the savage who was her pimp, which is good."
"How do you know?"
"Something my dad... something Carrick said to me."
I gaze at my Fifty expectantly, waiting. He smirks at me.
"So hungry for information, Anastasia," he sighs, shaking his head. "The pimp discovered the crack whore's body and phoned it in to the authorities. Took him four days to make the discovery though. He shut the door when he left... left me with her... her body." His eyes cloud at the memory.
I inhale sharply. Poor baby boy - the horror is too grim to contemplate.
"Police interviewed him later. He denied flat out I was anything to do with him, and Carrick said he looked nothing like me."
"Do you remember what he did look like?"
"Anastasia, this isn't a part of my life I revisit very often. Yes, I remember what he looked like. I'll never forget him." Christian's face darkens and hardens, becoming more angular, his eyes frosting with anger. "Can we talk about something else?"
"I'm sorry. I didn't mean to upset you."
He shakes his head. "It's old news, Ana. Not something I want to think about."
"So what's this surprise, then?" I need to change the subject before he goes all Fifty on me. His expression lightens immediately.
"Can you face going out for some fresh air? I want to show you something."
"Of course."
I marvel how quickly he turns - mercurial as ever. He grins at me with his boyish, carefree, I'm-only-twenty-seven smile, and my heart lurches into my mouth. So it's something close to his heart, I can tell. He swats me playfully on my behind.
"Get dressed. Jeans will be good. I hope Taylor's packed some for you."
He rises and pulls on his boxer briefs. Oh... I could sit here all day, watching him wander around the room. My inner goddess agrees, swooning as she ogles from her chaise longue.
"Up," he scolds, bossy as ever. I gaze at him, grinning.
"Just admiring the view."
He rolls his eyes at me.
As we dress, I notice that we move with the synchronization of two people who know each other well, each watchful and acutely aware of the other, exchanging the occasional shy smile and sweet touch. And it dawns on me that this is just as new for him as it is for me. "Dry your hair," Christian orders once we're dressed.
"Domineering as ever." I smirk at him, and he leans down to kiss my hair.
"That's never going to change, baby. I don't want you sick."
I roll my eyes at him, and his mouth twists in amusement.
"My palms still twitch, you know, Miss Steele."
"I am glad to hear it, Mr. Grey. I was beginning to think you were losing your edge,"
I retort.
"I could easily demonstrate that is not the case, should you so wish." Christian drags a large, cream, cable-knit sweater out of his bag and drapes it artfully over his shoulders.
With his white T-shirt and jeans, his artfully rumpled hair, and now this, he looks as if he's stepped out of the pages of a high-end glossy magazine.
