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“I know you don’t,” he replied and once again was back in female form. “Yet, when you look at me, you struggle to differentiate between your best friend you once held romantic feelings for and your new mate you were forced to be destined to.”
“That’s not true,” I argued, but I couldn’t deny the hesitation in my voice because I’d already proven my struggle when I was drunk and almost attacked her.
“I’m not trying to criticize you in any way,” she acknowledged and moved her hand from mine to touch the grass beneath us while her eyes lowered. “I just hate how the change in situation feels like it’s fucked up how our unity somehow. It’s made it a bit of a burden to you rather than a blessing.”
“Auraleia.”
She glanced back up to see I was William once more, the stern intensity in my eyes clearly shocking her enough to let those orbs of golden lime widen.
"This bond between us isn’t a burden. Regardless of the situation with Aurelia, I don’t see it as such. Am I struggling with balancing everything that’s happened in literally 72 hours? Yes. I feel like I’m constantly drowning while trying to keep myself together so the world doesn’t judge me as cruel as a kingdom would watching its female ruler crumble under pressure. Despite that, I don’t regret our bond. It’s neither of our fault that the Vile Queen used us during vulnerable states in our lives for her own petty advantage, and honestly, maybe forgetting you until our bond awakened was the right call because I don’t think I would have been able to handle anything more back then when I was struggling with my own trauma from that near-death experience.”
I paused to swallow the lump in my throat but I didn’t dare look away as my stomach flipped and tossed in nervousness.
"I know in the world of shifters that meeting your bonded mate and jumping right into the intimacy part of things is normal. Encouraged. Accepted by everyone. I’m…just not used to it. It was only a few months ago that I was an outcast from my own community for not being a wolf shifter. For being a late bloomer in a world that wants power and perfection. Going from that to suddenly being someone everyone now watches intensely in wait for me to fuck up is…staggeringly frustrating.” I hoped she was understanding what I was trying to say. "I haven’t really gotten time to sort out my emotions and maybe…I fear it seems like we’re still strangers even though I remember the sacred memories we did share together before we were pulled apart by fate. Maybe I’m just thinking too much into this but at the same time…I don’t want you to get the impression I’m in this for your body or the lust that’s pulsing between us.”
Talking about it made me blush a little as I ended up averting my gaze in hopes that it would help me forget how my dumb cock was reacting.
Being a man with an overreacting dick sucks.
"I’m not sure if we can take things slow…because a part of me doesn’t want to. I want to swim in these emotions and continue enjoying the freeing warmth that blazes through me when our eyes meet or when we’re inches apart from each other. I really want to bathe in this feeling for as long as I can, but maybe that’s a bit selfish of me when I’m certain you’re dealing with just as much burdensome uncertainty as I am.”
I managed to smile as I looked back at her, noticing how red her cheeks were as she stared back at me.
“If our future and the future of the Forbidden Pack didn’t rely on these final days of the year, I’d gladly go to Faerie with you and ensure everyone knows what we are to one another. I’d prove the power we carry in our grasp and put an end to whatever rumors I’m sure are blossoming through the grapevine in regards to our bond. I guess I’m being a bit wishy-washy which isn’t helpful in a world where actions speak louder than words.” I took the chance to lay my hand on top of hers, noticing how she watched my every move. "I guess I’m trying to say that I really hope you don’t think I don’t want this or that I’m interested because of my past relationship with Aurelia. I’ve come to accept that fate works in mysterious ways, and though I can’t agree with everything that fate has allowed to transpire, I can wholeheartedly accept our relationship as something I’m interested in pursuing if you’re okay with waiting a bit longer.”
Wait for me to deal with all this madness so I can truly enjoy the process of falling in love as I have with the others.
The way she smiled brightened her entire face, and my heart fluttered in delight while I had to ignore the way my cock grew tight.
"I managed to wait almost fifteen years for us to be reunited, right?” she quietly offered. “What’s a few more days?”
The relief must have shown on my face because she reached out and lightly pressed her hand upon my cheek.
“I never want you to feel pressured into loving me. Am I impatient? Yes. It’s pretty much a Fae thing to do what our bodies want and ask questions later, but…I want to do this right with you. I want the memories we make to be good ones. Ones you’ll cherish and never be able to forget,” she confessed, and once again, she was Amos. “I want to experience new things I’d never have the privilege of in Faerie, and frankly, I’m even more excited by the idea of delivering revenge to all those who wish to bring you down at what they deem is your lowest.”
I chuckled at that and rolled my eyes.
“The fuckers think I’d mourn for fucking days. They underestimate me.”
“Essentially,” he replied and let his hand slip from my cheek only to purposely trail it down my chest towards my groin.
I arched an eyebrow at him but didn’t move as he merely smirked and leaned in close.
"Though you can’t deny you’re bolder as a male.”
“Just like you’re ruthless?” I tossed back.
“Actually, some say I’m a better villain as a female.”
“Meaning you’re a softy as a male? I really doubt that,” I argued and groaned when he gripped my groin far too roughly.
“Trust me, William. I’m only soft to you and those you deem precious.” His husky voice made all my senses go wild while my cock only grew harder at his physical advance. I bet he felt it as he gripped tightly, and I could see his satisfaction as his grin spread further across his flawless face.
“Dancing between genders with you is going to be interesting,” he mumbled more to himself and roughly tugged my bottom lip before kissing me long and hard. “But I don’t want to deal with your Alpha.”
He winked and pulled away before he rose up and grabbed our glasses of smoothies.
“I’ll meet you back at the safe house,” he announced. “You know how to get back, I’m assuming.”
