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Jeremy,I'm done. I won't think or dream about you ever again.
7
JEREMY
I’m not the least bit thrilled about this party, but I have to attend just to be a good father. I’ve always found an excuse to avoid Ella’s events, but not this time. It’s the first time I’m going to attend and she’s thrilled about it.
Don’t kid yourself. This isn’t about supporting Ella. You’re only going because Chloe will be there.
My inner voice accuses me, but it’s a lot more like telling me the truth. I’ve been acting like an ass ever since I saw Chloe with Ella’s friend, Tyler. The way he looks at her makes me want to pluck out his eyes. He looks at her the same way I do, like he wants to devour her if given a chance.
It’s not like you own her,my conscience warns me. I shake my head. She’s mine! I can’t sit back and let any other man touch her, ever. The possessiveness in my veins when it comes to Chloe scares me a little, but I can’t help it.
Chloe is living rent-free in my head and I can’t do anything about it. Not even all my efforts at being a shameless jerk stop her haunting my thoughts every damned minute of the day.
I can’t stop thinking about how incredible being buried inside her felt. But it’s so much more than that. It’s her. Beingwithher, that I fantasize about. Every single night. But nothing can ever capture the real thing.
I almost let my desire take me over in her office earlier, stopping only through sheer force of self-control. Seeing her with that kid thwarted all sense of reason. I couldn’t stand the thought of her with him, or worse, in bed with him. The images messed with my head and my fingers twitched to touch her.
He had his hands on her, touching her face and hair and even pecking her cheeks. Had I not been with Damien at the time–who was laughing at me even while trying to talk some sense into me–I’d have beaten the crap out of that useless punk. Thinking back on it now, that would have been highly illogical, and I don’t usually make a move without thinking it through.
And yet, I was ready to throw him down just for looking at Chloe, let alone touching her.
I don’t know what I expected her to do when I touched her earlier, but I didn’t think she would react to my touch. Not after the way I’ve acted towards her, I mean. But when she sucked in a sharp breath and leaned into my grasp, I was done for. I’m only grateful that I stopped when I did. She really is too good for me. Too pure.
My dick hardens at the memory. I slyly adjust the front of my pants to accommodate it. Touching her again was a terrible idea because it reawakened my already insatiable desire for her. I want her more than ever. No matter how much I try to tell myself that it would be a monstrously stupid idea, it seems like my body is acting on its own.
During the drive over here, I’d hoped that Chloe couldn’t make it. Maybe she wasn’t feeling well, or maybe she was too upset over what happened at work today. I don’t care what the reason is, as long as I don’t have to try to control myself around her tonight.
For the first time in my life, I’m not sure I’m strong enough.
There’s another reason I’m here tonight, though, and it is utterly selfish. My skin pricks with shards of ice at what happened this afternoon, after work. I’d just walked in the front door and heard Ella on the phone. She was talking to Chloe on speakerphone while she fixed a salad at the sink.
"I think you should get laid tonight, it will help you purge your brain of all thoughts of that asshole," she said just as I was about to step into the kitchen. I stepped back and leaned closer to the door.
Chloe had groaned in response. "I don't think that’s a good idea."
"Don’t be so uptight about it. Just go for it. I bet Tyler would be more than willing to do his part." Ella laughed at her own remark.
Only if he wants to end up under my front tires, I’d thought, my fists clenching.
"I barely know the guy. I mean, he’s sweet and totally hot, but I don’t know… we’re still just getting to know each other."
Ella snorted. "Boring."
"I don’t think I need to get laid to get over my one-night stand," Chloe had added. "I don’t even think about him anymore. It’s not like it was that good. I just got excited when I told you about it cause I didn’t know any better. Guess I still don’t…"
Oh god. Chloe has told Ella about us, I think, my vision going blurry for a second.Does my daughter know about it?!
Wait, that would mean she was fine with it. No way. Better yet, it must mean that Chloe told her about that night, but not the identity of her one-night stand. Hopefully, that is the case.
"But I thought you said he was–" Ella had begun, but Chloe had stopped her.
"Forget about what I said. I didn’t know any better, right? Now that I’ve had time to think it over, it just wasn’t that incredible. It was actually pretty cheap and sleazy, you know."
"Sleazy? How?" Ella had demanded, her voice rising slightly.
"Oh, you know. The whole meeting a stranger in a bar, ‘I’ve got a room upstairs,’ all that crap. I’m just glad I had the good sense to get out of there before it got embarrassing in the morning," Chloe explained.
