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“Let me go,” I whimpered, the unabashedness of a few minutes ago deserting me like sand in a capsule.
“Never.” He gathered me closer. “Tell me what you want. Whatever you want, I’ll give you, mia cara,” he said, his tone low.
“This will never work, Antonio. I am never going to be good enough for you.” It was better to end this now.
“You are enough. You are so much more.” He let out a frustrated growl. “I don’t know how to show you. I don’t want a life without you. Tell me what to do. Just don’t ever leave me again.”
Something ignited in my body and sent sparks into every waiting vein. I reared back, shock making my mouth hang open inelegantly.
“What?” A frown foamed in between his eyes. “What did I say wrong?”
“Do you… love… me?” I croaked. I didn’t even believe the words spilling out of my own mouth. Then why should he?
“Love you?… I don’t know… I don’t do feelings… What is love? Is it wanting a fucking lifetime of this? Is it wanting to be with you all the time? I want to pick you up and put you in here.” He patted his heart. “Is that love?”
I nodded slowly, tears collecting in my eyes.
“Then I fucking love you.” He growled with such conviction that even my dream breathed reality. Taking my hand in his, he placed it above his heart. “You are in here. I will do anything to have you with me. You might grow to love me too. Try, at least?”
“I might grow to love you?” I questioned, testing out the ridiculous words falling out of his mouth.
“I know I am not Harris. There isn’t a shred of good in me. I have done so many cruel things and will do so much more, but I promise you—”
“Shhh…” I silenced him with my fingers on his lips. “That can never happen…” I rushed on as his face darkened heavier than any thunderstorm I’d ever seen. “How can I love you more than I already do?”
He looked up with a frown.
“I left because I couldn’t bear not to be loved back when I loved you so much. I left because I thought I wasn’t good enough. I left because it hurt so much to see you with another woman. I left—”
He crashed his mouth to mine, building down from a harsh kiss to end with soft nibbles. “You love me,” he rasped in a voice that sent tingles down south.
“And you love me,” I mumbled, scooting closer to him and grinding my hips on his erection. He shoved me hurriedly off his lap, his hard-on bouncing out angrily.
“Get dressed.”
“What?” I leant back, jiggled out of my skirt, and spread my legs wide. I must not have heard him right.
“I don’t want to do this naked,” he growled while putting on his trousers sans boxers.
“Do what naked?” I wasn’t in the mood to get dressed. I was only in the mood for him. All of him. This Roman fucking god loved me.
He let a frustrated growl at my lack of haste as he dug into his back pocket and knelt in front of me, presenting me with a box. I snapped my legs shut, sitting up on my knees. I knew this box. It was from the jeweller’s in Jaipur.
With a pounding in my heart far greater than what I could stand, I watched him open it to reveal the most beautiful and uniquely designed ring. It had five gemstones of different colours. One in the middle and four around.
“I had this designed for you… and it arrived a few days ago. If you don’t like it, we can exc—”
“I love it,” I silenced him.
“They are all birthstones. Yours is in the middle. I put Cora’s, your parents, and mine around… I thought… we could get married again …” he trailed off nervously, watching my silent tears and shaking head.
“No need…. This is perfect…. All I want is here,” I pointed to the ring, “and here,” I pointed to my heart, “and here.” I pointed to him.
I let him put it on me, his trembling hands showing the emotion behind his actions. He had given me something no one other than my parents ever had. He gave me love and acceptance of who I was.
I drew him in, in between my legs, my gaze blurred, emotion deep, a big, fat lump in my throat. I drew him in for a soft, meaningful kiss. Letting him feel all that I felt for this man and for love.
I drew him in further, showing him that there really was no need to don trousers for this, that, in fact they were a mere hindrance.
