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~WILLOW~
When I opened my eyes,I stood in a field of roses. This meadow was different than a normal rose garden. The wondrous roses gathered here consisted of pink, purple, black, and red roses.
Each had a hint of sparkle to them. The red and purple roses carried sparkles of black while the black and pink roses flickered with white.
The sky was navy blue and completely clear of clouds and stars, but it was perfect because the moon took up a good portion of the sky, looking so close that I debated if lifting my hand up would allow me the privilege of brushing my fingers along her grand surface.
The pink reminded me of my hair, and I looked to see my strands were as white as snow. The sight made me smile sadly while I lowered my head in shame. I was in a place where tranquility existed, and yet I felt undeserving of such reality.
It left me wondering if my sacrifice was even worth it.
"Lift thy head, my child."
I did as ordered of me. The loving parental voice felt uncalled for as I suddenly saw a woman in the distance. A woman wearing all white, so beautiful, so pure. Her gaze was as calming as the emotions she evoked with her appearance, leaving me shocked as I acknowledged who this woman was.
Mother Moon?
"You've lost your way, my child."The way she spoke made the roses move from side to side in praise as if winds were dancing around their petals and lifting them up into the sky. As she approached, I was unable to keep standing. My knees buckled as I fell to the ground and bowed my head in absolute submission.
To finally have some sort of face to our creator was a dream come true, and yet I couldn't feel more unworthy after the insults I'd thrown her way before death.
"Do not fret about the past, my child. It has been written and cast away. I do not judge you."
Her words filled me with overwhelming relief, so much that I cried like a baby who wished to be in the loving arms of their mother. Arms encircled me, which ignited those heavy sobs I’d sought long and hard to keep in all this while, and my cries echoed around me as I allowed those emotions to seep out into this vast world of the dead, mourning my inability to prosper through to the finish line of life.
I failed you, Mother Moon. I failed in proving to the world that I was worthy of your grace.
"You have not failed me, Willow. You've merely been hidden from the truth of who you are meant to be. What you are destined to accomplish."
She allowed me to shed all those tears before she aided me in rising from the ground to look up at her. Her smile was radiant, like watching the sun rise into the sky to start a new chapter.
"It's too late now." I spoke quietly as I was forced to accept the truth. "I've passed on. I no longer carry life."
"You are right,"she began while taking in my sad eyes at her agreement with my new circumstance."But it looks like someone won't let you go."
"Someone won't let me go?" I didn’t understand what she meant until I noticed she was looking elsewhere. Following her gaze, I was unable to hide my astonishment as I stared into the sky, which seemed to reflect when I'd faded away into the depths of the lagoon.
There was Onyx, fighting to reach me, his wrists bleeding furiously and tainting the water that was already plagued with my blood. Death looked hideous on me, my skin so pale I might as well be considered a ghost, my white silky strands floating all around as I continued to drift downward.
The desperation in Onyx's eyes was what killed me, and the image suddenly flickered until the same scenario was playing upon the sky's surface, only we were younger. My hair was shorter and still had hints of pink.
My wounds were more obvious in this vision, just like Onyx's whipped arms and legs that swam hard to reach me. No matter the past or present, he always came after me, and that was what made me sob on his behalf. The love he had for me would be the end of him.
It didn’t matter if he died right here and now or somehow survived this ordeal. The memory of me would lead him to a path of loneliness, even if his mate came out of the blue.
"You love him,"Mother Moon stated with pride as she watched the scene fade and the sky return. She lowered her gaze to watch me nod swiftly, my tears streaming down my cheeks as I held back my sobs.
"Then what stops you from giving him your all? What prevents you from allowing him and those who you see a potential relationship with from entering?"
"I'm not a wolf." I stated the words that had haunted me my entire life. "A day will come when I'll have to let him go. I'll have to watch him gaze into the eyes of another woman. To stand there...helplessly as their bond for one another activates, and watch the love he once had for me be offered to another who doesn't know him the way I know him. Who will love him differently from the way I love him...and the mere thought of such occurring breaks my heart. It shatters it each time, and I'm left to internally pick up the pieces and hope that day won't be today."
"Willow."Her sad eyes didn’t pity me but displayed a sense of empathy as she reached out to stroke my cheek."Why do you believe that you are not blessed like the others?"
"They say I'm a human, but I don’t belong to that side of the world. I'm a being of magic and yet I'm an outcast in the land of witches. I carry shifter blood, yet I have no wolf to prove my worth. That leaves me as nothing but a freak that has no place to call home...and it's lonely. When will the day come when I will have my own pack? Willow's little forbidden pack of individuals that accept me...that love me, even if I'm nothing but an odd creation of various properties."
She stroked my cheeks and gave me a tender smile that was filled with love.
"Let me ask you this,"she began."If you were not a wolf, how could you arrive in the Land of the In Between?"
