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Chapter 4
Camilla
My mind wandered whilereading over new cases, and soon enough Sebastian made an appearance. A smile swept across my face. Seeing him again just brought up old feelings. I always thought it would be me and him against the world, but then high school happened.
Could I hold a grudge for fifteen years ago against him? Wouldn’t that be childish? I needed to find a way to forgive him for past mistakes, and grow up. It’s the only way I was going to be able to open up and embrace what we may be able to have.
Me: Wanna go to dinner?
Sebastian: 3403 Kroger St. Meet you there in an hour
I headed home to change first, and my mind couldn’t seem to focus. There must be a reason life had ushered us back toward each other. We were away from each other and yet we’re now hanging out like old friends. Don’t get me wrong, it’s nice to see the change in him especially after all the things he endured.
My red mid length dress has been paired with some nude wedges, and I was ready to head out to dinner. This wasn’t a date, or was it? Both of us were dancing around the subject and neither one of us wanted to make the first move. It made sense with our work schedules and long hours. We were both weary of beginning a new relationship in this chapter of our lives, but could we keep pretending like there wasn’t a crazy amount of sexual tension between us? The subtle glances, and his hand resting on the small of my back wishing it would go other places.
The ride over was spent trying to find the best way to bring up my feelings, and to gauge what’s going on in his head. The way he looks at me with his eyes sparkling, and that sexy grin shows me he would love to take me to bed, but that’s not all I want. I want more than sex at this point in my life. I’d someday like to have a family, so I couldn’t let myself get distracted by Sebastian if all he was interested was sex. I needed to stay true to myself, no matter how attractive I found him.
As I pulled up to the restaurant, Sebastian was leaning against his car in a navy blue button down and grey trousers. Boy, did he look good. He smiled as I pulled up next to him. I tried to suppress mine, but it was worthless.
“Thanks for inviting me to dinner.” He said, pecking me on the cheek with his hand at the small of my back. The only thing I could do was smile. I’m not sure why I’m nervous.Get it together, girl.
We walked inside, and the waitress sat us across from each other. This wasn’t a date, remember?Be cool. I could smell his cologne from across the table, but it was faint, not overpowering like most men.
“How was work today?” he asked.
Why was I so damn nervous? He was an attractive man with a professional career, and viewed me as an angel.
“It was extensive. Prepared a few new cases. Nothing major.” Was today ever going to end? I didn’t expect business to pick up so fast, but my name was getting dropped for recommendations.
“I worked a sixteen-hour shift. Not ready to do it again tomorrow but hey, I can’t complain, right?” He muttered.
Hell yeah, he can complain. Sixteen hours? How the hell can one stay up, let alone work for that long? Wouldn’t it impact his job? Sleep deprivation?
We continued talking through dinner about our lives, but he brought up asking me out in high school.
“I’ve been curious. Why’d you say no?”
Wow, that came out of nowhere. How could I explain it to him? I was extremely self conscious , and just came into my womanhood over the summer, so my body changed significantly. “It’s like I got hot over the summer and none of the guys would leave me alone.” I sighed. “You asked me out, and I was pissed you didn’t do it sooner.”
He bobbed his head. I was waiting for him to reply but he gave me nothing, only his gaze which fixed on mine. I’m under no circumstances to lie or be anything but honest.
He sighed, “Honestly, I finally worked up the courage to ask you. I constantly tormented you because that’s what adolescent boys do when they like a girl. They mock them. I’m sorry if you thought otherwise. That wasn’t my intention.” His hand grazed mine, and a spark shot up.
Maybe I should have said yes, but I’m glad I didn’t. If I’d been in love, my life choices might have altered. I could have been one of those girls who gave up college to move in their boyfriend. Was that terrible of me? We were both here presently and look at what we accomplished? Both doing what we always wanted. I’d say life worked out the way it was meant to in both our favors.
The conversation took a different direction, reminiscent of all the times we would sneak away into the woods and enjoy each other’s company. We were so close once upon a time.
“I think it’s time we get going. The hostess keeps eyeing me,” He glances down at his watch, “it seems we’ve been here for over three hours and they’d like to get more patrons in here.”
He escorted me to my car, with his hand gently against the small of my back.
“I enjoyed dinner. Would ya like to do it again, but as an official date?” His eyes darted at the ground. “If you’re okay with that of course?”
I squealed inside, and my face brightened. I would love to go out with him again or well officially. When I was younger, it’s all I dreamed about, and it’s finally coming true. “I would love to.” He swayed over, kissed me on the cheek and went to his car.
