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Louis clenches his jaw, keeping himself in check.
“The day you showed up on my doorstep, you claimed Lexi had sent you, but she hadn’t. Everything about us is a lie. You keep things from me. You don’t want me to listen to what other people tell me about you because you don’t want me knowing the truth. Am I right?”
Chaos interjects, “Maybe you should take this somewhere more private.”
Nodding once, Louis grabs my arm and leads me up a set of stairs. Hustling me into an empty bedroom, he closes the door and stands in front of it as I hover in the centre of the room, keeping as much distance between us as possible.
“What else did my sister have to say?”
I nervously clear my throat. “She said you watched and followed me. I could understand you going through her to get to know me, but to follow me? That’s disturbing.”
“I never followed you.”
“But you watched me?”
“On a few occasions, but it’s not like you’re thinking. I’m not—”
“Obsessive?” I snort. “Funny, because according to your sister, you’re obsessive, too dangerous to love, and you certainly live up to your road name.”
Watching him roll his neck pisses me off. I want to see him lose his shit for myself. I want to finally meet Psycho, to see what he’s capable of, and how far he’ll go to get what he wants.
“You inserted yourself into my life while I was at my lowest. You took advantage of me.”
“You’re wrong. I came into your life when you needed me the most. Don’t forget, you made the choice to keep seeing me. Every time you rode my cock, it was because you wanted me as bad as I wanted you. Every single fucking time we’ve been together, I’ve made you happy and safe. You can’t deny that.”
Sighing, I turn my back to him, and instantly regret it. Wrapping his arms around me, he glides his hand up my chest and rests it around my throat.
“You already know I do bad things, but I promised you I’d never hurt you, and you believed me. Don’t go back on it now. Maybe I should’ve done things differently in the beginning, but the end result would still be the same. You’re mine, Evie. Mine.”
“And what would you do if I chose to walk away now? Would you lock me in a room until I changed my mind? Would it push you over the edge and leave me hurting?”
His lips press into my neck. “You’re the only person on this earth I would never hurt. I’d hurt myself before I let that happen.” His voice lowers. “Please, forget what Lexi’s told you. You know me. I’ve told you so much more than I’ve ever told anyone else. You know my darkness, and have been prepared to accept it. Did my sister tell you I was a kid when I was with Debbie? I had no fucking idea about anything. You are not the same.”
“I don’t believe what you feel for me is real,” I admit. “I think you’ve built me up in your head and ran with it.”
He drops his arms and steps back. I dare to turn around, and what I find standing before me is a broken man.
“You’re the only one I’ve ever been real with. If you can’t see that…”
“How do I know it’s real when you’ve kept these things from me? Yes, you were honest with me when you said there would be things you wouldn’t share, but if we were to move on from this, I can’t see myself living in the dark. I’m not going to be that woman sitting at home, oblivious to what’s going on.”
“You said you were happy not knowing.”
“That was when… Shit. I was crazy to think I found someone—”
“Someone who’s fallen in love with you? Someone who would do anything for you? Someone who could never even think of hurting you, let alone do it? You’re everything to me, Evie.”
It’s everything I want to hear, but my doubts are overshadowing his words. When he’s near, I can’t think properly. I need some space just to think.
“I should go.”
Walking around him, I attempt to open the door, but he reaches out and slams it shut, causing me to flinch.
“You’re my fucking world, Evie, and I won’t lose you. You’re my very fucking reason for living. I need you to hear me.”
I do hear him, and that’s the problem. I need to hear myself, and to do that, I need to be away from him.
“I don’t want a destructive love. Love shouldn’t be painful or scary.”
