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I hurried back to the front door. Owen was still there, but he looked angry, just not at me. His movements were jerky and his mouth was set in a deep frown, but his eyes were filled with sadness when ours met. It broke my heart.
We went to his coupe in silence, but he went to my side and opened my door, ever the gentleman. Funny how I couldn’t unsee in my brain how ungentlemanly he was in bed.
When we pulled up in front of my dorm building, Owen let out a sigh, then finally spoke.
“Take the day. I’ll see you on Monday at one.”
I wanted to scream and use my new f-word on him, but I chose to stay silent and not promise anything as I got out. He didn't pull away though. When I got to the main door, I turned on the small stoop and saw him still there, watching me with a look of wretched frustration on his face. It hit me just how hard it was on him just to tell me ‘no’.
Still though, just because it was difficult, did that mean I could forgive him?
I didn’t know.
Turning my back to him, I went inside and shut the door. Running up the stairs, I hoped Clea wasn’t home yet. She would definitely be able to sense the sex on me, plus she’d recognize that I was in day old clothes. Thank God she wasn’t back yet. Being the masochist I was, I went to the window which looked over the street and front yard, I saw Owen’s car still there, his face in his hand as he sat there, unmoving.
I must have watched him for a good five minutes before he finally sucked in a big breath and sat up, then put his car in drive and zoomed off.
My heart crumbled all over again. First things first though, I needed to shower and change before Clea could sniff out the sex on me. Dang it…I was going to have to lie to her, because if she found out I lost my V-card, she’d want to know who I'd lost it to and would hound me until I broke and told her.
Anxiety speared through my chest, but I just breathed through it and stepped under the water, flashing back to Owens shower while I washed all remnants of the man off me.
A tear slid down my face and got lost in the water.
How could no promises hurt so bad? He never told me he’d be my boyfriend. In fact, he’d said several times that it was a bad idea before he’d broken my hymen. Evidently even professors weren’t immune to making stupid decisions with their dicks.
Chapter 12
-Owen-
What the hell was I doing?
The words that flew out of my mouth were… “What the fuck?”
When I got home, I looked in the mirror by the front door and saw the glow on my skin mixed with the deep frown that had set in ever since Mia left my car.
I’d sat there, outside her dorm hating myself so violently. I wanted to run in after her and throw myself at her feet, begging her to have me, but I couldn’t. I fucking couldn’t!
My phone rang in the midst of my self-hatred, so I yanked it out of my pocket.
Paula.
There was a chance that it was one of the boys, so I shoved all the pain and anger down long enough to answer and find out.
“Hey,” came Paula’s voice.
I sighed.
“Now is not a good time,” I told her.
“Yeah, well it’s my only time, so I’ll make it brief. I want to take the boys on a trip next weekend.”
“What the fuck? No. You got them this weekend. Besides, they seem to need a little space from your new boy toy.”
“Oh, don’t even. Boy toy?” she laughed off my anger. “He’s a full grown man with a career. You don’t look good dressed in envy, Owen.”
“I’m not envious,” I spit. “I’m against some asshole kid around my children, calling their mother a cougar.”
“Dammit, Caden!” she called, but I barked to get her attention back.
