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They were momentous to Eddie, too. At times I’d catch him looking at me as if he was happy to see me but wasn’t quite sure how I’d come to be there. He was closed off and inside himself like I was, though his reasons and methods were different from mine, and he was equally baffled as to how all of this was happening. I didn’t think he’d call what we were doing dating, either.
He didn’t even try to sleep with me, not at first. Even though my skin hummed every time he touched me, even though we sat so close at the movies that our knees touched. Even though we were often alone in his bachelor apartment or in my shared living room, my legs curled underneath me as we watched TV.
We had dinner with his parents. His mother was polite and pleasant, though I could tell she wanted to open the top of my skull and dig around inside with a microscope, analyzing this girlfriend that Eddie had brought home. His father took refuge in hearty jokes and comments about politics that were targeted so widely, he obviously hoped to draw me in. Taxes going up! You hear about that Russian space station? What’s next? Maybe he wanted me to reply with a joke about Bill Clinton playing the saxophone, but I didn’t. I rarely watched the news—the roommates in my shared house changed the channel when the news came on, and no one subscribed to a newspaper.
After that dinner with his parents, Eddie said he was going to the bathroom. I followed him down the hall past the kitchen, where he passed the bathroom door and walked out the back door of the house.
“What are you doing here?” he asked in surprise when I joined him on the back patio, damp with melting March snow, the air frigid.
I didn’t answer, and for a long moment I listened to him take deep breaths, one after the other. I had known that he wasn’t going to the bathroom; I had known that he was going to escape for a few minutes to breathe. I had known it, and his parents hadn’t. Eddie was lonely, even here, with these good people who loved him. His experience overseas, where he’d changed from a sweet young man into something else, was locked inside him; he couldn’t let it out, and he couldn’t get rid of it. No one in his life understood him anymore.
After a few minutes, I brushed my fingertips against his wrist. “Ready to go back?”
He was staring into the darkness, oblivious to the damp cold that must be seeping through his zip-up sweatshirt. “April, this is how it’s going to be,” he said.
“I know.”
“It doesn’t change; it doesn’t get fixed. It just is. You understand?”
“I understand.”
“If you want out, you have to say so.”
I sighed. “Nothing about this scares me. It probably should. But it doesn’t.”
He nodded and we went back inside.
I watched him now as we sat at a picnic table outside a restaurant called the Ice Cream Queen. The handful of tables around us, unsteady on the uneven grass, were filled with families and kids. A hot breeze blew pine scent mixed with sugar and lifted the damp hair from my neck. Wasps buzzed over the garbage can. My head was spinning.
Eddie had ordered a banana split. This was his way of treating me, telling me that we were supposed to be on our honeymoon and I should eat something other than nonfat Yoplait, my usual staple. He picked up the long spoon and dug in.
“That was the weirdest afternoon I’ve ever spent,” he said.
I picked up my own spoon. “I agree.”
“Did you see that house? It was like something out of a magazine. Their parents have no idea.” Eddie took a bite of syrup-covered vanilla ice cream and shook his head. “They could be in trouble over those photocopies. Those were confidential files.”
“The idea didn’t seem to bother them,” I said. “Anything for the pursuit of justice, I suppose.”
Eddie poked at a piece of banana. “I’m not sure we learned much.”
I wasn’t, either. We’d read Gracie’s illegally photocopied files, one for each of the six Atticus Line murders. It hadn’t been a huge undertaking, because the files were slim, filled with a bare minimum of information. We knew more now than we had when we met Beatrice, but not a lot more.
Six murders over nineteen years, all of them on Atticus Line. Not on a regular timeline, not at a regular time of year, not in a specific place along the road. None of the victims knew one another or anyone local that police could find. None had apparently been sexually violated, and all of them were found with clothes on. Some of them were missing their belongings and some weren’t.
None of the cases were solved, and there weren’t even any good suspects. None of the victims had been in the middle of a lovers’ quarrel or other fight. None of them dealt drugs, owed money, or had anything to do with organized crime. None of them had told anyone they were being followed or stalked. Each one—except the Lost Girl, who wasn’t identified—had been coming or going from their everyday life, taking a break from the world to hitchhike to Hunter Beach and pretend that nothing mattered for a little while. None of them carried enough cash worth robbing them for.
It was a lot of information, but there was no pattern. If it weren’t for the fact that all of the murders were on one road, they would seem completely random.
But six people were dead, and there were no good answers to the puzzle. It was impossible to tell whether there was one killer, or two, or three, or six—could there really be six killers in one relatively small town? Or six murderers who happened to drive down one road, looking to kill?
“Hunter Beach is the one connection,” I said, trying the theory by saying it aloud. “The victims were all coming or going from there. Is it worth going back?”
Eddie shook his head. “The police have probably been there by now. Everyone we talked to is most likely gone. Besides, no one stays there for long, especially for nineteen years.”
He was right. The backpackers on the beach might not be breaking the law, but they would rather roll up their sleeping bags and leave than get into any trouble. It’s what I would do if I were in their shoes. “Maybe we should track down the owner of the property,” I said. “Kal said he lets the kids stay on the beach, even though the town doesn’t approve.”
Eddie thought it over. “It’s an idea. Property records are easy enough to look up. If the property has had the same owner all this time, it could be the connection.” He put his spoon down. “But I keep coming back to the Lost Girl.”
