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I close my eyes, and my words come out a mere whisper. "I want you so much it hurts."
And with that, his mouth is on mine, claiming me with the most passionate, perfect kiss I could ever imagine. My entire body turns to jelly at his touch, and I moan with desire.
Ethan pulls me onto his lap and wraps his big arms around me, and we kiss like it's the last time and the first time all at once. We kiss like we'll never see each other again. I take his face in my palms while his hands find their way to my ass. I can feel his huge erection under my bottom, and I rub against him until he groans with lust.
He pulls back and rests his forehead against mine, and we both pant for a moment, trying to regain control of ourselves. “We can’t do this on your front porch. Someone will see us.”
“I know, but you can’t come in.”
“You’re a grown woman, Jess. Will your aunt really be mad?”
“It’s just that my life is…complicated, and once you find out what it’s like, you may not want to be part of it.”
"I don't care how complicated it is, now that I found you again, I'm never letting you go." He kisses me again, letting me know he means every word. I want so badly to believe him, but I'm filled with fear.
What if he’s angry when he finds out about our son? What if he hates me?
He breaks the kiss then stares at me, his eyes searching my face for a reason that we can’t be together. “Tell me, Jessica. Whatever it is, I can handle it.”
My heart pounds in my chest and I turn my face away from him. “I’m so scared that you’re going to hate me after I tell you.”
“I could never hate you. Hell, I’ve been trying to hate you for two years, but I can’t.”
“This is different.” I try to get up off his lap, but he holds me tighter. Closing my eyes, I manage to get the words out. “I…have a son.”
“A son,” he says, his head snapping back in surprise. “Whoa. But you said you’re not with anyone.”
“I’m not.”
“What? Is the father some deadbeat who abandoned you the moment he found out?”
"No. I never told him," I say, managing to slide off his lap. I turn and take a couple of steps until I'm standing against the railing, facing the street. I have to do it. I take a deep breath and turn to Ethan. "I haven't been with anyone since you."
I look into his eyes and see the exact moment when he figures it out.
“Oh, Jesus. Are you saying…?”
I nod and cover my face with my hands.
“So, I’m a…?” He lets out a long exhale. “Holy shit. This is a lot to take in.”
"I know. I'm so sorry." Tears fill my eyes, and I'm filled with a desperation like I've never known. "If I could go back in time, I would try harder to reach you. I left messages on your phone, but you never called me back so I just thought that you didn't want me and that you wouldn't want to be saddled with looking after a baby. Not when you were just getting started with the team."
He lifts my chin so I’m facing him. When I look at him, his eyes are filled with tears. “What’s his name?”
“Will.”
Ethan nods, his face filled with emotion. “That’s a good name. I would pick that name. Can I see him?”
I nod and walk to the door, opening it and leading him through the mess of toys and down the hall to Will's room. When I push open the door, the light from the nightlight glows, letting Ethan get a first glimpse of his son, his little face turned away toward the wall, showing off his mess of dark brown curls.
Ethan stands next to his crib and reaches his hand out and over his head. “He has your curls,” he says in a low tone.
“And your dark hair. He has your smile, too,” I whisper.
“Can I hold him?” He asks.
I nod, tears streaming down my face.
