I was there for supplies — breakers, wire, a box of outlet covers Daddy swore he ordered twice already. The guys were in the yard loading ladders, and I figured I could slide in and out before he even saw me.
No such luck.
“You got a minute?” Daddy’s voice came low from behind me. Before I could answer, he nodded toward his office.
The space was tight, cluttered, a desk buried in blueprints and invoices, trophies from old pool tournaments lined up on the shelf like proof he once had time for more than work. He shut the door halfway, enough to muffle the voices from outside.
“Sit,” he said, not as a suggestion.
I perched on the edge of the cracked leather chair, dust rising when I shifted. He leaned against the desk, arms crossed, his shadow cutting across the piles.
Daddy eased down in his chair, the leather groaning like it was tired of holding him. He squinted at me the way he always did when he wanted the truth. “When are you gonna stop running from the man who loves you?”
The wrench in my hand slipped. “Huh?”
He leaned back, arms crossing over his chest, beard catching the light. “Huh ain’t his name. Quentin. The teacher.” His eyes softened, but his voice was steel. “When are you gonna start opening your heart, baby?”
I froze, heat crawling up my throat. “You don’t know him, Daddy.”
He smiled a little, not kind, not cruel—just knowing. “I don’t need to. I saw enough. ”
“Daddy…” My voice broke soft, almost a plea.
He shook his head, tapping one calloused finger against the arm of the chair. “Don’t Daddy me. A man knows.”
His tone dropped, quiet but heavy. “Because I know what it looks like when a man thinks showing up with a paycheck is the same thing as showing up with his wholeself. That’s what broke me and your mama. I gave her a house. Clothes. Food on the table. But I never gave her the part that mattered most—me. All of me. That’s why she left. That’s why you still carrying that scar.”
Silence stretched. His jaw worked once before he spoke again.
“Your mama and me…” His eyes flicked to the file cabinets, anywhere but me. “We didn’t fall apart overnight. We fell apart piece by piece, year by year. Never let her see the mess, the fear, the weight I carried. I locked it all inside, and silence is heavier than any load you can carry on your back.”
He paused, shoulders shifting like the memory pressed down even now.
“She wanted more. More of me, not just what I provided. And I didn’t know how. I didn’t know letting go could save us. By the time I tried, she was already halfway gone.”
My throat tightened. I’d heard pieces of this before, but never like this. Never so bare.
He looked at me then. “That man of yours? He’s already doing what I didn’t. He’s wide open. He’s letting you see him. Not hiding behind work or pride. He’s the way I should’ve been then — open, honest, not afraid to put his heart where you can touch it.”
My eyes burned, and I bit my lip, hard. “Daddy, you were good.”
“I tried,” he admitted, voice soft. “But good ain’t the same as whole. Don’t let that go over your head. Whole means open. Whole means seen. Whole means you don’t hold back and call it protection. That’s what I see in Quentin. And that’s what I want for you.”
I dropped my gaze to my hands, “How do you know I won’t get hurt?”
He came closer, crouched enough to meet me eye to eye. “You will, baby girl. Hurt comes with love. But the difference is, it won’t be from him hiding. It’ll be from life coming your way. And that kind of hurt? You can heal it together with all the good you’ll create together.”
His hand pressed warm on my shoulder, his thumb brushing once before he stood again. Daddy was never overly affectionate. “You always been too much for some. Too loud, too smart, too sure. But not for him. I saw it. He ain’t afraid of you. And that’s rare.”
I sat there, heart caught between ache and hope sinking into my lungs.
“Don’t run from good, Sparky. Don’t talk yourself out of something real because you scared it won’t last. That’s my mistake. Don’t make it yours.”
The hum of voices outside returned, the clatter of tools, the sound of men loading another truck. But the office felt still, quiet, suspended in something heavier than work.
I stood, ragged breath caught in my chest. “Thanks, Daddy.”
He kissed the top of my head, beard scratching soft. “Don’t thank me. Just live it. Let yourself have it. A man knows when he sees another man ready. And that one? He’s ready for you.”
