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And then realization hits me, and I don’t know how I didn’t see it before. That was the room I saw Toby get his dick sucked in. And now I feel sick.
“You okay?” Bishop asks me. “You look a little pale.”
I force a smile. “I’m fine.”
“Wanna hang out here for a bit before we go back?”
“Yeah, why not?” I smile. He grins, scooping me up. “Hey, what the hell!” I laugh.
“You have no shoes on. I don’t want you to hurt your feet,” he states.
Oh, that's... kind of cute.
He brings me over to one of the chairs but instead of putting me down in one and taking another, he sits down, placing me in his lap.
I should get up and move. But I don’t. I look up at him, a damn blush betraying me.
He looks down at me, winks, and goes back to whatever conversation he was having before I came down.
No one else seems to give the two of us a second glance, but I feel Toby’s eyes on me. I don’t look for him though, closing my eyes and just enjoying the cozy warmth.
Tonight, I was expecting to have a quiet night in the library and study, but instead, this wild man took me on a crazy adventure. One I do have to admit was fun and thrilling.
I needed tonight more than I thought I would. And I have my best friend to thank for it.
Chapter 24
Lillianna
IF I WASN’T SURE ABOUT my crush on Bishop before, I sure as hell am now. That man has come to my door every morning since that first morning with a coffee in hand just for me.
And most of those days he didn’t have an early morning practice, meaning he’s been getting up early and going all the way across campus to get my favorite coffee.
Sadly, I haven’t been able to hang out with him again because our schedules have been crazy. I have to admit his going out of his way to do this for me has my heart soaring and my belly erupting with butterflies every time.
My heart hasn’t let Toby go, but it seems to be making room for another, and I’m so damn afraid. Maybe it’s my broken heart, but I haven’t allowed myself to be convinced he has feelings for me. I need him to make the first move. Until then, I’ll just enjoy what we’ve got going on.
He texts me so much I’ve had to shut my phone off. I love it, though. He stopped sitting at the hockey table and has started sitting with my friends and me.
Bianca is suspicious, but she doesn’t seem to care all that much. It’s cute to see them bicker all the time.
As for her and Jonas, she’s still playing hard to get, but I think Jonas is loving it.
Things have changed a lot in such a short amount of time, and most of it is in a good way, but not all. Like the fact that I don’t recognize Toby anymore, and it’s starting to scare me. He seems sad, maybe even depressed.
He had another nightmare last night, and I couldn’t just stand by knowing the pain he was in, so I crawled into bed with him. I cried silent tears when he pulled me tight into his arms, his face pressed into the crook of my neck. It felt right like I was meant to be there. Why can’t he see that?
If I were anyone else and didn’t grow up with a family like mine, I might feel guilty for having feelings for more than one person. But I don’t. I know love has no bounds, and sometimes it’s okay to open your heart to more than one. Only thing is, one of the people I opened my heart to won’t take it, and the other doesn’t even know I want to offer the other half to him.
It’s Sunday again and we’re all here for family supper—Toby, Bishop, and me. I can feel the strain in their relationship. I don’t know what's going on with the two of them, but I hope it's not because of me. I’d hate myself if it was.
“Hey.” I stand in the doorway of my mom’s room.
Rain looks over at me in the mirror from where she’s doing her hair. “Hey, you.” She grins, putting her brush down. “Come here.”
I go with a smile, wrapping my arms around her in a tight hug. “I needed this.” Sometimes a girl just needs her mama. I wanted to find my mom, tell her all the things that have been weighing on me, but I can’t, not when it comes to my feelings for Toby. I don’t want to cause any issues if nothing is even going to happen between us.
“Are you okay?” she asks, still hugging me.
