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“Goodnight, baby.”
He helps me into the car and after he makes sure to greet Albert, we drive off. I smile to myself the entire ride.
Albert speaks up the minute we arrive at home, “Happiness looks good on you, miss Sophia.”
“It feels good too.”
* * *
Every little girldreams about their wedding day. Most women have expectations of the day. They have wants, they have hopes. And I’m not any different. Somehow though, despite all the shortcomings and hiccups along the way, my wedding with Tony manages to blow all those expectations, wants and hopes out of the water.
Because it’s beautiful and so much more than I expected it to be. When we’re finally proclaimed husband and wife in front of our family members and loved ones, all the anxiety I’ve been feeling literally falls away.
We finally made it. I can see in his eyes that he’s thinking the same thing as well. And when he kisses me, I know in my heart that this was always where I was meant to be.
The only thing that would have made the day perfect was if Tony had actually acknowledged his father’s presence at the wedding. Salvador congratulated me earnestly and I was glad to have met him. He seemed like a kind man, a little weary and beaten down. Which I can’t blame him for considering the last couple of months. I just wish I knew how to convince my husband to let go of all his anger.
It’s still surreal to think about. The fact that he’s my husband now. I am someone’s wife. We finally made it to our bedroom around 10pm. After the stress of the day I needed a shower. Tony’s on the other side of the door, on our bed, waiting for me.
And I realize I still have one more thing to be anxious about. I put on pink pajama shorts and a shirt, bypassing the lingerie set, Katerina gifted to me and made me promise to wear tonight. If I step outside wearing next to nothing, Tony will be on me in seconds and I won’t get to say what’s on my mind.
“Blondie, you’ve been in there for nearly thirty minutes,” Tony yells and I laugh at his impatience.
Finally I step outside and walk towards the bed. “I had to take a long shower to scrub of all the makeup and shit that I used to get ready,” I tell him.
“Well, I think you look even more beautiful now,” he says, grinning at me wolfishly.
He’s staring at me like I’m the most precious thing on the planet. I’m the farthest thing from stupid, and I know I’m not blind. I realize he does have feelings for me but I would really like to hear it.
“We can’t have sex,” I blurt out.
His eyes bulge as he stares at me, “What?” he asks in surprise. I practically see the gears turning in his head as he takes in my expression. Then he’s speaking quickly, “Geez, Sophia, what do you take me for? If you’re too tired then we can just sleep. I don’t mind. I just want to hold you.”
“I’m not saying we can’t have sex.”
He cocks his head to the side. I’m pretty sure he’s wondering if I drank too much at the wedding.
“Yeah, you’ve lost me, blondie. What are you talking about?”
I let out a harsh breath before climbing onto the bed. I sit in front of him and intertwine my fingers.
“Why did you marry me?” I ask.
Tony stares at me, an amused smile on his face.
“Are you really asking me why I married you? Right now? On our wedding night?”
“Yes. Because I asked why you wanted to marry me a couple of weeks ago and you gave me this spiel about duty and honor. And I need to know if that’s really how you feel. If it’s nothing more than that then I need to have a plan. I need to know how to navigate this relationship if you don’t actually have any feelings for me other than-”
“Hold up, I’m going to have to stop you there, blondie. What the hell are you saying? Are you seriously questioning my feelings for you right now?”
“I can’t even question them since I don’t know what they are,” I say quietly.
He stares at me for a couple of seconds.
“Do you want to know what my favorite part of you is?” he asks softly. “Your eyes. Those beautiful blue eyes. You know they sometimes change depending on your emotions. Sometimes they’re clear like the sky, like the sea. But sometimes when you’re angry, or really emotional, when you’re crying, they look like comets. Beautiful blazing twin blue flames.”
I suck in a breath at the description. But Tony’s not done.
