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The outside world faded to black until the only thing left was me, her, and our lips locked together.
When she moved to straddle my lap, I couldn’t hold back. Feeling her hot little cunt against my cock... I was fucking done for.
It was like I wasn’t in control of my body anymore. That I only existed to please her and to be pleasured by the girl from my dreams. My girl. My everything.
And when she parted her lips, letting out the sweetest cry, which I quickly swallowed as she came apart in my arms, I couldn’t help but follow her over the edge.
But while we caught our breath, our reality came crashing down on me. Our parents, or siblings, could have walked in on us at any moment.
What we have, what we did might not feel wrong, but at the end of the day, it’s not right to the rest of the world.
She deserves better than me. Someone she can walk around with and be proud of. Someone who can show her off to the world. Someone who won’t have people whispering behind her back, calling her names, and treating her like a pariah.
She doesn’t need a life that consists of constantly defending her relationship and watching her back as people glare at her and whisper nasty words.
I shouldn’t have told her it was a mistake because I don’t want her to think for a moment that’s what she is to me. But the words just came out, and then I was calling her my sister, and fuck, I messed it all up.
She had every right to snap at me. She was right about one thing—I was, and still am, denying my feelings for her. To her, at least.
I didn’t mean to make her feel used. I didn’t toss her to the side like she meant nothing. I’m just... I don’t even know how to feel or what to think anymore. My head and my heart are a fucking mess.
Last night, I hardly got any sleep. I ended up grabbing a bottle of whiskey from the liquor cabinet and drowned myself in it. I’m not sure what time I ended up passing out, but I know I was drunk when I did. I didn’t get up until late in the afternoon, and I felt like I got hit by a bus when I did. Good, I deserve to feel like shit after what I did.
Lilly avoided me for the rest of the day choosing to hang out with Bennett instead, who still isn’t talking to me. It kills me because I love my little brother so damn much. We used to have such a good relationship until I went and fucked that up too. Because Lilly is his favorite person, and I don’t blame him, she’s mine too. He didn’t like how I treated her and has been giving me the same treatment I was giving Lilly. I deserve it all.
“So, Lilly,” Rain brings the conversation over to her as Brody and Chase bicker about the football team. “How was your date the other night?”
The fork that I’ve been using to mindlessly push potatoes around on my plate for the past five minutes pauses mid-air, and my eyes snap up to Lilly.
A slight blush takes over her cheeks at the question and my jaw grinds. “It was fun.” She clears her throat.
Brody and Chase stop their conversation. “That little shit better have treated you like a prince would a damn princess,” Brody grumbles. He looks over to Ellie. “Can you believe that little shit told me to my face he was taking my daughter out whether I liked it or not?”
“What?” My brows narrow. “Are you serious?”
“Oh, yeah.” He shakes his head. “If he wasn’t so damn good at football, I’d kick his ass off the team.”
“Brody,” Ellie says in a warning tone. “There are kids at the table.”
“Baby, I love you, but it’s not anything the kids haven’t heard,” he tells her with a smirk.
Ellie puts her fork down and glares at her partner. “That doesn’t matter. We need to be watching how we talk around the kids. You used to swear like a sailor, and look how Toby turned out.”
“Hey.” I give my mom a look. “I came out just fine.” Ellie is one of the best people I’ve ever met. She took me in and loved me like her own when I was six and she started dating my dad. My mom passed away when I was three from cancer and, while I don’t remember much of her, I know she was a good person. My dad told me that Ellie was exactly who my mom would have wanted as a mother figure in my life. And that's what she’s been to me ever since; a mom.
Lilly snorts at what I just said and my eyes snap over to hers. “What's so funny?”
“Nothing.” She doesn’t meet my eyes before looking back at Rain. “Anyways. The date was amazing,” she answers, laying it on thick now that she knows it’s going to piss me off. “Ryan was a gentleman. I really enjoyed hanging out with him, and can’t wait to go on another date.” She looks at me out of the corner of her eyes. It’s subtle, but I see it. “He walked me to my door and made sure I got in safe.”
“That’s good,” Jax says. “He seems like a good guy.”
And now it’s my turn to snort. This gets Lilly’s attention. “And what do you find so funny?” She glares at me.
“Ryan Tucker is a cocky little prick.” I stare her down. “Brody isn’t the only one he felt like he could talk to like that. Thought he had the right to tell me how I should feel about him taking you out.”
“You shouldn’t feel anything,” she snaps. “I’m just your sister after all, right?”
My nostrils flair and it’s taking everything in me not to blow up at the table.
