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She chuckles but it's sad. I take a deep breath and try not to think of last night. But I know deep down I will never forget.
“I made a promise and I fulfilled it. Texas AMU is not the place for me, but I am thankful for everything it taught me.”
She scoffs and I glance her way. She has a scowl on her face.
“You’re too good for this world, Cara. I'm going to miss you so much.” I wipe my eyes again and take a seat beside her. I’m done crying over them. I am made of stronger stuff.No more tears, Cara. At least until you are back in Kansas.
I grab my suitcase and refold the majority that Sassy dumped when she yanked it away from me. She watches me for a moment then laughs.
“You know the worst part, girl? I really thought you’d changed the notorious Hawthorne guys.” I stop what I'm doing and give her a glare.
“I tried to warn you they were bad news, but even I was fooled. I honestly thought they loved you.”
You and me both sister. They fooled everyone. “I really don't want to talk about them ever again, okay?” I ask in a shaky voice.
“Oh, babe, my stupid ass mouth. Of course you don't.”
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I still can't believe how much my life has changed within the last six hours. I went from having the best night of my life to feeling worthless and questioning what was ever real.How is this my reality? This sounds like some plot from a Dark Bully Romance.
Sassy walks with me to the bus stop, chattering away, trying to keep my mind busy. I’m scared one of the guys is going to try and stop me, but, then again, after what they did, I doubt I mean that much to them. If I did, how could they ever throw me away like I’m trash? I guess I shouldn’t be as shocked as I am, the signs were always there, Jase broke my heart once before.
“You have to stay in touch with me, girl. We may not have known each other long, but you’re my sister from another mister, babe.”
I laugh, though it’s weak, and pull her into a super-tight hug. She pulls away and winks at me, “Hey, you finally gave me a hug clothed. I think I prefer the towel more.”
I roll my eyes and give her a gentle shove.
“I’ve given you plenty of hugs clothed,” I scoff. She shakes her head and gives me a once over. “Have you?” she says while patting her chin with her finger in thought. “I only seem to remember the towel ones.”
I know what she’s doing, and I appreciate it. I pull up my ticket on my phone and scan it at the check in station. We move to the depot and take a seat on the bench. She lies her head on my shoulder and tells me so many random, dirty things about her girlfriend, that I know my face is beet red. I may not be a virgin anymore, but I’ll never be as experienced as her. I close my eyes and let the exhaustion of the past day take over.
“I’m going to miss you, Sassafras,” I say quietly. And it’s the truth, she made this place bearable. “Are you sure there is nothing I can do to make you stay? I know if you leave, Cara, that’s it. You’ll never come back.”
I think about staying for all of two seconds, and then all the heartbreak, lies, betrayal, and misery remind me I need to get the fuck out of dodge. I wipe my eyes and open them, blinking back the tears.Ugh I’m going to cry again.
“No more tears, Cara. You’re strong, and don’t need any man to control you.”
I nod my head and shake my hands out.
“I know. It’s their loss right?” I whisper.
“Damn straight, babe.”
Brakes squeal down the road.
“I guess I better go. It’s a long drive back to Kansas.”
She pulls me in for one more tight hug, then helps me pick up my bags, handing them to me. The bus stops in front of the bench and the doors squeak as they open. I take a deep breath and start ascending the few stairs, turning at the last moment I give her a wave. She’s standing there blowing me kisses and sticking her tongue out. I’m really going to miss her.
I walk down the aisle and find a seat. There are hardly any people around. Probably all enjoying their Valentine’s dates. I was enjoying mine as well until Penny ruined everything.
I take a window seat and set my bags on the seat beside me. I dig out one of my scrapbooks and look at the pictures that have always helped cheer me up. Opening my messages I lean back and block the guys group chat. Then I move to our individual text threads and block them except Connor, Xavier, and Layton. Lay looked so broken, I don’t think he was part of this. The other two can kiss my ass. Anger, another form of heartbreak avoidance.Yeah I think I’d rather be angry than cry. I open Instagram and am immediately swarmed with videos and pictures of my betrayal. I scroll past them looking for anything else to distract me. Memphis has a video of him and his girl Dolly on the red carpet doing some event for a children’s hospital. I haven’t met his girlfriend yet and she seems nice, but Frankie can’t stand her and that causes me concern. Frankie loves everyone.
I close out of the app and send him a message.
Me:I miss you
