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She squeezes me a little tighter and says, “I’m more alone than you think, Hawk.”
I pull back to see her face. It’s a little red from her tears, but the most beautiful sight I’ve seen in a long time. “It’s nothing. Forget it,” she says.
It seems the moment of calling a truce has passed. “How can I help?” I ask.
She grabs her water bottle and moves toward her couch. “You’ve done enough.”
Once there, she sits down and then turns on her TV as if dismissing me. Tough luck.
I kneel in front of her. She is such a stubborn little thing, I almost laugh.
“You can leave. You checked on me, we talked. It’s all fine,” she says flatly. Her brick walls are firmly resurrected and back in place. And that’s fine. I only want the chance to give her a redo, not break through the fortress around her heart. She deserves that much from me.
“Brittney, I haven’t been completely honest with you. We needed to talk for one more reason.”
Her gaze drops to mine. “And what’s that?” she asks hesitantly.
“I want a redo. I want to show you how it would’ve been if I’d known you were still a virgin,” I blurt out.
Her eyes widen with understanding. “No, thanks, Hawk. Once was enough.”
I shift to where I’m on my knees. “You didn’t play fair. I promise, I only want to give you what you should’ve had…if you’ll let me.”
Several heartbeats pass as she stares at me until I’m sure she’s going to kick me out. Sheshouldkick me out. I have no right to ask what I’m asking, but still, I am. I still can’t stand her for the hell she put me through back then, even if it wasn’t all a lie. But I’m drawn to her like a moth to a flame.
Finally, she nods her permission and I feel relief and excitement compete for dominance. I slide my hands up her jean-clad thighs getting ready to savor each moment she’s willing to give me. I move all the way to the button on her pants and open it. As I pull down her zipper, I tell her, “I’m going to make you feel good,dolcezza.”
She keeps her wide-eyed focus on me as I reach the band of her jeans and slide them down slowly. Once they’re gone, I pull off her socks and press soft kisses from her ankles to the inside of her thighs.
I slowly part her legs as she watches my every move. My lips find her silk-covered center and I breathe in her intoxicating scent before hooking my fingers in her panties and dragging them down her legs too. I glance back at her and find her lust-filled gaze fixed on mine, and then I shift my focus back to the pretty pink lips in front of me.
I reach under her again to pull her closer, leaving her spread out bare in front of me. I lower my lips and taste her, swiping my tongue over her most sensitive place, as her hips buck underneath me. I tell her, “Relax for me, baby. I’ll take care of you.”
I shift on my knees again to get comfortable so I can take care of this beautiful woman spread out before me. I swirl my tongue over and over her most sensitive places and slide my fingers inside her. She makes the sexiest sounds I’ve ever heard as she relinquishes all control. I’m drunk on the taste of her by the time she lets go for me. Her fingers grip my arm as she comes down from her high.
I rise up and meet her gaze still filled with need as her chest rises and falls with each hungry breath. “Don’t make me beg, Hawk.”
She stands on wobbly legs and pulls off her shirt and bra and I’m taken aback by her beauty. She’s gorgeous. She has the perfect hourglass curves. I reach behind me and pull my shirt off too, and as I do, she reaches for my pants. I let her take them off me, but I stop her when she starts to drop to her knees. She appears confused.
I pull her back to me. “Tonight is about you,dolcezza.”
She smirks and pushes me backward. My legs hit the couch and I fall into a sitting position. Before I can stand, she straddles my lap. Just the feel of her skin against mine this way is enough to drive me crazy. “Condoms are in my pants,” I murmur.
She reaches in the pocket of my jeans from where she threw them beside us and retrieves the condom. I start to take it from her, but she stops me. “I want to do it.”
“Whatever you want, baby,” I tell her.
She seems a little unsure, so after she opens it, I guide her hands as she rolls it down my length. Once it’s in place, she rises up enough to sink down on me. She moves slowly until she’s completely seated on my lap. I hold her close as she adjusts to me. “Are you okay?” I ask her.
“Yes. You’re just big. Give me a minute,” she says with her eyes closed.
“Take what you need,dolcezza.”I kiss her neck and caress her breasts as she starts to move and rock into me. Once we get our rhythm going, I touch her and kiss her everywhere but her lips. Everything about her fits perfectly in my hands and against my skin. I have to be careful because being with her this way and feeling like this can be dangerous.
When I feel her tightening around me, it triggers my release too. We find it at the same time, and as we do, she wraps her arms around my back and crushes her bare breasts to my chest before dropping her lips to mine in a kiss that scorches a trail straight to my heart.
I know with all certainty this was a huge mistake. After tonight, I can’t see her like this again, because if I do, I’m afraid I won’t be able to fight these feelings. I think after the kiss, I’m dangling by a thread as it is, and I refuse to ever entertain the thought of falling for her again. Tonight, we can get our fill of each other, and then tomorrow, I’ll let her go for good.
“You are everything I’ll ever want in a woman, dolcezza. There’s no one else I’d rather be with. Can’t that be enough for now? You know I’m leaving for Nashville soon, and I don’t know when I’ll be back,” Hawk says as he cups my cheek.
