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For the second time ever, Faith woke in the arms of her lover.
Tino had allowed her to sleep in his bed? In his family home?
Maybe he really had given her more last night.
Or had that move been an unconscious one? It didn’t really matter if he had considered it, or acted on instinct—it had to mean something.
Just as his promise not to go searching for that perfect Sicilian paragon right away meant something. Gio was Tino’s heart, but the dedicated father had still reaffirmed his commitment not to date other women while he and Faith were together.
She’d thought her heart was being ripped right out of her chest when he said he thought Gio might need a new mother, but that mother could not be Faith. She’d been angry and hurt and scared and a lot of other emotions that confused her because she couldn’t be sure if they were genuine or induced by the pregnancy hormones rampaging through her body.
The two pregnancies she’d had before had sparked serious inner upheavals as well. She and Tay would have argued constantly if he hadn’t taken her hormone-driven insecurities in his stride. Would Tino have the same patience? Did she want him to? There had been instances when Tay’s tolerance had felt more patronizing than understanding.
Right now she felt she was out of control when it came to her feelings and she didn’t enjoy the experience. There had been times the night before she’d been sorely tempted to sock Tino good and hard, but then the pendulum that was her emotions had swung to needing the reassurance that sex provided.
She didn’t think Tino was any surer of his feelings than she was. Because in the same conversation he’d spoken of getting Gio a Sicilian mother, he’d also spoken of not wanting to end things with Faith. He knew she wouldn’t be any man’s mistress.
Early in their acquaintance, she’d made sure he was aware of how she felt about those kinds of double standards.
Their intimacy last night had been awesome, she couldn’t deny it. She’d felt more connected to Tino than ever before. He’d been so intent on giving her pleasure, but more than that, he’d given her something of himself. It was in the way he’d moved inside her, with an undisputable tenderness that brought tears to her eyes just before they’d found the ultimate pleasure together.
As much as she hated to, she forced herself to slide from his embrace. Even if she thought Tino could handle it, she did not want to be caught in his bed by anyone in his household, but especially by Gio. She loved the little boy too much to spring such a relationship on him without some sort of leading up to it.
He might be playing matchmaker, but that didn’t mean he was ready for the reality of his father having a lover, a woman who had taken his mother’s place in the huge four-poster bed. She still could not believe they had made love in his bedroom. That not only had he initiated the lovemaking, but he had carried her in here.
She took a quick shower in his en suite, halting midstep on the way out by the sight of the statue on his dresser. It was of a faceless woman, her arms outstretched to a man holding a baby boy. The man was faceless and so was the baby, but she knew it was male.
How could she not? She’d done the statue. The original, complete with perfect replicas of her own face and that of Taylish holding a little boy whose features were an amalgam of both of them resided in her studio at home.
“My mother bought it for me.”
That didn’t surprise Faith. Nor did the fact that Tino was awake. He slept too lightly not to have woken to the shower running. “Do you like it?”
“Very much. It reminds me of when Maura was alive.”
“Oh.” Of course…there was nothing in this statue to show the deep sorrow that etched her face in the original.
“It is as if she has her arms open, welcoming Gio and myself into them.”
“Or as if she’s letting you go.” That’s what she’d titled the first one she’d done, but when she created another faceless rendition, she’d simply called it Family.
“Is that wishful thinking?” Tino asked, an edge to his voice.
She turned to face him. “What do you mean?”
“Are you hoping my wife has finally let me go so that I might claim someone new in her place?” There was nothing to give away what he was thinking in his face.
It didn’t matter. The only course open to her—especially now—was honesty. “If I say yes?”
“I will remind you that if I ever do remarry it will be to a Sicilian woman, someone who can give Gio that little part of his mother at the very least.” Pain flashed in his eyes, quickly followed by guilt and then both were gone, leaving only the stoic expression behind.
Promise not to date others notwithstanding, she could really have done without that reminder. The knowledge he was still so adamant about not marrying her hurt. Badly. And she was absolutely certain that pain was not a hormones-gone-wild-induced emotion.
“Why did you let me sleep here last night?” she had to ask as she fought against showing the pain his words had caused.
“I fell asleep.”
“You never just fall asleep.”
“There is a first time for everything.”
So it had been subconscious. She’d wondered and now she knew. He didn’t know why he’d brought her to his bed in his family home. And honestly? That didn’t matter right now. What did matter was that he regretted it. That much was obvious. Anything else he might be feeling was hidden behind the enigmatic mask he wore.
And she should not be surprised.
She was the first woman to share that bed since the death of his wife. As hard as his regret was for her to bear, the situation was equally difficult for him. Only in a different way.
She’d had her own moments of letting go in the years since Taylish and their unborn son had died. She knew how wrenching they could be. Regardless of her own feelings right now, she could not ignore the pain twisting inside Tino. It was not in her nature to do so, but beyond that—she loved him.
She caressed the statue. It was a beautiful piece. One of her favorites. The one in her studio expressed and brought a measure of peace for an emotional agony she had been unable to give voice to. No one had been there to hear.
She would be there for Tino now, if he wanted her to be. “Tino—”
“I won’t be able to see you again until my parents return.” The words were clipped, hard.
“I understand.” She really did.
He stood there, silent, as if he expected her to say something else.
“It’s all right, Tino.” She gave one last lingering glance at the statue and then began dressing.
He flinched, as if those were not the words he wanted or expected to hear. “I will see you then?”
She paused in the act of slipp
ing on her sandals. “Of course.”
“Good.” He nodded, looking at a loss. So different from the typical Tino—business tycoon and suave but distant lover.
When she was done dressing she stopped in front of him and leaned up to kiss his cheek. “It really is going to be all right.” Letting go was a necessary part of grief.
The fact that Tino was doing so, even if only on a subconscious level, gave her hope.
“No doubt.”
“It isn’t easy for any of us.”
“What do you mean?” he asked, edgy again. Or still. He hadn’t relaxed since she came out of the bathroom.
“Letting go.”
“I have nothing to let go of.”
She didn’t argue. There would be no point. And it would only make him more determined to prove himself right. He had enough to overcome in moving forward, without adding another dose of his stubborn will to the mix.
“I’ll see you when your parents return from Naples.”
Valentino swore and slammed his hand down beside the statue Faith had admired. His wife letting him go? He did not think so.
Maura would be in his heart forever. He had promised.
The memory was as visceral today as it had been an hour after it happened.
His beautiful young wife had started off not feeling well that morning. He’d had the temerity to hope it meant she was pregnant again.
But that had not been the case.
Ignorant of the tragedy to come, he’d flown out of country for a business meeting in Greece with hope in his heart of increasing his family. He remembered that while his wife’s body betrayed her and she slipped further away from him, he had spent the day smiling more than usual, feeling on top of the world. And then his world had come crashing down.
His meeting had been a success, opening the doors for the major expansion of the Grisafi family interests. He would exchange that success and all that had come later for one more lucid day with the mother of his son.
Valentino’s mother had called him just before he boarded the jet for home. Papa had taken Maura to the hospital because she had passed out walking up the stairs. By the time Valentino had reached the hospital, his wife was in a coma.
