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Except right this moment, clearly.
He didn’t want to ruin the rare bond they had with pointless desires. And evidently, desires only he possessed, not shared by the other man.
“Arthur,” Lancelot persisted, when he didn’t answer.
“What doyouwant?”
Arthur swallowed back his reply, his throat moving convulsively.
Here was his chance to let it all out. Everything he’d been bottling inside. But what assurance did he have that Lancelot would receive it well?
None. He had no assurances.
And every indication that, at best, Lancelot wouldn’t even understand; at worst, it would wedge a barrier between them. Make things unnatural. Make Lancelot look at him differently, and not in a good way.
“Arthur,” Lancelot poked, like a dog with a bone.
The man could be annoyingly stubborn when he wanted to be.
“Tell me.”
He shifted onto his stomach on the low-hanging branch and reached down to slap at Arthur’s stomach. And none too gently.
“Ow!” Arthur grunted.
“For gods’ sake, Lance.”
“Tell me.”
“Fine,” Arthur finally growled, lifting away his arm, bracing both hands behind him as he sat up, his face mere inches away from Lancelot’s.
“I want more than just companionship. Comradery. I want a person to call my own. Just mine, no one else’s. I would be theirs too, only theirs. I want to share my body and be one with them, until we are locked together so tight, no one could come between us. I want to give them pleasure and take the same.”
“I want to know everything about them, even though it’s impossible, because they hold an entire universe of mysteries within them, because they are endlessly fascinating and beautiful to me. A thousand lifetimes would not be enough to learn them. And it would be my privilege and honor to try.”
“I want to grow old with them. And gods’ willing, raise a family. Teach our children the ways of the world, so that they could fulfill their dreams and make everything and everyone around them better. Better themselves in the process. And when I leave this earth, I want to leave with them, wherever we might go next. As long as we are together, we are home, wrapped in each other’s everlasting embrace.”
Lancelot stared at him unblinkingly throughout the whole tirade. For a tirade it was, what with the way Arthur practically spewed the words like daggers. Aggressively, resentfully, and hopelessly.
His chest heaved with the passion nigh steaming from his skin, crackling in the chilly night air. It had felt terriblygoodas he let the words out like wild horses trapped too long in a windowless enclosure. But now, he only felt emptiness.
And trepidation.
For Lancelot simply stared at him, uttering not a single word.
He could hear the fucking crickets, for fuck’s sake. He could hear the wind whistling through the leaves overhead.
And still, Lancelot didn’t speak.
Just as Arthur was about to get up and leave this gods’ forsaken hill where he vomited his heart out in the most humiliating way, Lancelot finally stirred.
“Have you found such a person then? Or are you still looking?”
Arthur swallowed and stopped breathing again, staring up at Lancelot as the other man looked down from his branch.
“I think so,” he whispered roughly.
“I found them.”
