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“I can, but I don’t leave often.” I didn’t want to tell her all about the sex and debauchery I’d planned for this week, so I just left it at that.
She practically clapped. “Oh great! So, we could keep dating and seeing each other, even if we go back to our own lives, right? We don’t need to... get married, or anything crazy like that, right? Not yet, anyway.”
The relief I could hear in her words fired up my blood. It hurt. She was denying fate and our instant connection out of some misplaced sense of normalcy. It’s not like we were average humans. Our connection was always going to be something more—and she wasn’t seeing it.
I threw back the covers and walked over to my wardrobe, grabbing a pair of gray sweats and pulling them over my nakedness.
“Nicky?”
I ignored her as I donned a white t-shirt, then chose a black hoodie. I wasn’t cold, but dragged on the sweater too, just to buy me another minute as I tried to wrestle my temper into submission.
When I emerged from the dressing room again, she was still sitting in the bed, the blankets pulled up over her breasts.
The worst part was how beautiful she looked, with her long hair framing her lovely, flushed face. Her creamy shoulders practically begged for my touch. Like a siren, calling to dash myself on the shores of fate. “Yep?”
“Are you okay?” she asked hesitantly.
Finally, I was able to nod. “Yeah, I suppose you’re right. We could probably do a long distance... whatever. So, I withdraw my proposal from last night. That’s probably for the best. Until you’re sure how you feel, there’s no point having that hanging between us.”
Her lips tilted up into a quiver of a smile. “That’s true.”
“Well, that’s what’s freaked you out, isn’t it?” I asked. “I was finally honest about how I felt about you, and how I saw our future going, and you don’t feel the same way.”
She narrowed her eyes at me. “I didn’t say that. I just don’t think it’s smart to go changing our whole lives based on a two-day acquaintance.”
“Even though I think we’re fated and meant to be?” I retorted.
She rolled her eyes at me. “Can’t you hear how stupid that sounds, Nicky? Like there’s magic and then there’s this.”
My jaw dropped.What the hell does that mean?
Silence fell around us.
I’d been wrong. This wasn’t the woman for me. Something had told me, warned me, not to reveal fate’s plan to her so soon. And now I knew why. She was obviouslynotthe right one. I’d jumped the gun in my excitement and hope. I’d read into this too much. I’d built it up in my head and she thought I was insane now. She probably thought I was desperate. But I wasn’t. I trusted fate and I could wait.
“If it sounds stupid to you, then a relationship between us impossible.”
“No, Nicky. I didn’t mean...”
I held up my hand to stop her attempted protests. “I can see now that I’ve made a mistake. I apologize. If you’d like to leave today, I’ll take you myself.”
Her shoulders slumped and she shook her head. “This wasn’t what I wanted to happen, not at all.”
Well at this point I didn’t care what she wanted, which was a clear sign of how compromised and hurt I truly felts. I shook myself and took a deep steadying breath. “All right, well maybe we need to continue the discussion? Perhaps? I don’t know.”
“Yes,” she said, then gulped. “Maybe I should have a shower and we could chat over a coffee... or what time is it?”
I didn’t know and I didn’t care. “I’ll go arrange some dinner. Please, have a shower, then we can try and talk again.”
She gave me a wobbly smile.
I bowed myself out of my room. I needed to calm the fuck down. I felt like a bomb ready to explode—and that wouldn’t do. It wasn’t good enough. I wasn’t that person. I would give the conversation a second chance. Maybe in this modern era, a long-distance relationship was possible.Maybe not.
But I knew one thing for certain; that throwing Jaydy out now would be a mistake, one I wouldn’t be able to rectify if I went through with it. So, I walked to the kitchen and focused on my breathing and not on all the ways I’d just royally overreacted and fucked that up.
I have to at least try and make this work. Perhaps fate did its part, and the rest is up to me?
