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“You on top, I think,” he said. Crew’s voice was low. “That way you can’t be hurt in any way. You’ll determine how things fit, what you like and don’t like.”
He was really sweet, but I hated him worrying when he should be enjoying. I climbed onto his lap, wrapping my legs around him when I did. “I’m not worried, and I’m not fragile. We were made to do this together.”
Whatever he would have said, I didn’t let him finish. Instead, I lifted my knees enough that I could take hold of his cock and I pressed down on him, taking him inside of me inches at a time. He sucked in air, his eyes closing on pleasure. “Fuck.”
I watched him, his whole body wire taut for me. In the middle of this moment, there was something so beautiful about him succumbing to sensation. His lids lifted, slowly, his gaze heated and focused entirely on me. “I didn’t know it would feel like this. I didn’t know anything could. It’s you, Raven. From the moment you…Fuck.”
I leaned down and kissed him, moving my body to rub against him. Warmth flooded me. Yes, up and down. Vibrant sensation zinged through me with each movement, unlike anything I’d ever experienced. Instead of nothing or discomfort, little fireworks of pleasure shot through me, arching upward and building somehow.
Giving in to instinct, I squeezed my breasts, tweaking the nipples between my fingertips. Another jolt of pleasure moved through me, and Crew moaned, so I reached down and squeezed his nipple on my next thrust onto his shaft. I didn’t imagine it was easy to bring the beautiful man to such unrivaled want. He was mine right then, and I loved the sensation, and the power of it.
Then I more than loved it. Pleasure warmed me from the inside, traveling outside until I swore I could feel it in my toes. Heat like lava. It traveled my body. I moved faster, chasing the sensation, and the more I did, the more Crew responded. He grew even impossibly harder, grasping onto my hips, driving me down on top of him. It seemed as though he knew what he was doing, all of a sudden, and I didn’t, lost to my needs. It’s amazing how quickly the tables can turn.
I knew the mechanics, but I’d never experienced anything like Crew before. Hadn’t known it was possible. He had. And, oh yes, I needed him, didn’t know how I’d ever done without him. Was it…was it…?
I exploded, finally making it over the impossible crest and shattering into a million tiny pieces. He cried out, jerking inside of me, his fingertips tight against my hips. My muscles clenched around him, the orgasm dragging impossibly onward. Again and again, until I quaked with pleasure. He pulled me to him, our bodies becoming even more tangled, but I melted into him. Crew kissed me, all over my face. I closed my eyes, just trying to breathe.
It wrecked me. Pleasure, so much it bordered on painful, yet I loved every second of it.
Confusion ran over me. What did any of it mean?
I swallowed, my breath still wheezing out of me as tiny aftershocks shook my body. How was I supposed to go back to letting men rut on top of me after that? I shook my head. Maybe I didn’t have to? Except I did. No, I needed my head to shut down. Tomorrow’s problems could wait for tomorrow. I wanted to be there, in the moment with the beautiful man kissing me and stroking my back. Yes, that’s nice.
Really nice. My thoughts settled. In fact, they seemed to float away.
He rubbed my back, kissing me, his lips dragging little sparks of pleasure along my skin. Maybe he’d keep doing that forever?
I must have drifted off, because when I opened my eyes again, I was sprawled over his chest. Outside, a bird’s shrill call grated my ears, which was probably what had woken me. I yawned and thought about how much I’d been sleeping since I got to their planet. Granted, I’d been injured, but still, it seemed like a lot. I lifted my head and Crew grinned at me.
“Hey, sweetness,” he whispered. “You okay?”
I would always be okay if he continued to look at me with kindness, adoration, and the light of the universe illuminating from his gaze. I blinked. Okay, dramatic?
I didn’t live in a world where the light from the universe did anything, let alone blaze from his mind. I wasn’t the kind of girl who got lost in ridiculousness after sex. Yes, it felt incredible. The best ever. I hadn’t known it could be like that, but I knew better than most how sex had little to do with emotions. Most of the time, it was just a business transaction.
I met his gaze again, and my good sense fled as my lips curled in a silly grin. Damn it. I was hooked on this guy. Not just him, either. I was sure, if the others were there, I’d be equally willing to do it with them. It wasn’t even about the sex, although it did confirm what I already suspected.
I fell for them because they were being kind to me. Because they seemed to care.
Because they saved me. More than once.
Plus, they’re gorgeous and smart and…
I shook my head at Crew. “My head is all over the place.”
“So is mine.” He ran a hand through my hair. “A million different thoughts. One to the next. I thought maybe it was normal. Maybe I don’t know how to do this—how to live without some kind of chemical lobotomy fucking with my mind. Maybe I just don’t know how to control my thoughts now.”
I scooted up a little bit, so we could be forehead to forehead. “I’ve never been lobotomized, but this is not how I normally am. I feel different, and I don’t know yet if it’s a good thing or a bad thing.”
He closed his eyes and took a long breath. “Just taking you inside of me for a second. Letting the scent of you into my cells.”
I grinned, amusement flooding me. “Like that! You probably don’t say things like that normally, right?”
He opened his lids. We were so close, we were pretty much breathing the same air. “I don’t. I’m not some kind of poet. I’m barely a man. I’m a monster created to lead monsters. I had one chance to change my life, to be better, to fix it for all of them, and I didn’t take it. They would’ve followed me to a better life on the other side of the galaxy, but I chose to stay with Evander. That makes me a pretty bad monster leader, when it comes down to it.”
“Crew, you saved them. That’s what they all say. You saved them. You did that. Maybe that time on earth when you didn’t change sides, it just means you’re loyal. Right or wrong, you don’t abandon who brought you to the party. And hindsight is always clearer, right? Like we know what to say days later, after someone insults us.”
He smirked at me. “If someone insults me, I don’t usually let them live long enough to repeat the performance. If they insulted you, they’d be dead in a very painful way. I’m your monster now, too, beautiful.”
