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Sighing, I start twisting the key off the key ring when I hear Luke sing out. “Can I have this room?” he calls to his mother and I glance down the hall, he is in Elena’s old room. I haven’t been here since the day after she left me the second time. Unable to stay here, her scent was on everything, though I had sent a cleaner to tidy the place.
“No, I changed my mind, I want this one!” Luke sings out a second later, wandering into my old room.
“Pick whichever one you want, just not the main one, that’s your mother’s,” I tell him and he huffs.
“But this one hasn’t got a bathroom.” he whines, wandering back to Elena’s old room. I chuckle and so does Louise as I pass her the keys she’ll need. I also write down the security code.
“Fridge and pantry are stocked. I sent Eli out earlier, and–” I wander down the hall to show her the linen cupboard knowing they’ll need fresh sheets and towels; the others are probably a little stale and dusty.
“Towels, linen. Phone is on, and packhouse number is beside it. Also the receptionist downstairs has all the pack numbers and you have the mindlink!” I tell her. She smiles and wanders to Elena’s old room and I see Luke sitting on the end of the bed opening an envelope.
“What have you got?” Louise asks him and I am about to wander down the hall when I hear her scold Luke.
“You don’t open other people's mail.”
“It’s not other people's mail, look it's Elena’s handwriting,” Luke says and I stop. I glance back at the door.
“Exactly Elena’s handwriting, meaning it is not yours!” she tsk’s and I hear her sigh. Turning back to the room, Louise comes back out with the envelope, holding it out to me.
“It is addressed to you,” she says. I take it, turning it over and indeed it is Elena’s handwriting.
“That must have been the letter she said she left that we never found,” Khan tells me. I nod, putting it in my jacket pocket.
“Aren’t you going to read it?” Khan asks.
“Not sure I want to here with Louise, I doubt it has anything good in it,” I tell him and he growls, knowing I am right.
“Elena said she’ll swing by in the morning to grab you with the boys on the way out of the city, the truck arrives at the packhouse after noon,” I tell Louise only for her to growl. She spins around, pointing a finger through the door at Luke.
“No jumping on the bed!” she scolds. I chuckle, shaking my head and wandering off when she sings out.
“Thank you,” she says and I stop at the front door. I give her nod, before gripping the handle and walking out, excited to get home to my boys and my mate.
When I reach the bottom, I check security and make sure patrols are run around the building before climbing in my car. Shrugging my jacket off, I toss it on the passenger seat but grab the envelope out. Turning it over, I read the front, recognizing her handwriting easily. The front of the envelope reads.
For the mate I love to hate…..Axton
Opening the envelope, I suck in a breath wondering what she wanted to say back then, yet I also wonder why the cleaning lady never mentioned finding it. Pulling it out, Khan presses forward also wanting to read, well invade my thoughts with his running commentary while I read it.
Axton,
You have probably figured out I am gone by now. So I wanted to explain. But first things first, I am not coming back, so don't look for me, though I will find a way to contact you to let you know the boys arrived safe. I have picked out the names already, and one might surprise you. I wish it didn’t have to be this way, but I don’t see this working out when you only see me as property. Though I was willing to try, only this time you weren’t.
I never ran off to be with Jake… someone I thought was a friend, turned out to be a monster that will forever haunt me. But not as much as you will. You haunt me for a different reason though. Jake I never wanted. What he did I never asked for or wished for. I never loved Jake. What he did haunts me, his touch repulsed me, and sometimes I can still feel his hands, feel his fingers wrapping around my throat. Feel his breath on my neck. The fear of him haunts me.
But you? I loved you, even though you were hurting me too. And you haunt me for a very different reason.
You have no idea how much I prayed to the moon goddess that you would find us. That my father would. Anyone. But mostly you. I carry your sons, so I knew they’d be safest with you, I thought I would be. I once perceived hope as a fantasy, a conjured-up idea that you would come save us. Believed in it wholly, believed you would come for us and you did.
The relief of seeing you walk through that door was so immense. Finally I could breathe… Only instead you stole my breath. You rejected me. I just wanted to touch you, know the nightmare I found myself in was over, know our boys were safe, that I was going home. I didn’t even care about where home was as long as it was going back with you.
Only instead of being my freedom, you just became my next captor. I went from one cage to another, only this time I actually loved my tormentor.
I'm sorry I ran the first time, and I see what a mistake it was, but can you honestly say you wouldn't have done the same? Stomped down and destroyed by one Alpha, yet I was expected to run into the arms of another? Another Alpha who decided it was okay to destroy me as long as he got his end game.
To me, you were just as bad as he was, you wanted to enslave a mate, my father wanted to enslave a daughter, then Jake wanted to enslave a blood bag, a toy, something for him to torment and play with. He played with my body, ruined it. But you played with something far more valuable, my heart.
Only you didn’t just play with it. You broke it. Showed me how replaceable I am, showed me what it would be like to be loved by you, which is not the happily ever after I dreamt about.
