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Dalinar paused. Could he be wrong about this man’s identity? But no. The name Nohadon was more of a title. Many famous people in history had been given holy names by the Church, before it was disbanded. Even Bajerden wasn’t likely to be his real name; that was lost in time.
“It is nothing,” Dalinar said. “You cannot give up your throne. The people need a leader.”
“They have leaders,” Nohadon said. “There are princes, kings, Soulcasters, Surgebinders. We never lack men and women who wish to lead.”
“True,” Dalinar said, “but we do lack ones who are good at it.”
Nohadon leaned over the railing. He stared at the fallen, an expression of deep grief—and trouble—on his face. It was so strange to see the man like this. He was so young. Dalinar had never imagined such insecurity, such torment, in him.
“I know that feeling,” Dalinar said softly. “The uncertainty, the shame, the confusion.”
“You can read me too well, old friend.”
“I know those emotions because I’ve felt them. I… I never assumed that you would feel them too.”
“Then I correct myself. Perhaps you don’t know me well enough.”
Dalinar fell silent.
“So what do I do?” Nohadon asked.
“You’re asking me?”
“You’re my advisor, aren’t you? Well, I should like some advice.”
“I… You can’t give up your throne.”
“And what should I do with it?” Nohadon turned and walked along the long balcony. It seemed to run around this entire level. Dalinar joined him, passing places where the stone was ripped, the railing broken away.
“I haven’t faith in people any longer, old friend,” Nohadon said. “Put two men together, and they will find something to argue about. Gather them into groups, and one group will find reason to oppress or attack another. Now this. How do I protect them? How do I stop this from happening again?”
“You dictate a book,” Dalinar said eagerly. “A grand book to give people hope, to explain your philosophy on leadership and how lives should be lived!”
“A book? Me. Write a book?”
“Why not?”
“Because it’s a fantastically stupid idea.”
Dalinar’s jaw dropped.
“The world as we know it has quite nearly been destroyed,” Nohadon said. “Barely a family exists that hasn’t lost half its members! Our best men are corpses on that field, and we haven’t food to last more than two or three months at best. And I’m to spend my time writing a book? Who would scribe it for me? All of my wordsmen were slaughtered when Yelignar broke into the chancery. You’re the only man of letters I know of who’s still alive.”
A man of letters? This was an odd time. “I could write it, then.”
“With one arm? Have you learned to write left-handed, then?”
Dalinar looked down. He had both of his arms, though apparently the man Nohadon saw was missing his right.
“No, we need to rebuild,” Nohadon said. “I just wish there were a way to convince the kings—the ones still alive—not to seek advantage over one another.” Nohadon tapped the balcony. “So this is my decision. Step down, or do what is needed. This isn’t a time for writing. It’s a time for action. And then, unfortunately, a time for the sword.”
The sword? Dalinar thought. From you, Nohadon?
It wouldn’t happen. This man would become a great philosopher; he would teach peace and reverence for others, and would not force men to do as he wished. He would guide them to acting with honor.
Nohadon turned to Dalinar. “I apologize, Karm. I should not dismiss your suggestions right after asking for them. I’m on edge, as I imagine that we all are. At times, it seems to me that to be human is to want that which we cannot have. For some, this is power. For me, it is peace.”
Nohadon turned, walking back down the balcony. Though his pace was slow, his posture indicated that he wished to be alone. Dalinar let him go.
“He goes on to become one of the most influential writers Roshar has ever known,” Dalinar said.
There was silence, save for the calls of the people working below, gathering the corpses.
“I know you’re there,” Dalinar said.
Silence.
“What does he decide?” Dalinar asked. “Did he unite them, as he wanted?”
The voice that often spoke in his visions did not come. Dalinar received no answer to his questions. He sighed, turning to look out over the fields of dead.
“You are right about one thing, at least, Nohadon. To be human is to want that which we cannot have.”
The landscape darkened, the sun setting. That darkness enveloped him, and he closed his eyes. When he opened them, he was back in his rooms, standing with his hands on the back of a chair. He turned to Adolin and Renarin, who stood nearby, anxious, prepared to grab him if he got violent.
“Well,” Dalinar said, “that was meaningless. I learned nothing. Blast! I’m doing a poor job of—”
“Dalinar,” Navani said curtly, still scribbling with a reed at her paper. “The last thing you said before the vision ended. What was it?”
Dalinar frowned. “The last…”
“Yes,” Navani said, urgent. “The very last words you spoke.”
“I was quoting the man I’d been speaking with. ‘To be human is to want that which we cannot have.’ Why?”
She ignored him, writing furiously. Once done, she slid off the high-legged chair, hurrying to his bookshelf. “Do you have a copy of… Yes, I thought you might. These are Jasnah’s books, aren’t they?”
“Yes,” Dalinar said. “She wanted them cared for until she returned.”
Navani pulled a volume off the shelf. “Corvana’s Analectics.” She set the volume on the writing desk and leafed through the pages.
Dalinar joined her, though—of course—he couldn’t make sense of the page. “What does it matter?”
“Here,” Navani said. She looked up at Dalinar. “When you go into these visions of yours, you know that you speak.”
“Gibberish. Yes, my sons have told me.”
“Anak malah kaf, del makian habin yah,” Navani said. “Sound familiar?”
Dalinar shook his head, baffled.
“It sounds a lot like what father was saying,” Renarin said. “When he was in the vision.”
“Not ‘a lot like’ Renarin,” Navani said, looking smug. “It’s exactly the same phrase. That is the last thing you said before coming out of your trance. I wrote down everything—as best I could—that you babbled today.”
“For what purpose?” Dalinar asked.
“Because,” Navani said “I thought it might be helpful. And it was. The same phrase is in the Analectics, almost exactly.”
“What?” Dalinar asked, incredulous. “How?”
“It’s a line from a song,” Navani said. “A chant by the Vanrial, an order of artists who live on the slopes of the Silent Mount in Jah Keved. Year after year, century after century, they’ve sung these same words—songs they claim were written in the Dawnchant by the Heralds themselves. They have the words of those songs, written in an ancient script. But the meanings have been lost. They’re just sounds, now. Some scholars believe that the script—and the songs themselves—may indeed be in the Dawnchant.”
