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About me and Daniel… the man that I desperately don’t want to think about anymore.
He hasn’t been back in touch, this time he has respected my boundaries, which in a way is great but in a way is also a massive shame. It’s sad that we ended on such bad terms when things were good at the periods when they were amazing. If only the sex tape hadn’t leaked. Things could have been totally different. We could maybe even be together now, who knows? And I have finally calmed down enough to see that it probably wasn’t him that did it, it would be strange for him to go that far, especially when it negatively impacted on both of our companies, but it’s too late now. I can’t apologize for the way that I acted. We haven’t even crossed paths yet, even in the business world. If I am requested to submit a marketing pitch for a company, he is nowhere to be found. Either everyone is being really sensitive and only contacting one or the other of us, which I can’t see happening, or he is pulling out if he hears my name even mentioned. I suppose that’s probably to make it easier for me, but it’s left me a little hopeless and aimless. I don’t know where to go next.
“I will come with you,” Eve smiles softly at me. “Be your plus one as always. I have also arranged for a designer to send us some nice dresses so we can get really princess like for it. Sounds fun, right?”
“Designers? Like we’re celebrities?” I can’t help but laugh at this remark. “Are you serious?”
“Hey, I’m the best personal assistant ever.” She offers me a one shouldered shrug. “You know this.”
Well, I suppose I can’t get out of this now. Even though I would much rather curl up in bed and have a weekend of rest I am starting to get a little excited about the idea. Perhaps we can pretend we are celebrities tonight, having a lot of fun, drinking and mingling. Having a good time, which will be different for me. I haven’t had fun in ages.
“So, who else is on the guest list tonight?” I ask idly. “Did Paige give you a clue? Anyone I know?”
“Er, she didn’t give me many details to be honest. I’m sure that it’s quite exclusive.”
Is she trying to tell me that Daniel won’t be there? Or that he will? I don’t know if Paige would be quite so insistent that I need to be around if she knew that my enemy was going to be there. She might be driven but she isn’t insensitive. She must realize that I won’t know how to be around him… even if there is a tiny voice in the back of my brain telling me that it would be pretty nice to just see him again, to just witness what the air could be like between us. If it’s awkward then at least I will know, and I can walk away. For good this time.
It’s always ‘for good’ but it seems to never quite be forever. Something always draws me back or has me thinking about him. Daniel Wilson always seems to be in the back of my mind, and I have a feeling that’s not just because of the intense sexual chemistry that we have but because of my feelings as well.
It’s crazy to think that even though we only shared a short time together, that man is the closest I have ever felt to love. Whatever I experienced in past relationships is nothing compared to what I had for him…
Anyway, it’s over now, isn’t it? It’s done. There is no coming back from what happened. I pushed him away and he has gone. There is too much water under the bridge to make it all okay again. Maybe on second thoughts it would be much better if I don’t see Daniel tonight. Separation is clearly what we need.“You look incredible,” Eve gushes as she runs her eyes all over my body. “That dress is so nice on you. It clings to every curve perfectly… this designer is awesome. I need to buy some of her stuff.”
I admire my reflection in the mirror, twisting from side to side, and I can kinda see what Eve means. I do look like a shinier, glossier version of myself. Like I have been air brushed. Like a celebrity. It makes me feel much more prepared for the night that lies ahead of me. I don’t want to shy away from the rest of the world tonight after all. I look ready for fun, and I really am. Eve has brought me out of my shell a little.
“You look great as well.” I nod at my friend. “I’m glad to have you as my plus one as always.”
