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With the room to herself, Darcy sagged. She sat on the couch and closed her eyes. She missed Will now as hard, as deeply, with the same sickening jolt, as when she’d first understood he didn’t remember her and perhaps never would.
Day after day, she’d gone with Peter and Bo to the hospital to see Will, comatose, almost unrecognisable from the injuries to his face. She’d held his hand and prayed to a God she wasn’t sure existed for him to wake up.
The medical staff said his prognosis was mixed. Good in a physical sense, he’d repair and with the help of surgery and therapy, he’d be functionally strong again, but mentally, no one was sur
e the extent of the brain damage he’d suffered, and what shape his recovery might take.
Darcy was there the day he opened his eyes for the first time. He’d panicked and tried to pull the ventilator from his mouth. They sedated him immediately. He’d looked right at her and not seen her. Watching him struggle to wake was almost as terrifying as watching him go down to fists and boots had been.
But only those terrible fifteen hours when she’d thought he was dead came near the shock of seeing him recoil from her. On that occasion, when he woke he saw her, but pulled his hand away from hers. And in the seconds before he closed his eyes, she saw nothing but irritation in them.
The specialist said not to read anything into it. Everything irritated Will, it was the emotion he would have most often, accompanied by fear, confusion and anger. But Darcy couldn’t help but think those were the emotions most likely to apply to her after what he’d been through—after what she’d put him through.
She filed one more story. This one described the riot and how Will was caught up in it suffering serious injuries. It was a short piece. She made no mention of her own role, or any deep detail of Will’s injuries. She quoted Peter. The Ministry of Justice denied the riot occurred, and Andy did a profile on the prison, taking a tour inside and putting officials and prisoners on camera who described Quingpu as a model facility, rejecting any suggestion of discontent, let alone a revolt. Andy’s story cast doubt on Will’s reputation all over again.
And running out of money, she waited for Will to be awake enough to look in her eyes and remember she loved him. It never happened.
It was obvious Will didn’t remember any of them. And he didn’t want them around. His anger was a cyclone, radiating out from him and sucking in everything in his reach. He ripped out drips and pushed machinery over. He broke crockery. He fought with orderlies. He refused to eat. He was silently locked in a battle against a brain that refused to let him understand who he was, where he was or how to get better. His once iron control and ready humour were reduced to unfocused anger he could neither manage nor direct.
He might be like this for the rest of his life.
Peter told her to give Will time, to go home, that he’d keep her in touch. Peter, who could have been angry with her, was sympathetic and compassionate, but he was also incredibly stressed and time poor. Parker Corp suffered. Contracts were cancelled, regulations tightened, and Peter admitted he didn’t have Will’s skill of keeping twenty key issues in the air at once without dropping anything.
Without hope, she came home, and the job offers started to roll in. While she was sitting at Will’s Shanghai bedside she’d become a minor celebrity in Sydney. She was the Australian journalist who cracked the Will Parker kidnap story and followed it up by discovering his innocence, capping that with the announcement of the riot and his hospitalisation.
Gerry called. Gerry texted. Gerry emailed. Gerry sent flowers. She ignored, deleted and returned. Mark called and left a message telling her she could have any role she wanted with the paper, with full reinstatement of her previous benefits, but he hoped she’d stretch her wings and fly.
Col Furrows wrote a story claiming she had an insider’s relationship to the Will Parker story. And more job offers came. It was Mark she called when the offer from Channel Five came in. More likely to be balanced than Brian, who thought everything Channel Five did was commercial muck. Mark took her to lunch and told her to go for it. He said the worst that could happen is she blew it, got sacked and had her contract paid out—she’d still make more money in six months than working for him for five years.
It was a smart move. It was getting on with her life. She took the job. She weathered the nightmares and panic attacks with help from a counsellor, and she’d told no one what happened. And she waited for Will to remember.
When she came off the air after the program that night, Alan Dunlop, the show’s producer pulled her aside.
“Tired, Darcy?”
“No, I’m fine.”
He looked at her sceptically. “Something was off tonight.”
“No, not from my end.” Not that she could ever tell Alan, or anyone else for that matter, there was anything amiss. Her only friend on the show team was Nadia. Everyone else wanted her to fail either because they wanted her job or because she’d come from print journalism and hadn’t done a proper TV apprenticeship. Darcy knew there was even a book on her chances of success with almost no one taking odds she’d survive beyond two ratings seasons.
“Hmmm. If you say so. I want you to take a night or two off anyway.”
She bristled, one little beat out of tune and Alan was talking about sidelining her. “Are you going to tell me what I did wrong?” There was no denying she was new at this, there were dozens of better-trained presenters around, so it was no use pretending failure wasn’t an option.
“You just look tired, not yourself tonight. I’m not being kind about the nights off. I need to trial Liarne Bennett on the desk so you can do the occasional field assignment. It has to be in a non-rating season so next week, okay. I thought that’s what you wanted?”
“Oh, it is what I want.” If she could get back to doing some genuine reporting she’d feel better about this job, as though she had more control over the content. “Sorry, I am a little tired.”
Alan hmmed again. It was a sound she was starting to develop a distinct dislike to. “Tell makeup to be more careful and get some rest over the weekend.”
She nodded and watched him leave the set. She had to stop herself from bolting to her car. She was so close to tears from her flashback, from that almost dressing down, from the continual fear of failure. There was one more show to do this week and then she could sleep for forty-eight hours, longer if Liarne Bennett did Monday’s show.
Home was a sanctuary. Contained, private and half empty because she’d not had time to buy any furniture for it, and half wondered if she should bother. At least until the second ratings season was over.
On the floor in the living room, a red light blinked on the answering machine. It would be Brian with a comment about the show she could do without hearing. It represented the very worst of journalism as far as he was concerned, yet he watched it every night, and was somehow disappointed that by her very presence she wasn’t able to transform it into something more acceptable.
Very few other people had this number. It might be Brian, but it might be Peter. She went to the bedroom and ditched the suit; the bathroom and trowelled off the makeup. She shoved on sweat pants and a t-shirt, and went back to the living room, barefoot and anxious.
