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I reach up and cup her cheek, and for a second, she leans into my touch. Running my thumb along her lower lip, I smile when she opens for me and I dip into that luscious warmth. Her tongue dances across the tip of my thumb, cause my cock to harden ever so slightly.
“You have no idea how much I want you on your knees right now,” I tell her.
It’s one of the first emotionally charged things I’ve said to her. Whenever we speak, it always involves a spew of anger or hatred. But right now, it’s pure lust.
Her teeth bite down on my thumb, hard, and I can’t stop the smile on my face. She’s a fighter. I like that, a lot.
“If you ever try that with my dick down your throat,” I inform her coolly. “I will make you pay in ways that will remind you of what you did wrong. Make no mistake, I can hurt you, sweetheart.” With that, I pull away, causing her mouth to pop open and her pretty eyes to widen. “Go to Valen,” I tell her.
The dismissive nature of my command has her brows furrowing together, and I half expect her to refuse, but she doesn’t. Instead, she leaves me standing at the car, my hand on the roof, and my mind in a fucking mess.
The races are about to start with two Ferraris at the ready. I ignore Valen’s questioning stare as I make my way to the front of the crowd. I should be focused on the race as the cars speed off, but I’m watching Brielle. Valen has his arm around her shoulders. There’s nothing sexually intimate about it, but I can’t help my hands from fisting at my sides.
I’m not jealous.
I’m not angry.
I just want her to look at me the way she does them.
I don’t know what these fucking emotions running through me are, and I don’t like them. Spinning on my heel, I head down the road to a quiet section that leads off to the coastal edge of the island. The races will continue late into the night, the winner of each round taking on a new opponent. I intended to take part, but I’m not in the right mindset.
I watch the waves crashing against the rocks. It’s dark below, black as night, with only the white spray visible as the water attacks the land. I tried to scare her at the cliff edge. I mostly succeeded, but I’m now convinced this girl isn’t going to run and hide.
She challenges me. And she makes me want more.
“Are you okay?” Her voice is like a Siren’s song from behind me. I don’t turn to look at her, I keep my eyes on the blackness below. “I noticed you walk off, and wanted to say that—”
“You don’t have to look after me as if I’m a child,” I tell her as anger takes over. From when I was young, my father taught me that showing affection will get you killed. And when I realised my feelings for Kai and Valen had changed, I knew, deep down, Dad was right. My affection for them could so easily get us all killed.
“You spend your life so angry at the world, Judah,” Brielle tells me. “Why not stop for a moment and allow something good to come into your heart.”
I spin around, causing her eyes to widen in surprise.
“I’m angry because that’s what I’ve learnt to be. I run the university, this island, and my father’s organisation. Soon, I’ll be the Boss. I can’t risk allowing my enemies in.”
Her voice is a low whisper of pain when she asks, “Am I your enemy?”
Her question stops me short. I wasn’t expecting it. I’m not sure how to answer her, because I don’t see her as an enemy. She’s just someone I can’t have around me. And I don’t want to delve into that mind fuck of a reason.
“I know you don’t want me here,” she says. “But I’m staying, and I just need to know you’ll come to accept me at some point. I can’t live with a man, a husband, who doesn’t even consider me worth talking to.”
Why is she doing this to me? How the fuck is she doing this to me?
“There’s no rhyme or reason to emotions, princess,” I tell her. “Things can change within a blink of an eye. So, no matter what is going on between us at the moment, it doesn’t mean that weeks, or perhaps months, from now it will be the same.”
Frustration has twisted its roots deep within me, and I’ve no way of dealing with her, other than to show anger. Perhaps it’s because I’m raging at my father for bringing her into my life. Or maybe it’s because, deep down, I want to want her.
I can’t allow myself to get distracted by a pretty face, though. She may be my wife soon, but that doesn’t mean anything, not in this world. I’ve seen men kill their wives when the organisation demanded it. But then again, I’m not like them. I’m not even my father, despite the years I struggled to become like him.
For so long, I only had Val and Kai to give me strength. They burrowed themselves into my heart, and once they were in, there was no way of getting them out. My soul had found its matches, so I had no choice. I thought all I needed was them, but now I have to include Brielle, and I’m not sure how to do it.
“I don’t know what else to think, Judah,” she tells me, dragging me out of my thoughts and into the present moment. “You’ve made sure I’ve been on the outside of whatever you think this is,” she says as she waves a hand between us. “But we’re both in the same boat. We’ve both had our choices taken away from us, and you can’t blame me for that, no matter how much you’d like to.”
“Don’t try to understand me,” I throw back as I once again attempt to fight whatever this is between us. But I know there’s no use in even trying, because she’s been crawling under my skin, under my defences, since I first saw her.
“I do understand you more than you know,” she retorts. “We’re in this together, and if you can’t fucking respect that, then send me back. Let me go.”
I look at her. I really and truly look at her and see the darkness that swirls in her eyes. I’ve always fought the desire to meet those orbs, and now I know why. It’s because I didn’t want to see who she truly is. She’s not the spoiled princess I thought she was. There’s much more to her than the family name she holds.
