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"Let that shining light heal your broken heart. Allow yourself...to be loved...to be...free."
To be free?
My eyes snapped open and I darted forward. My body was drenched in a cold sweat and yet it felt like I was on fire.
Alright, I was on fire.
The flames from my dream were in my present, and I cursed before I was up and using the nearby extinguisher to put out the flames that caught onto the bed. The lingering smoke moved through the room, but it wasn't enough to alarm anyone else.
I'd forgotten about fireproof sheets, but I hadn't experienced a dream like that in a solid year. It was always like this during this season.
Looking at the mess only left me exhausted, and I debated whether or not I should go for a run. I was craving a pack run, but it was around four in the morning. With the long night we'd had before the clean-up, I doubted anyone would be up for it.
"Jayce?"Dimitris's sleep-filled voice made me frown.
I'm okay, Dimitris. It was just a dream.
I had to be really fucking spooked to wake Dimitris from his sleep. Poor guy never slept for more than a few short hours, and after the mess that happened tonight, I was sure he slept the same time I did, which was less than two hours ago.
"You...sure?"I could imagine him trying to stay awake.
Yah. Don't worry. I'm gonna drink some hot milk and get some air with a quick run. I'm not going far.
"Take...someone with you."I was sure he wanted to go, but he was seriously at his limit. I questioned how he did it. I'd never have the tolerance to be an Alpha and still manage to function in society.
Most Alphas were like Roberto; they let everyone do the dirty work while they sat and relaxed until they were necessarily needed. It was why I could safely assume Roberto didn't need to be at the Pack House for the wolves to behave themselves.
They had their Betas in control, filling all the leadership roles, and only involved the Alpha if it was necessary -and if it was, those wolves in question better beg for forgiveness or they would be dead.
Dimitris was the only reason why I was willing to take the chance and join the Forbidden Pack. He projected a controlled vibe that expressed hints of his frustration while maintaining a level of calm that many perceived as dangerous.
That allowed him to be sneaky, calculative, and completely in control of a situation if he wished to take over the driver's seat. Everyone was always shocked by the unexpected turn of events when he was involved, and that was what I needed in an Alpha.
Someone unpredictable but who knew exactly what he was doing for his pack.
I'll take Saint with me.
"Hmm..."Dimitris trailed off, and I knew he was falling back to sleep. I didn't bother him as I took a few breaths to calm myself down. Closing my eyes, I allowed my heart to begin to calm before I opened them to review the mess.
I'll do it later.
The idea of cleaning up made me anxious, and I didn't want to risk waking Dimitris yet again. With a sigh, I forced myself to drag my feet and left my room to head downstairs.
I peeked into Saint's room to see if he was awake, but he was completely knocked out, his body laid out on the bed with a book resting on his chest. After helping me with the clean-up, and doing security duty beforehand, I was sure he was exhausted, like everyone else.
We all hadn't been getting good enough sleep, and it was beginning to put a strain on all of us. I disliked the fact that we were getting so out of balance, but we'd have to figure out some sort of routine soon if we wanted Willow to adapt.
When Onyx joined the pack, it wasn't as hard to adjust to. He was extremely independent, to begin with. The only difference now was that we could feel his obsession with Willow and hints of his insecurities.
He was good at showing nothing else bothered him but Willow's livelihood, but I felt like he worried about who he was -or was supposed to be.We hadn't gotten a chance to really exchange pasts, but I think that was how it was.
The Forbidden Pack was different than other packs where you sought to learn about every detail regarding each pack member. We didn't do that bullshit. We all had secrets, all understood that our pasts would come back to haunt us and that we'd have to face it whether we liked it or not.
We knew that no matter what brought its ugly head our way, we'd deal with it, and wouldn't hesitate to fuck shit up with our enemies that tried to fuck up our dynamic.
Everyone assumed that because of the secrets pack members held, when the truth came out, it would be an act of betrayal. We didn't go by those bullshit rules. We trusted one another to get every pack member out of a situation, regardless of the secrets that could only pile up the list of enemies that threatened us.
We were a team, a group of fucked-up individuals with tainted pasts, and we were okay with that.
