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“Yes,” I say. “Let’s go now.”
Chapter eighty-three
Emma
By the time Jax laces the fingers of one of my hands with his and we start walking, Smith is by my other side. The idea that a big man with a gun is escorting us to the beach house shouldn’t comfort me, considering it means that we need someone with a gun to escort us to the beach house. It is, however, better to need a big man with a gun and have a big man with a gun than the opposite.
“You sure you don’t have anything to tell me, little girl?” Savage calls after me.
“Not unless you have a big boy I can talk to,” I call over my shoulder, because hey, I might be under duress, but I have a brother. I know how to give what I get.
“That would, by an astonishingly high margin of votes, be considered me,” Smith murmurs.
I’m not sure that’s a joke, and he doesn’t laugh. Neither do I. I’m focused on one person, and that person is Jax. I have to tell him everything, and I have to do it knowing that everything might be too much for us to survive. That’s my fear—that this is it for us. The truth is that I haven’t even fully had time to digestany of this, and Lord help me, where are my shoes? I left them behind with Savage. Because it’s not enough to have a big man with a gun next to us. I am now making the other big man with a gun, the one with an attitude, retrieve my high heels. But really, truly, at this point, I couldn’t care less if my shoes become the center of a sandcastle for one of the guests.
I just need to think.
Hunter was my half-brother. Itcan’tbe true, and yet, I saw the proof.
Jax folds our arms at the elbows and pulls me closer, holding onto me a bit too tightly, like he’s afraid I’m about to be yanked right out of the sand from beside him. But I don’t mind. I want him to keep holding on tightly. I don’t want him to let me go, but the sense of us losing each other is in the air.
Forever it seems, the three of us walk. There is just me and Jax and a stranger named Smith, the sounds of the ocean crashing against the shoreline is fitting for the way my world feels as if it’s crashing around me. Jax’s world is about to crash down around him, while he’s still bleeding for his brother. My brother, I remind myself. My God. Hunter might have been my brother, too, and I struggle to remember meeting him. I struggle to remember a man who may well have been blood and brother to me. How did I not feel a bond with him? How did I not recognize any similarities?
Finally, we’re at the house, nerves burning up my belly, the motion detectors illuminating the porch. Smith motions for us to wait, talking into the mic at his ear. “We have eyes on you out here. I’ll go in first and ensure we’re clear inside.”
Jax gives a quick incline of his chin, and we watch Smith disappear into the living room. “Jax,” I say, and he pulls me around in front of him.
“Not until we’re alone.” He cups my face. “Okay?”
It’s then that I realize he’s all but vibrating edginess. The idea of seeing his mother again didn’t just gut him. Jax is no fool. He knows whatever this is, whatever I have to tell him, is related to Hunter. I nod and catch his hand. “This could be Brody fucking with me again, Jax. You know that, right?”
“In other words, my brother accused me of killing my other brother?” he challenges.
The door opens behind us as Smith calls out, “All clear.”
I twist around to look at him and he motions to the seat in the corner. “I’ll be around if you need me. Or, if you need a big boy to talk to.”
“Funny,” I say. “Really, actually it is. I’m laughing on the inside. I’ll laugh tomorrow. I hope. If this is over. Thanks for the future laugh.” I’m rambling. I never ramble, and Jax responds by kissing my hand and murmuring, “Let’s go inside, baby.”
I nod. “Yes. Let’s go inside.” Only my feet don’t want to move.
Jax’s hand comes down on my lower back, urging me forward, and somehow, my feet magically shuffle forward. My toes are numb. My arms are numb. My heart is not. Jax opens the door for me, and I step inside the lovely house that represents a future with this man, the place his father brought his boys when their mother left. The ghosts of the castle. Those words pop in my head, and oh God. Was he saying—did he tell me that she was—
The door shuts, and Jax locks it.
He turns to face me, and I face him, that ghost comment he’d made popping into my head. “Is your mother dead, Jax?”
Chapter eighty-four
Jax
Is my mother dead?
“To me,” I answer. “You know that, Emma. She left. I wouldn’t know if it were her wedding day or her funeral.”
“You said that I was seeing castle ghosts. I thought—”
“And you were right,” I say. “She’s dead to me, Emma.”
