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She turned to me and stared into my eyes as she put her hand to my cheek. As I was about to look away, she gently kept my face in place, forcing me to look at her. “You feel that? It’s what you’re running from. It’s why you can never stare at me for too long. I feel it, and I want to embrace it, but I won’t if you won’t. I don’t know what it is about you either, because you can be a whole jackass at times.”
She chuckled as I twisted my lips to the side. Lifting my hand, I placed it to her cheek and gently stroked it with my thumb. I couldn’t help but lean in and kiss her lips. When I pulled away, her eyes were still closed. After opening them, she took a deep breath. “I’m feeling you, Joel, and I don’t know shit about you.”
“Well… I’m forty-one, eight years older than you. My dad raised me. I don’t know who my mama is. She left when I was three months old. Not much else to say. I was raised in the game. Besides boxing, it’s all I know. I wanted to make it to Vegas like Muhammad Ali. That’s where the nickname came from. My last name is Knight.”
“I think I knew most of that, except about your mom. Maybe that’s why it’s hard for you to be tender, although you’re doing a great job of it now.”
I gave her a slight smile and kissed her forehead. Changing the subject, I said, “You know I’ll help you get at Mo. You don’t need to get your hands dirty. Him and your dad got into it back in the day, but I don’t know why. I’m sure Jungle does. My dad didn’t have nothing for his ass either. I’m honestly not sure why Ice kept him so close.”
She stared at me for a moment like she was shocked I would kill for her. I killed people for less. I somewhat knew Mo, and I didn’t like him. I killed people for Jungle that I didn’t even know. She slid her hand to the back of my neck. “You would do that for me? I can’t let you do that. That’s a serious offense. I’m prepared to go down for the shit. I mean, what life do I have anyway? I read for commercials. The only people that love me, besides Sasha and my nephew, have hurt me. Being locked up won’t be much different from being outside.”
She rested her forehead on my chest and took a deep breath. I didn’t know what to say in response to that, so I spoke from my heart. “I would do that for you. I don’t like his ass anyway. You worth it, baby… so fucking worth it.”
Her hand was still resting at the back of my neck. Using it, she pulled me to her and kissed my lips, allowing it to linger. Suddenly, she pulled away and got out of bed. I wasn’t sure what happened. I sat up and watched her pace, then she left the room. I got out of bed and went after her, to see her in the kitchen. She got her ice cream from the freezer and fixed a huge bowl of it.
When she glanced up at me, she said, “I can’t handle Joel right now. He’s not here to stay, and I’m already vulnerable. Vegas is your dominant personality. I could fall for something or someone that’s fleeting. I can’t deal with that shit.”
I tilted my head as I stared at her. “You wanna be in love, Keondra?”
I could see her swallow hard from where I was standing. She approached me with her ice cream and put her hand to my chest, staring at it for a few seconds. “Yeah. I want all the shit most women want. I’m not desperate by any means, but I wanna love hard and be loved hard in return. I wanna have a family… a white house and a fucking picket fence with kids and a dog.”
She chuckled, and I gave her a slight smile. I took a deep breath as I wondered if I should just leave her alone. I never thought about having a family of my own. The Pattersons were my family. Fawn’s twin boys, Remy and Iceton, and Jungle’s kids were my nephews and niece. If I was honest with myself, I could see a future with Keondra. I was gonna fuck up, but I felt like I needed her. Something told me she would be there through my fuck ups.
I followed her to her couch. When I sat, I turned toward her. “I ain’t never thought about no shit like that. But umm… I’m feeling you too, Keondra. If you want that… I don’t know. Forget I said anything.”
I sat back on the couch as she set her ice cream on the coffee table. She turned to me with her eyes wide. She swung her leg over me and straddled me and put her hands to my face. I bit my bottom lip and brought my hands to her ass. I wanted to pull this nightshirt off. Her black nipples were hard as fuck, not to mention I could see them through this thin ass fabric, and I wanted to pull them between my lips.
“What are you saying to me, Joel?”
The heat from her pussy was engulfing me and taking me down fast as hell. I swore she could get the code to Jungle’s safe from me when she slid that shit down my dick. I closed my eyes and took another deep breath. This shit was hard for me. It felt like I was drawing blood I was biting my bottom lip so hard. She leaned forward and kissed my forehead then my nose and stared into my eyes, literally coaxing the words right out of me.
“I wanna try… to umm… shit. I wanna be wit’chu, girl. Just you. I know I’m gon’ fuck up, but I wanna try if you want to.”
She looked like she stopped breathing. Leaning her forehead against mine, she said, “I’m willing to try. Did you discuss this with Vegas?”
I smacked her ass as a smile spread across my lips. I kissed her neck then her shoulder and gently bit her nipple through her shirt. It seemed to get even harder.
This felt good.
It felt right.
It felt spiritual.
I had never been right in my entire life. I was always on the wrong side of the law. As I gripped her hips and grinded her against my erection, I said, “Stop making me sound schizophrenic and shit. As long as Vegas can get some good, wet ass pussy, he’ll be fine.”
She chuckled as she pulled her shirt over her head. I immediately went to her nipple and pulled it into my mouth. She slid her hands through my hair and moaned. I felt a chill go up my spine like something had embodied me. I pulled back and looked into her eyes. She stood in front of me. “Tell me this is real, Joel.”
I looked over her body. She only wore panties. She was the sexiest woman I’d ever seen in my life. Keondra had me by the fucking balls. I could see why Yonkers and her mama kept her hidden from us street niggas. “This is as real as I can be, baby. I don’t say shit I don’t mean. People I fuck with know to the extent I do so. There are no misunderstandings, because I make shit clear from jump. I mean what I say, Keondra.”
She parted her lips and was about to respond to what I said when my phone started ringing. I glanced toward her bedroom where I’d left it. She took a step back. “You gonna go get that?”
I shook my head. “I’m tryna show you that I know how to prioritize. You number one, baby.”
When the tears dropped from her eyes, I stood and went to her. “What’s wrong?”
“Nothing. Just hearing those words from your lips… it doesn’t feel real. I feel like I’m dreaming this shit.”
I leaned over to see eye-to-eye with her. “You wanted this with me from the beginning?”
