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“I’m sorry, I failed you.” I apologized to her, knowing that this was my one chance, “I was able to save Alexander, but I didn’t know he was my fated mate. I tried to keep my mark hidden but he saw it and he demanded answers. I left before I would say anything to him, but I feel like I have failed you, my Goddess.”
She purses her lips and shakes her head, “You have not failed me, my little wolf. You are just learning what could end up happening to you if you don’t be careful. Unfortunately, this does mean that you have a choice to make. One that is going to have consequences either way.”
I look up at her, obviously confused, “what do you mean? I don’t understand.”
She sighs and shakes her head, “Do you think I didn’t know he was your fated mate? I knew what I was sending you into, Leah, and I’m not surprised by the choices you have decided to make. I just hope that you can live with them and not regret it.
I have no idea what she is saying, staring at her with shock and horror, “what do you mean? I…”
“I mean.” She cuts me off, a smirk appearing on her face, “I just wish that you would have stayed with him.”
“What?” I’m more than just a little confused as I stare at her like she had just grown a second head, “what do you mean by that? You have always warned us of the consequences of turning our backs on you and that’s what I did. I know it might sound a bit ridiculous, but I can tell you right now that I really wish that this wasn’t the case. I wish you would have consulted with me on this and told me from the beginning.”
“I was just curious if you would choose me or him.” She admits, folding her arms across her chest, “and although I am so appreciative of you picking me when you didn’t need to, I know that the best thing for you to do now is go to him and never let him go. If you do that, I honestly think that the best thing would now be for you to just love him and not let him walk away from you.”
“And how can I do that?” I ask her, feeling like the whole world is coming crashing down, “I don’t know if he is even going to forgive me for this. I don’t blame him if he doesn’t because how in the world can I expect him to just drop everything for me? I know that I can’t do that, and I know there is no way in hell that I can just expect it. Seriously…”
She studies me cautiously and I know she is probably trying to decide my fate, “honestly, Leah, I have a proposition for you. You can stay here and remain as my warrior forever and you will never see him again, or you can have your mortality and live the rest of your life with him. But you will never be a warrior of my clan ever again even when you die again. You will just become another wolf spirit.”
She caresses the head of the wolf and I know it is one of her warriors that probably chose that path. I never thought that she would even give me the option and it’s kind of scary to even think about because I don’t know if she is even going to accept me. I don’t know if he will even want my back either. I don’t want to disrespect the Moon Goddess and tell her to take a hike, but I don’t want to lose Alexander either. I don’t think that I would be able to survive…
“What is your decision?” She asks me softly, tilting her head to the side, “Unfortunately I don’t have much time to wait.”
I don’t have to think twice about it because I know who I need to choose.
Chapter Nine
Alexander
I’m trying to not be pissed at Leah but it’s really hard. She’s been gone for about a week now and I can feel my life draining without her. I kept wishing that she would allow me to be a part of her life or something, but she just decided to leave me and didn’t even give me a choice. It was like a smack to the face, and it was like she was never here to begin with. I hate her, I know that it’s terrible to think, and I wish that I could have done everything in my power to just fall in love with her. Maybe it would have been better if we never have met.
“Alexander!” I suddenly hear a familiar voice calling my name, “Alexander!”
I look up and I see Leah rushing towards me, but she looks different. I don’t know what is different, but I have a feeling inside of me that I’m not going to lose her again. I know I’m still angry, but I rush towards her, feeling like my body has come to life again. I want to yell at her for leaving, for doing this to me, but the only thing that I can do is sweep her into my arms and kiss her like my life depends on it. Maybe it does, maybe she’s going to destroy me if I don’t end up doing what I need to do to her. I just wish that she would have been more honest.
I kiss her, our tongues tangling together, and she melts right into me. She loops her arms around my neck and holds on for dear life, not even bothering to hold back at all. I love this feeling, wishing that there was something we could do about it but something else is screaming inside of me to make sure to not let her win.
“What happened?” I suddenly ask her, folding my arms across my chest after I had pushed her away, “Why did you leave? You said you were never coming back.”
I thought that she might make an excuse.
“I was a warrior of the Moon Goddess.” She explains to me, making me go still, “I died hundreds of years ago, and my soul joined the others beside her. I have spent centuries training for the possibility of what might end up happening next and I don’t blame you for being upset with me over this because I get it. I had to lie to you though. I could not blow my mission. If I did, I would have had to leave… And that’s why I had no choice when you saw the mark.”
It makes sense even though it doesn’t at the same time, “I see… Why didn’t you just tell me? I could have helped you.”
She just smiles and shakes her head, “no, you couldn’t have helped me, Alexander. It wouldn’t have mattered what you did. It would have all been in vain. Trust me.”
Pursing my lips, I hate that she is right because you can’t deal with the Moon Goddess in that sense. She’s not so forgiving. If you cross her, you might end up regretting it for the rest of your life and I’m sure that is what Leah had worried about. I keep thinking that maybe she might have ended up doing something else, but I have to know how she feels about me. I need to know how she feels because if she doesn’t, I can’t be completely certain of what would happen between us.
I’m sure that she is going to do everything in her power to make sure that it drives me crazy, and I should continue to stay mad at her, but I can’t. I know it is wrong, but I can’t remain mad at her when there is no reason to. After everything that we have been through so far, I know that this could turn around and bite me in the ass.
“So, what does this mean?” I ask her in a hoarse voice, needing some answers.
“She gave me a choice.” She explains to me, running her fingers through her hair, “Either I could stay as a warrior and not let anything hold me back or I could regain mortality and live the rest of my life with you… You know what my answer is.”
I’m shocked as I gaze at her, “You chose me? Why?”
She just smiles up at me, “I have been waiting for my fated mate all my life and although I would have loved to remain by her side as well, there wasn’t a place for me there. I would have been miserable, and I would have never known what it would have been like to remain at your side. I know you’re upset with me, and you have every right to be, but I hope that you can find it in your heart to forgive me.”
I don’t have to give her an answer as I walk forward, and I take her back into my arms. I gently cup the back of her neck and I tilt her head to the side for easier access as I gaze upon the slender slope of her neck. I know she knows what I’m about to do and I don’t care who even sees as I bite down on the tender flesh of her neck, marking her. Her blood fills my mouth, but I know I’m not hurting her. She lets out a soft, sweet moan that is like music to my ears.
Yes, this woman is mine and I don’t think I’m going to be able to do anything without her by my side. Oh, fuck me. I think I might be going crazy. I pull back after sealing the wound and I kiss her. I kiss her like I have never kissed someone before and it’s like everything has fallen into place.
“You’re mine.” I warn her, smiling softly, “I hope you realize this.”
And she just nods, accepting me as everyone around us claps. She might have been my guardian, but now she is my home.
