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Then I figure it’s time to call my boss and tell her why I’m not there.

Once I deal with that, I turn on my shower. I let the warm water pelt me, washing the last of Ronan’s blood down the drain.

And then I sob.

I fucking sob, giant racking loud sobs.

Until I slide down the wall into a sitting position, and I sob some more.

All the sobs I couldn’t get out while I was waiting. Scared, scared my life was ending.

And then even more scared when I feared Ronan’s life was ending.

It’s too late now, but the sobs are coming.

God, I’m going to need some serious therapy after this. The water becomes lukewarm, and then borders on cold. I turn it off.

I leave the shower, dry off, put on clean clothes. Comfortable clothes. Leggings and an oversize tee. I dry my hair quickly, put it in a ponytail at the back of my neck.

I glance at my makeup.

And I don’t care. I apply some lip balm to my parched lips. The rest?

Take me as I fucking am.

Because none of it matters anymore.

I could’ve lost my life today.

Ronan nearly did lose his.

And I’m done.

I’m done settling for scenes at the club.

I’m done settling for scenes at my place.

I want more.

I want a relationship. Children. I want to finish college. Maybe open my own shop.

I want…a future.

A future with Ronan, but if he doesn’t want that? I’ll survive.

One thing I found today.

I’m a survivor.

And so is he.

I’m going to do everything I can to be with the man I love. But if he doesn’t return my feelings, I will survive.

I will fucking survive.

Back at the hospital, I check on Ronan.

He’s come out of the anesthesia, but he’s still asleep.

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