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My eyes went to his jaw, exhilarated at the sight of that muscle jumping. It was like watching a seismometer move back and forth, warning of an impending earthquake
“Yeah, this is Logan, the kids’ dad. He drove down this morning to check on Cole,” I explained, realizing belatedly that it probably looked like he’d spent the night.
Ten years of heartache flashed through Ryan’s eyes; it was there and gone again in a second, but I caught it. His body language was telling a story of vengeance and reclaiming what was his, but his eyes dipped to the ground, choosing a different path.
“I should go,” Ryan muttered softly, and before I could challenge him on why that wasn’t necessary, he turned around and ran down the steps.
It was fine. I didn’t care that it felt like my heart had lodged itself in my throat or how hurt slammed so hard into my chest I nearly fell back.
I didn’t need people in my life who didn’t want to be there, or who didn’t understand that shared custody was a complicated mess, something that required grace and a whole lot of patience.
“Logan, what the hell?” I slammed the door shut and stormed toward the kitchen.
The second my feet landed in front of my ex, he mauled me.
His lips crashed against mine, and his hands went to my hips, lifting me onto the counter.
It was a rush, a frantic panic of harsh strokes and frenzied fingers.
After a swipe of his tongue against mine, I pushed at his chest.
“What the actual fuck, Logan?” I growled, my mouth tingling from feeling his rough lips on mine. He caged me in so I couldn’t get down without pushing at him, but when I pushed, he wouldn’t budge.
“Bex…” He leaned his head against my chest, letting out a heavy sigh.
“Logan, let me down. Now,” I demanded harshly.
His blue eyes lifted to mine, and he only hesitated for a second before he realized this wasn’t going to go how he’d hoped.
Jumping down from the counter, I crossed the kitchen, ensuring the island was between us. Logan watched me carefully as he crossed one leg over the other, leaning against the counter.
“I’m sorry, Bex. It’s just…I’ve been having these feelings stir back up for you over the last few months, and last night, I was lying awake in bed thinking about how Cole could have seriously been hurt, and I wasn’t here.”
I stared, bereft of words for a moment at the audacity of this man. “Was Dana in bed with you while you were pondering this conundrum?”
Logan’s wince was proof enough.Asshole.
“Are you still with Dana, Logan? Did you just cheat on your girlfriend for absolutely no reason? Because there’s no hope here for you and me. We aren’t ever getting back together,” I explained, shaking with fury…and maybe shock? How could he be such an asshole?
“Why are you so quick to dismiss us? You know, even when you wouldn’t marry me, I thought if I just gave you some time, it would get better. But you were already mentally breaking us up the first second you thought I might not stay,” Logan yelled, pointing at his chest, a red, glassy sheen taking over his gaze.
“Don’t pin this on me. We were dating, I got pregnant…I was good to you, faithful to you, and yes, Logan, I loved you. I still love you, but—”
“You’re notin lovewith me? You never were. I was the idiot, staying here, hoping one day you’d fall for me like I fell for you.” Tears welled in his eyes, forcing my own to surface.
I hated this. I hated hurting him; it had never been my intention, but I couldn’t fake my feelings. I’d wondered a thousand times if this was how my father had felt, if he just hadn’t been able to engage in any kind of relationship with me because it wasn’t there. The irony that I was doing the same thing to the father of my own kids was like a hot knife slicing against my skin. I didn’t want to do it. I did love Logan, but everyone deserves to be loved entirely, not halfway.
“Logan, we’ve been through this. It’s why we broke up…why you started things with Dana…why are you doing this?” My voice cracked. So many of our fights had revolved around this issue; our anger and hurt was still all tied up in this pain.
“Because I saw this.” He tossed his phone across the counter.
Picking it up, I saw a Photogram post of Ryan and Bella in the waiting room of the hospital. She was looking up, giggling at something he said, while he looked down, smiling at her. There were already three hundred thousand likes, and probably just as many comments.
I scrolled through a few just out of curiosity.
OMG—is he dating her momma?
Is this a secret baby?
