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I hadn’t allowed myself to fullyfeelthe implications of what happened with Xavier and the silence that’d followed, and if I had my way, I never would. Some things were better left repressed.
Isabella paused her search for the perfect thriller, and there was another exchange of glances around the room.
“What are you going to do when the trial ends?” Isabella asked cautiously.
I set my jaw against the pressure swelling in my chest. “I don’t know.”
Except I did.
I just didn’t know if I had the strength to go through with it.
* * *
I could describe the week after the fire in one word: hell.
The paperwork? Hell. Visiting the hospital and seeing the workers’ burns up close? Hell. Speaking to the workers’ agonized families? Hell.
Not seeing or talking to Sloane while knowing how much I’d hurt her the last time we spoke? Hell times a fucking thousand.
I should’ve run after Sloane and apologized right after she left, but I’d been worried I’d make things worse. I hadn’t been in the right frame of mind to do anything except go home, pour myself a glass of whiskey, and pass the hell out.
The days after that had been filled with phone calls, meetings, paperwork, and a million other things I didn’t want to do. I’d tried to contact Vuk but couldn’t get through, and I’d spent Christmas at home, torn between calling Sloane and avoiding our inevitable confrontation like a coward.
The coward won out.
I wasn’t proud of it, but our trial dating period ended soon, and I didn’t need a genius-level IQ to know I’d blown it.
As long as we didn’t talk, I could live in denial and pretend we were going through a minor hiccup, which was how I ended up at Valhalla’s bar the Sunday after Christmas, drowning my sorrows with Lagavulin.
I finished my drink and motioned the bartender for another one. He slid a fresh glass of whisky across the counter as someone settled on the stool next to mine.
“Save it,” I said without turning my head.
“This is quite sad.” Kai ignored my preemptive dismissal, his tone mild. “Have you considered other methods of coping besides drinking by yourself at”—he checked his watch—“three in the afternoon?”
“I’m not in the mood for your judgment, and I’m not the only one sitting at the bar at three in the afternoon.” I cast a pointed glance in his direction. “Aren’t you supposed to be in London right now?”
“We flew back early at Isabella’s insistence.” A delicate pause. “Apparently, one of her friends needs ‘major cheering up.’ Her words.”
It was obvious who she’d meant.
My gut twisted at the indirect mention of Sloane, and it took everything in me not to interrogate Kai.
Has Isabella talked to Sloane already? What did she say? How is she doing? How much does she hate me right now?
“Her friend isn’t the only one.” Kai nodded his thanks when the bartender brought him a strawberry gin and tonic. He had a strange affinity for that particular cocktail. “I’m sorry about the fire. Truly.” He sounded sincere, which made it worse.
The past week hadn’t done much to ease my guilt, and I felt like I didn’t deserve people’s sympathy.
“Have you talked to Alex yet?” Kai asked.
I grimaced. “Not yet. We’re meeting tomorrow.”
I wasn’t looking forward to it. Alex’s assistant had scheduled the meeting, so I didn’t know his thoughts regarding the fire in his building, but I imagined they weren’t pleasant.
“I haven’t talked to Markovic since the fire either.” I flashed back to the wild look in Vuk’s eyes and the old burn scars around his neck. “He disappeared when we got out of the vault. Do you think…?”
“The Serb does what he does,” Kai said. Most people referred to Vuk as the Serb, per his preference, but I couldn’t shake the habit of calling people by their, well, actual name. “No one knows what goes through his head, but if he hasn’t dissolved your partnership yet, I assume everything’s fine.”
