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Celia waited for her to nod before speaking. “Another man that Jami has been with for a number of years.” She found Jami’s hand. “I won’t say what I’ve said before, but it’s important to hear another truth. Sex isn’t always terrible.” Celia took a breath, then pushed on. “I thought it was before Trenton, but I was wrong. Honestly, Jami, it seems like you never wanted to have sex with Andrew.”
“Wait, did the prick force you?” Erin asked, her expression dark.
“No, I decided to do it.” After the first time, anyway. Her hand pulled free so her fingers could grip each other in her lap. She didn’t want to talk about Andrew. Her eyes slid to Celia as she blurted out, “I’ve already had sex with Malcolm!”
Celia’s eyes widened.
“Whoa,” Katie said, falling back against the couch again. “How’d I miss that?”
“We all did, chick,” Erin muttered. She frowned. “Then why do you two keep playing footsie with each other?”
“It was a long time ago, actually,” Jami admitted. That was the problem. “I lost my virginity to him.”
The women stared at her.
Katie broke the silence. “That’s so romantic.”
Jami decided not to tell Malcolm’s sister it had been in the nurse’s office back in high school. “You don’t even know the details.”
Katie waved that away. “I mean that you found each other again. It’s like you were meant for each other.”
Erin looked over at her doubtfully. “Well, not if it wasn’t good.” She looked at Jami again. “I’m sure he’s better now. I mean, notsuresure, I’d never do it with Mal, but it’s been a while. First times tend to suck. Give him another chance.”
“Oh, it didn’t suck,” Jami blurted. Her cheeks heated when the women stared at her. She shrugged. “I kind of thought I made it all up because I orgasmed so many times.” Her shoulders hunched when they continued to stare.
Erin broke the silence with a laugh, slapping Jami’s shoulder. “Good on you, chick. Big bro is a sex god, after all.”
Katie groaned, closing her eyes.
Erin ignored her. “So, what’s the problem? If it was good back then, he’s going to really rock your world now.”
“But, with Andrew…” Jami swallowed, closing her eyes.
Celia’s hand closed over hers. “I’ve told you he wasn’t right for you.”
Jami shook her head, but not to deny the truth of the words. “I’m different now. I’ve changed. The carefree girl Malcolm remembers is gone.” She took a breath, blurting out her real worry. “What if he’s disappointed?”
When the silence continued, Jami chanced opening her eyes. The first thing she saw was Erin’s scowl.
“Anyone else want to kick this Andrew prick’s balls into his throat?” she muttered, standing up to pace.
“Jami?” Katie asked. Her brow wrinkled in confusion. “Do you not love my brother?”
Jami blinked at her. Malcolm was wonderful; gentle and caring, in a strict way. He even took care of his family. Anyone would love him, but she thought Katie was saying something else. Jami had no idea what it felt like to actually beinlove with someone.
Erin waved the question away. “Stop being such a romantic, Kay. You don’t have to be in love to fuck someone.” She plopped into the chair across from Jami again. “But listen up, chick. Nick taught me this.” She leaned forward, capturing her gaze. “You only fuck for your own enjoyment. If you’re considering fucking Mal out of some ‘I owe him so much’ crap, then don’t. A friendly handshake and a ‘see you around’ will do.”
Jami winced. That came a little too close to what she’d allowed to happen with Andrew. “Malcolm already told me that.” She’d watched him enough to know that he did get satisfaction from helping others. If she had sex with him as some sort of payback, that would be the worst thing she could do. She glanced down at her lap before admitting, “I want to have sex with him.”
“If it’s about the ‘no orgasms since he broke through your barrier’ thing, which is really awesome, chick, then just tell him that.” Erin smirked at her. “Knowing Mal, he’ll be determined to make up for lost time. I see him as very giving.”
Katie groaned. “Christ, Erin, you said you’d never imagined it.”
Erin shrugged. “The guys around me have hot bods. I haven’t always been completely immune. Trent and Mal seem very giving. Blake now, I pictured him as a selfish prick, so he never did it for me.”
“Blake isnotselfish.” Katie glared at her friend.
Erin laughed. “That’s what you’re hung up on, chick? That I never considered sex with your husband?”
