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He bites his lip and nods. “Yeah. It does.”
His hand reaches out and he strokes my cheek tenderly, swiping some cum from my lip with his thumb.
“I’m glad we’re making this work, Alec.”
“I am too, baby. I am too.”
CHAPTER 18
JUDE
It’s been two weeks since Alec got pelted by tomatoes on my front lawn and we made our lists. He’s made everything up to me, just endless groveling. Besides the list, he’s bought me my favorite coffee every morning and made sure to cook me dinner every night. He even made me a playlist on his phone and sent me the link, just songs that made him think of me.
It’s all been so utterly romantic that I can’t wallow in the heartbreak anymore. Because I know he’s sorry, I know he means it. Part of me worries if this is all still a game, but the way he looks at me, the way he holds me every night, I know I don’t really believe that. I can’t.
Just this morning, he woke me up, kissing my neck softly and jacking me off, asking for nothing in return after I came. He hasn’t asked me for anything sexual besides kissing since he came back into my life. He’s made it a point to show me that he wants me regardless of sex, that he wants me for me.
And tonight, I realize that I’m ready. The last item on our list is gonna be crossed off.
The roleplay.
I’m nervous as hell because I haven’t discussed this with Alec but decided when I woke up this morning that I want to try it. And I figured the impromptu setup will make it more realistic. But then again, maybe this is a bad idea.
Maybe this whole thing is so fucking dumb. But we’re boyfriends now. It’ll be fine, right?
I push my fake glasses up my nose and fasten the top button of my ugly shirt. My pants are hiked up a little higher than I’d normally wear them and my hair is parted right down the middle.
I look like a veritable nerd. And Alec is gonna be home any moment.
Fuck, if this all goes to plan, I’m gonna be a bottom. He’s gonna stick his dick in me.
But what if he rejects me? What if he doesn’t want it, want me, like this?
My insecurities rise and because of it, I feel like I’m even more in character. As soon as the garage door closes and Alec strides into his house, he comes to a stop, his keys falling onto the small table near the door.
“What is this, Jude?” he says, wide-eyed.
“Oh god,” I say, in a weak trembling voice. The tremble is real. I’m fucking nervous this is gonna go sideways, that the bottoming I’ve been silently begging for won’t work, that my ass won’t be able to accommodate him, that maybe he’ll hate pretending to bully me. That maybe he won’t like this at all.
Alec narrows his eyes at me. “We playin’?”
His voice is rough, slightly mean as I gulp and nod.
“Jude, if we do this, you need to tell me to stop when you want to stop,” he says, and I nod at that, knowing he won’t hurt me, not really. He’d never hurt me.
As soon as my gaze lifts to him once more, he stalks toward me, his strides long and sure. Aggressive. Commanding.
“What the fuck are you doing?” he asks, pushing me back. I stumble slightly as he continues to gently shove against my chest until I’m pressed up against the wall.
“What the hell are you wearing? Those glasses…” his words trail off, his lust belying his actions. “Ihatethem.”
I know he doesn’t. I know he likes them, that his dick is hard for me just because I’m wearing the damn things. But I don’t want to break character, so I just nod, lifting my hands in surrender.
“Take the glasses if you want them, just leave me alone.”
He reaches up and presses his hand to my mouth, making my breath puff against his skin.
His pupils are dilated, his lips twitching as he takes me in, his hips arching up against my own. I can feel his cock, stiff against me. Oh god. He’s so goddamn hard.
