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We don’t get a chance to say a word to each other, but his look slices through me. His stare is cold, unforgiving and callous.
“Hudson, can you sit by the bed and Landon can you stand by the dresser. We want to test the last goodbye scene before Grant finds out about Devon because it’s one of the most emotive scenes in the movie and we need to know if you both can pull off the emotion we need.”
We both get in position, and I swallow hard. This scene involves a kiss and I know I need to channel my own devastation into my character. It’s what drew me to the audition in the first place.
“Action,” Cameron calls and I lift my eyes, smiling as I pull the memory of our last morning together up. It’s one of the best and worst memories I have because we were so stupidly in love.
“So, I’ll be out till late tonight.” Landon speaks and his voice is deeper, hoarser and makes my body tingle as it washes over me.
“Cap wants to assign me some unsolved cases, so we’re going to go over them.”
At his words guilt swells up in Devon and I drop my eyes to the bed. The pain lashes over Devon because he knows what this means. It’s time to leave. It’s time to go and leave the man he loves without answers.
“Okay baby.”
Landon walks over and lifts my chin up, lowering his lips to mine and pressing the softest of kisses to my lips. My heart thunders in my chest and I chase his lips for another kiss which he gives me as Cameron calls cut.
“That was perfect guys. Absolutely phenomenal.” His eyes dart between us and he steps closer.
“I knew we’d made the right choice casting you both.”
Landon smirks at him, turning his back to me and walking back to the dresser as I struggle to control the feelings inside me. Hurt, desire and attraction are waring inside me, but I know I need to taper it down.
My eyes dart over to Landon, but he’s staring resolutely in the opposite direction and when he feels my stare, he glances my way hitting me with a hate filled gaze before he turns away from me again.
“Landon?” My voice shakes as I try to get his attention, but he spins towards me at the sound of my low whisper and shakes his head. His body seems to be shaking as he storms towards me and leans over me, glaring down at me with icy blue eyes that could cut glass.
“You couldn’t even last ten fucking minutes. I don’t want to talk to you. We talk when filming and that’s it.”
“Please,” I beg, not sure what I’m even begging for, but he leans lower, his lips brushing softly against my ear as he speaks in a cold whisper that sends chills and agony through me in equal measure.
“No. You don’t fucking get it, do you? I wish you weren’t here. This is the biggest break of my career and there you are, the only person I’ve ever been stupid enough to love. You ruined me, ruined us so leave me the fuck alone.”
He pulls back as my breath stutters and I can feel the panic building in my chest, needing an outlet but before I can stand up and rush away like I want to he turns and is gone, crossing the room and speaking to Cameron and Greg, leaving the scent of his body behind and my heart breaking in my chest.
I stuff my fist into my mouth and bite down hard on the knuckle as I stand up on shaking legs. I wish I could leave, just go somewhere and forget about everything, but I can’t and maybe it’s time I stop trying to run. Maybe I need to face up to it and own up to the fact that he hates me because of something I did. I deserve it and if he needs to hate me then I can take it.
Fuck this is going to be brutal, but I need to do this. Maybe this will be where I finally make myself get over him and where I start the healing process. I still love him, that’s not going to change, ever, but maybe it’s time to finally let him go. Maybe I can try that instead of holding on to something I’ve already lost forever.
Chapter Three
LANDON
Kissing Hudson feels like coming home. It feels like every early morning kiss and every memory that I have with him is tied up in this fucking movie now.
The soft fullness of his lips has me chasing more of it and when he follows me for a kiss I can’t help responding even though my head is screaming at me, my instincts have taken over and as I lick along the seam of his lips, feeling him open up for me, I almost forget where we are and what we’re doing as the outside world fades to grey. It’s just him and me, until my head breaks through the fog surrounding us.
HE CHEATED ON YOU! YOU CAUGHT HIM IN BED WITH HIS FRIEND! WAKE THE FUCK UP!
My inner voice has always been a sanctimonious little bastard but it’s right, so I drag my lips away and spin away from him trying to get my reaction to the kiss under control as I hear Cameron on the other side of the room speaking about how he knew we’d be great at the role and discussing our casting with Greg, Maggie and Kev, the casting director.
I’m still beyond livid that he kept this news from me, but Greg points out that I’d have hightailed it in the other direction if I’d known and he’s far from wrong. My body thurmed with the desire to bolt when he walked into the staging area, but it was the kiss that makes me desperate to get away because it’s us, him and me and we fit, just like we always have.
He’s as beautiful as the day I left him, but thoughts of that day leave a sour taste in my mouth. I know I’m killing him with my eyes in a million different way. He is the very last person I expected to be cast with but I’, a grown up and I can deal with him being here. I don’t have any choice. I have to accept him being here, even though it’s reopening the agonizing wounds in my chest that I fight against every single day.
I head his soft voice pleading for me to turn around and face him and when I do, the barely concealed fury I’m feeling lashes out and finds the only target it’s meant for. I watch as he shrinks into himself at my words and while I feel guilty that he seems so lost and alone, I’m too angry to care.
I stomp across the room coming to halt beside Maggie who gives me a fake smile and I want to wipe it off her face because while Hudson is solely responsible for the wreckage that became our relationship, she’s also had a major part in pulling us apart.
