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“Are you cheating on me?” I whispered, hugging my arms around myself. When Jace didn’t answer me, I dropped my arms, the bracelet dangling from my fingers. “You are,” I whispered. “You are, aren’t you?”
“We were never exclusive,” Jace said, jaw clenched.
“In our spot, Jace?” I asked, voice barely over a whisper. “This is our spot.”
He blew an annoyed breath out of his nose and glanced back at Nicole. “You think that this was our spot? You think I didn’t bring any other girl I fucked here this past year? Huh? Are you still that naive little Allie?”
I threw the bracelet at him and shoved my hands into his chest, feeling nothing but an unbearable amount of pain. “I hate you! I hate you! I fucking hate you, Jace! Why would you do this to me? Why would you fucking do this to me?”
The Overlook meant nothing to him. All the dates he had taken me on meant nothing to him. I meant nothing to him.
“Allie, wake up!” Imani shouted above me.
She straddled my waist and had my hands pinned to the pillow. My body was trembling underneath hers, and real tears were sliding down my cheeks.
It had felt so real, so fucking real.
I sobbed loudly and curled myself into a ball underneath her, clutching my knees to my chest. The pain physically hurt every part of my body, especially my heart. Tears streamed down my face, hiccups exiting my mouth, and my body shook so badly that I couldn’t control it.
“I’m so dumb. I’m so fucking dumb and stupid.” I threw my head in my hands. “I tried everything to get him to love me again, fucking everything. Sleeping with him, making him jealous in hopes that … he’d show me he fucking cared.”
Imani wrapped her arms around me and rested her head on my shoulder, holding me tight to her. “Stop it, Allie. He’s not worth your tears.”
“Nothing worked. He’ll never love me like I love him. I’m not good enough for him. He kept me around to fuck. That’s all I was to him, a stupid fucking fuck buddy that he could use to get off. He never cared about me.”
The truth … it hurt.
Imani stroked my hair and pushed some tears from my face. “He’s a rich, spoiled brat. You deserve so much more. You don’t want someone like him, who doesn’t care about your feelings.”
I hiccuped again and sobbed. It hurt so bad, so fucking bad. “But I love him so much that it hurts. I will never stop loving him. I’ve tried so many times, Imani. He’s fucking sewn himself into my heart, and he keeps stabbing me with the needle.”
And while Jace Harbor had broken my heart yet again, my stupid hurting heart still wanted him.
But I couldn’t … I wasn’t supposed to even like him again. It was wrong.
