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“What?”
“She always has. I don't think she ever stopped loving you. Why do you think I was so mad at you? I thought you were just stringing her along.”
There's guilt digging into my chest as I take in her words.
She has always loved me?
“I'm sure she ended things because she couldn't take the man she loves only seeing her as an instrument for pleasure,” she adds.
There's now a mixture of happiness and pain in my chest. Happiness knowing she had loved me so much, and pain because I had repaid that love by brutally hurting her not once, not twice, but countless times.
“I hurt her,” I whisper, “And I don’t know how to fix it. I wish I could turn back time and undo everything. I should never have made that proposition. I should have asked her out not to make her feel disposable. I never meant to hurt her like this.”
I clench my fists, my heart aching with the weight of my mistakes. “I have to tell her,” I say in determination. “I have to make things right with her. Even if she doesn't want me anymore. I owe her that.”
With a sense of urgency, I make for the door, only for a worried Nala to immediately block my way.
“Why are you stopping me? I have to tell her I love her. That I'm sorry it took so long for me to realize it.”
“Have you seen yourself in the mirror? You look a mess. You are drunk and wasted. Is this how you want to confess to her? Do you think she will take you seriously like this?”
She's right. Gianna doesn't deserve a confession like this.
Nala places her hand on my shoulder. “Trust me, even if she's hurt right now, she will come around if you’re honest with her about your feelings and show her how much you care.”
A glimmer of hope starts to grow inside me, pushing back against the guilt and self-doubt that has consumed me.
It's time to man up and let love lead.
Chapter 19
Gianna
It's been a month since I entered into the no-strings-attached relationship that I proposed to Chris, and it has already crashed and burned. It's been a month since I made the mistake of thinking I could get away from it with my heart intact.
My eyes burn, and I wipe them with the back of my hand. I can't seem to stop the tears.
I ended it all not because of what he did to Perez. I ended it because I was starting to become delusional. I was delusional because he was nice and everything I wanted in a man, yet he could never be mine.
My doorbell rings, and I rush to the door without thinking twice. I open it, but my heart sinks when I see a delivery man standing at my doorstep.
“Good evening, ma'am. I have a delivery for you from Miss White.”
“Nala?” I accepted the package, feeling surprised. She's still not talking to me, so why this? Is this her olive branch?
“Please sign here.” I immediately sign, and he leaves.
I walk back in and close the door. I take the note attached to the package and read it.
“Hey, bestie, I'm so sorry I left you when you needed me the most. Forgive me, please.”
I snort. As if I could ever be angry with her.
I opened the package only to see a note attached to a wrapped present. I read the note.
“Please wear these and meet up with me at the beach. I will be waiting for you. Pretty please.”
I shake my head at her wittiness and creativity. Maybe a girl's night out is what I need.
