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I can, and I will.
Determination sweeps through me as I look into her brown eyes.
“Have you been in the back yet?” she asks me.
“I took a tour of the place when I made my application. But not in the way you mean. Last night was my first night here while the club was open.”
“Are you interested in seeing the rest of the club while people are playing?” she asks.
I take a sip of my scotch, let the smokiness trickle down my throat. “Are you?”
She looks down at her fingernails again. “I’ve been a member here for years, Ronan. I’ve seen it all.”
“Are you a voyeur?” I ask.
“Sometimes.”
“An exhibitionist?”
She shakes her head. “I’ve tried it, and it’s not my jam. What I do with a partner is private, and I don’t like other people watching.”
“Even if you like watching other people?”
“Only sometimes,” she says. “And yes. I prefer to play in private. But there are others who don’t, which lets me be a voyeur sometimes when I feel the urge.”
“Do you feel the urge now?”
She looks up from her fingernails. “Not really, but I will accompany you if you’d like to go to one of the exhibition rooms.”
I pause a moment, thinking. What is the best move here? She’s clearly not ready to play, and she doesn’t really have the urge to go to an exhibition room. Yet she’ll accompany me if I ask her to.
In a normal situation, as a Dominant, I’d say absolutely. Let’s go. Let’s be voyeurs for the evening together.
But this isn’t a normal situation.
“If you’re not into it, then no,” I say. “I don’t need to do anything you don’t want to do.”
“You’re an interesting Dominant, Ronan.”
She has no idea.
I’m looking for a true submissive. One who will bend her knee at any time. One like Keira, who was happy just to submit…until she wanted something more.
I ask a lot of my submissive, which is why I usually only play with one at a time. I don’t call it a relationship. I think of it more as an understanding between us.
We’re exclusive when we play together. Not only because it makes practical sense. Exclusivity means you don’t have to worry about sexually transmitted diseases, which means condoms aren’t required. Personally I hate them, though I always use them the first time with a new submissive.
But practical sense isn’t the only reason I do it.
I prefer exclusivity because then we both know what to expect.
My submissives find out soon enough that I exert complete dominance over them. That understanding is crucial, because in all of the time that I’ve been in this lifestyle, I’ve never had a submissive use a safe word.
That’s because she knows, before we even begin, that I will be in control. She understands, before we ever begin, that I am her master.
Which is why I should probably walk away from Mary. If she’s this reluctant to play with me, she will never be one to let me have complete dominance over her.
But I can’t walk away.
