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“Does that mean they’re safe to complete the bond?”
“I can’t guarantee anything, only that it’s possible. Having a child changed the course of things between Xander and Toyin. Possibly even broke the binding spell that forbade them from being together. There’s no record of an offspring from two forbidden lineages. Iraina and I both agree with what we sense from both Toyin and Rafe. Your son is the key to giving you the happiness you both so desperately want.”
“None of what you’re saying seems worth the risk which means you’re not helping us.” Xander’s irritation had only heightened since this conversation had begun.
“There’s one more thing…” Meriden’s cautious gaze shifted to Iraina.
“Stop with the secret communicating and just tell us,” Laz snarled, which had Meriden turning to Xander.
“We’re in the throes of a blood moon. You should mark her. We can be here…”
“What the fuck? You want a front row seat to us having sex?”
“We won’t be in the room with you, unless you’re open to the idea. A little voyeurism never hurt anyone but what Meriden means is she and I will be near. Our hope is to create a spell that counters the existing one binding the two of you together while you mark her. If we do so during this full moon, when our powers are at peak levels, this could work.”
A blood moon was often considered the opening path to a darker side. Mostly with feelings and emotions but with magic, the blood moon intensified the possibility of depth with the immense power that was otherwise hidden in the shadows.
“I don’t know…” I shook my head, looking at everyone in the room.
“I think we need a minute…” Xander’s eyes landed on his brother. “Alone.”
“Xan, we need to figure this out…”
“You don’t think Toy and I know that more than anyone else in this room. We need a minute so get the fuck out. All of you.” Xander was frustrated and he had good reason to be. Our son was now a part of this. Things were spinning out of control faster than we could process.
“Laz, let’s go.” Jo placed her hand on the Alpha’s chest and his eyes lowered to hers before they lifted to his brother’s once more. This time Xander relaxed some.
“I know you’re worried, but your concern doesn’t change the outcome. Right now, it’s only making things worse. Give us a minute.” Laz nodded tightly and walked away. After they were all gone Xander went to check on Rafe, who had fallen asleep. Then he sank onto the sofa. I joined him, but instead of keeping my distance like I should have, I curled my body in his lap and he let me.
“None of this seems fair,” I whispered against his chest and he exhaled a sigh and kissed the top of my head.
“Because it’s not. It’s pretty fucked up.” He kissed the side of my neck and tightened his hold on me. “You know it was never about not wanting you, right? Now that it’s all out there, I hope you know this is all I ever wanted. It’s what I need but wanting and needing you is so fucking dangerous to us both. It hurts like hell, Toy. It’s fucking killing me…”
I tensed and tried to pull away. “I should probably…”
“No…” he growled. “This is all I have. Being with you like this is all I get so I’ll take the pain. Being close with you is no worse than the pain I feel from keeping my distance.”
“Xander…”
“I said I’ll take what I can get, Toy. Stay, please.”
And I did. I was both mentally and physically exhausted. Knowing Rafe would cry if he needed us, I let everything go. In the comfort of arms that would never fully be mine, I drifted.
Chapter8
Xander.
Mark her.
Mark her.
Mark her.
I shifted in my sleep with the weight and warmth of Toyin’s body splayed across mine. Even in my sleep-laced haze, I felt content knowing she was with me. But the more my mind began to clear, the more a new feeling surfaced. The urge to make sure I had this feeling of contentment forever.
Mark her. Mark her. Mark her.
My wolf began to behave erratically, further encouraging the feeling swirling in my chest and pulsing through my veins to the point where I felt an intense need for something, forher.
