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“I need to talk to you.” Xander tenses at the sound of Lake’s voice. I turn to her and nod.
“Okay.”
“Not you, him,” she says, flicking her chin toward Xander. I dart my gaze to him and frown. He looks conflicted, but without uttering a word, he nods his head and stalks out of the room with Lake following after him. I chase after them when I hear the front door open, but she spins around and pins me in place with one look. “I need to talk to him alone. Don’t follow us.”
“I’m not letting you out of my sight,” I snap.
“I got her,” Xander clips out.
“Yeah, right,” she mutters as she steps past him and waits outside.
“I’ll bring her back, I swear,” Xan promises before he closes the door, leaving Taylan and me standing here.
“What the fuck was that?” I grit out.
A whoosh of air escapes Tay before he answers, “I got a bad feeling that your girl remembered something about Xander and it isn’t good.” I look over at Tay, he looks uneasy and slightly worried.
“Come on, I’ll come with you to tell Mase and Floyd, it will help me to not go after them.” Taylan chuckles and shakes his head.
“Now that she has her memories back, you won’t be able to boss her around.”
I scoff as I grab my coat off the hanger. “She’ll do as she’s fucking told.”
“Bullshit. She had you by the balls before you even emptied them inside her, that girl has always controlled you without even trying.”
“Fuck off, dickhead,” I bite out but my words lack heat and his answering laughter has me fighting back my own smile. He isn’t wrong about Lake owning me.
Lakeland
I don’t stop walking until we reach the edge of the lake that I spotted earlier when I was looking out the window. It’s stunning with only the moon lighting the area. I had no idea this place even existed, it’s surreal and like something out of a movie. Xander comes to stand beside me staring out over the lake. I can’t even look at him. When my memories came flooding back I thought I would be happy, I wanted to be happy but I’m not. How the fuck could I be?
“You remember that night, don’t you?” he asks in a monotone voice.
I keep my gaze ahead as I answer him. “Yes,” I force out through clenched teeth. “When do you plan to tell Knox I didn’t lose my memories because of his uncle and my father?” I hear him suck in a sharp intake of breath, the anger burning inside me at the fucking injustice that I was dealt has me feeling murderous.
“You gonna rat me out?” The fact he has the audacity to sound smug stokes that flame of anger inside me higher.
“This isn’t a fucking game!” I scream as I whirl around on him only to find his gaze already on me. “You did this,” I shout as I wave my arms around.
“I didn’t do shit! You fucking left her in that car! You killed her, not me!” he roars, causing me to stumble back a step, shaking my head. His fists are clenched at his sides as his breaths come in rapid pants.
“You dumb fool! I tried to get her out first. I begged her to get out of the fucking car but her leg was stuck. If I had of known she was stuck, I would never have left her. I love Knox with my whole fucking heart. People think your significant other will become your soulmate but that wasn’t the case for me, my boyfriend’s sister, my best fucking friend was my soulmate.” He recoils at my words but I’m not done. “I would have gone over that fucking bridge with her. I would never have left her, I loved Waverly.”
“Yeah you loved her but I still fucking love her.” Gasping, I stare at Xander with wide eyes.
“Oh my God, you came to my house that night because she called,” I whisper aloud as I try to filter through my thoughts. “She called you because she saw her father, you didn’t come to help Roberto.” His jaw locks as I continue to piece everything together. “You came because Wave told you she needed you to help me.” His nostrils flare and his eyes darken just as realization crashes into me. “Holy shit?—”
“You keep your fucking mouth shut,” he warns but I ignore him.
“Does Knox know you were in love with his little sister?” Xander slams his eyes closed and drops his chin to his chest. I study him for a moment as I try to recall more details about that night and what Wave had said. “Oh my God, she was in love with you too.” A strangled sound leaves him and I know without him needing to say it that I’m right.
“I was out getting food that night when she called. I was only around the corner so I raced there to find her in the car looking scared. I pleaded with her to let me take her home and I would send Knox back for you but she refused, she said she wouldn’t leave you behind.” His tone is hard and guilt ridden but all I feel is love and sadness—love for the fact she wouldn’t leave but sad because if she did she would still be here with us. “I told her to get her ass in my car and that I would get you and we’d leave but when I got inside, it was worse than what I thought. After you ran, Percy and Gio managed to get away from us. I left Roberto behind as I chased after you and Wave. I wasn’t far behind Percy’s car but the rain was so fucking heavy that night I could hardly see. I didn’t… I thought that…”
I nod knowing what he’s trying to say. “You didn’t see them run us off the road, you thought I crashed and tried to escape not caring that Wave was still in the car.” He slowly lifts his gaze to mine, the immense pain I see in his eyes robs me of air for a second.
“Their car was gone when I got to the bridge. I stopped and just stared for a second afraid if I drove any closer the car would fall but then I saw you jump out, then heard Wave scream and I… I fucking lost it. I thought you just left her.” I may understand his reasons but it doesn’t change what he did. His resentment cost me six years of my life and the life of my child! I stare up at him in astonishment, in his head he thinks he was right to do what he did.
“You didn’t even try to speak to me, you just planted your fucking foot on the gas and mowed me down like I was a dog in the street!” I scream at him hysterically, with tears streaming down my face but I don’t care, not remembering was easier, I didn’t feel this crippling fucking pain in my chest. “You killed my baby,” I choke out. Xander’s face drops as he stumbles backward, shaking his head, trying to deny my claim but he already knows it’s true. “You took everything from me… My life, my baby and… Knox. God dammit, Xander, if you had just fucking let me explain what had happened, my sister would still be alive!” Xander’s actions from that night have had a ripple effect. Waverly lost her life and so did my sister. I can’t stand the sight of him, I turn to walk away only to freeze at the sight of Knox and Taylan standing at the edge of the pathway. “Knox,” I breathe out. At the mention of his name, Xander spins around. I can feel the anxious energy wafting off him, he and I both know there is no way Knox didn’t hear what I just said. The murderous look on his face sends a chill down my spine. I am furious with Xander but I also don’t want Knox to live with the guilt of killing his best friend.
