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“Come for me, little moon. I wanna hear you scream.” And as if on cue, her cries echo around me. She grips my sheets as her body lifts off the bed. Her legs shake as they hold my head in place, allowing me to feel her orgasm tunneling through her. I feel her pulses as she comes down from her waves, and her pleasure drips from her entrance as I slowly pull my fingers out.
I don’t even question, I just put my fingers to my lips and savor the fuck out of the way she tastes. She watches me with sated eyes and allows her legs to quiver a few more times as her moans quiet down to a harsh breathing.
“Jax that was-”
“What you deserved,” I finish her sentence. I don’t need her to tell me that it felt good or thatIwas good. Not to bethat guybut I already know those things. I need her to hear that it was about her and her pleasure and what she needed and what she deserved to take.
“Still selfish, little moon?” I ask with a teasing tone engraved in my question and a grin on my face.
“Very,” she quips, and I press one last kiss to the inside of her thigh before lifting myself up.
I know it doesn’t heal the pain or erase the memories that have broken her, but it’ll help get the tension that I know she’s been feeling out of the way. I know it’ll relax her mind so she isn’t so stressed with masking her thoughts and honestly, I know it’s what she wanted.
The rest will be up to her.
twenty-four
Hollis
I’veneverfeltsoliberated. My body feels relaxed, at ease. Though my mind feels like it’s free falling, wondering where we’re going to go from here, I can admit that I’m not as panicked as I thought I would be. I’ve got more clarity than I’m used to and I don't seem to be overthinking it too much.
I never imagined being here in Jax’s bed, him doing the things that he just did to me and I’m about to lay it all out in front of him for the very first time.
Jax wipes his mouth with the back of his hand before crawling back over me. I’m so spent that I can’t find the energy to move so I just enable him by running my hands over his bare chest, gliding over his tattoos as he settles himself on top of me. This doesn’t feel foreign. It feels like everything I’ve been missing.
He doesn’t say a word, he silently lowers his lips to my forehead and kisses me before staring into my eyes for a few seconds, then he gets up and heads into the bathroom.
I don’t even bother trying to cover myself up. Even though I have to admit, it is a bit of a different feeling knowing that I’m laying naked in Jaxon’s bed, I’ve never once been ashamed of my body. I’ve worked hard for it, so damn straight I’m going to leave it on display for a few minutes longer.
I close my eyes and think about the words he said before he worked me into oblivion.
“This won’t change anything you don’t want it to. I don’t want you to lose that pain or that anger that you feel for me.”and“You decide where we go from here.”
I think he could tell how much staying in control means to me, so much so that he’s willing to let me keep it for a little longer. But I’m starting to think that maybe it’s a good idea for me to let some of that go. Maybe it's what’s causing me so many mixed feelings and possibly even pain.
My thoughts are disrupted by the feeling of a warm rag being gently guided between my legs.
“I loved watching you come, Hollis,” Jax says as he washes me up. My face blushes at his bluntness. It almost matches my own.
I lift myself up on my elbows right as he finishes, and I tilt my head a little. “What’s with the nickname? Moon.” I ask him and he smirks as he tosses the rag over into his laundry hamper.
He walks over to the pile where my clothes were thrown and hands them to me and I realize that I might actually need to get dressed for this conversation.
“I’m going to keep that to myself for a bit, if you don’t mind.” He lets me finish putting the shirt on before he grabs me by my wrist and pulls me down to the bed with him.
I internally wince, hoping he doesn’t see the twist of embarrassment or pain on my face from where he grabs me. That’s a story I don’t know I can tell.
Nothing about being here with him feels out of place or wrong. Despite the anger that bubbled inside of me not long ago—for years actually—I feel safe with him. I feel like this next step we’re about to take, hashing out some of the past, can only benefit us. But I’m still so scared. What if this only makes things worse? What if he doesn’t understand and what if he decides to judge me for it. And what about him? What does he have to say? What went on in his mind for the last eleven years and why was he so intent on coming back with one goal in mind…me.
“So, can we talk about what happened?” he asks as he turns to face me.
“Wow, getting right to the point then, huh? What happened to the rest is up to me?” I cross my legs in, letting my knees create a barrier between us.
“The restisup to you, but that doesn’t mean I’m not going to try. This doesn’t just affect you and I’ll let you go at your pace, but you have to understand that this has been eating at me, Hollis.” Jax isn’t looking at me, he’s looking ahead at the wall across from him as I watch his profile. His Adam’s apple bobs as he swallows, and I can’t help but notice the way that his jaw tics slightly.
“No, I get it. And I want to talk about…” I pull my hands into my lap, curling my shoulders inward just enough to keep myself somewhat warm.
I’m really about to do this. We’re really going to start talking about…
