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“I’m not drunk... okay, maybe a little. But it’s only because I needed to forget.”
My brows furrow. “Forget about what?”
She looks up at me, her bright blue eyes making my heart beat just a bit faster. She bites her lower lip for a moment before shaking her head. “Doesn’t matter.”
Not wanting to pry and piss her off even more, I just nod. “So, not that I don’t enjoy holding your hair back for you. But shouldn’t this be a job for your boyfriend?” I try really hard not to grind out that last word.
“Nope,” she sighs heavily. “I don’t have one.”
Wait. What? “Since when?”
“Since the night I saw you in the kitchen. When you looked at me like you’d rather have been anywhere else but in the same room with me.” She blinks, and fuck, my heart cracks when I see her eyes fill with tears. That was also the night I went to my room and jacked off to the thought of being inside her. God, I’m fucked up.
“So, you’ve been single for weeks. How come I didn’t know?” I’ve been stressing about the fact that I'd have to see her and Jonas eating each other's faces and making me want to gouge my eyes out. Or his.
Jonas isn’t a bad guy. From what I’ve seen, he’s nice, good to his friends, and everyone talks highly of him. But I’ve hated him since the moment he started dating Lilly. Petty, I know, but knowing that another man was touching her, kissing her. God, the idea of them fucking... It made me sick. It made me fucking murderous. It’s also a big reason why I’ve put distance between Lilly and me. In this case, I knew I couldn’t be the bigger person for her, but I also didn’t want to get in the way of her happiness.
But hearing the fact that they’re not together anymore? It fills me with so much fucking joy it’s sad.
“Because,” she scoffs, shaking her head, but groans like she regrets the movement. “We don’t talk anymore, remember? Unless you're shit-faced like me, you're not a real chatter.”
I can’t help but smile. It’s true. When I’ve been drinking, my guard is down. I’m surprised I haven’t spilled to her how much I want her.
Lilly catches the smile. “Oh, please. Of course, you’d be happy about it. You’ve always hated Jonas. And I don’t know why, he was nothing but good to me.”
“I hated him because he was dating you. Now he’s not. So, I guess he’s not so bad.”
“Really? You're not even going to ask why we broke up? Maybe I’m drinking because I’m heart-broken and need to numb the pain.”
Oh shit. I didn’t even think about that. My face softens. “I’m sorry, Flower, are you okay? Did he hurt you, do you need me to kick his ass?”
“Don’t call me that,” her voice cracks, tears filling her eyes. “And no, I don’t. I’m fine. Jonas and I are friends. We just realized we were better that way. He’s not the one I’m drinking to forget.”
“Oh.” What does she mean by that?
I’m about to ask her when she groans and turns her head back to the bowl. I grimace, keeping her hair out of the way and rubbing her back. “That’s it. Let it out. I got you.”
“I wish you didn’t,” she cries, and my brows furrow.
“Why?”
“Because it hurts too much to have you this close.” She wipes her eyes. “But it doesn’t matter. Now, I’m single, so I’m gonna have fun.”
“What do you mean by that?” I scowl.
She flushes and starts to stand, stumbling while she does. I stand with her, ready to catch her, but she storms out of the stall and over to the sink. “God, I look like hot garbage,” she groans.
“Don’t talk about yourself like that.” My words come out on a growl.
She glares at me. “Do your eyes work?” She waves her hand at the mirror. “I look like a raccoon.”
My lip twitches. “An adorable raccoon,” I correct.
“Stop.” She glares at me. “You’re not allowed to make fun of me.”
“I’m not.” I chuckle. “Lilly, you look fine. Perfect, even.”
She glares harder. “Liar.”
