AllFreeNovel
Share Us
dreaming times.
For herself, she was full of energy, and she knew exactly how she planned to use it.
She sat at the base of the stairs to take off her boots, then decided it was as good a place as any to dispense with her jacket and cap as well. When she hung the cap on the newel post, she tapped a finger lightly to the little faerie pin she kept hooked there. It had outlasted a number of caps.
She wondered if anyone but Shawn would have thought to give it to her, as he had years before. Most, when they gave her gifts, chose something practical. A tool or a book, warm socks or a sturdy work shirt.
That was how most saw her, after all. How she saw herself if it came to it. A practical person with little time for the foolish or the pretty.
But from Shawn it had been a little silver faerie with slanted eyes and pointed wings.
And she wondered if someone else had given it to her, would she have worn it nearly every day since, without really thinking about it.
She didn’t know the answer to either, nor the meaning of either. So she shrugged, thinking that was just the way it was between them.
However it was, her pulse quickened as she climbed the stairs.
He was sleeping, all but buried under sheets and blankets, and dead center of the bed, like a man who was used to having the place to himself. The cat made a black circle on the foot of the covers, but opened his eyes, a cool, steady gleam, when Brenna stepped in.
“Guarding him, are you? Well, he’ll never hear it from me. Now then, unless you’re after being embarrassed, or envious, in very short order I’d take myself off somewhere else.”
Bub arched his back, then, as if it was an afterthought, leaped down to wind his way through Brenna’s legs. She reached to give him one long stroke. “Sorry, darling, but I’ve a mind to pet someone else this morning.”
The man surely made use of every inch of bed. Well, he was about to share it, she thought, and unbuttoned her shirt.
If he’d bothered to build a fire the night before, it had died to ash. Kindling one now to chase the chill away might wake him. She had plans to do that by other methods altogether.
He was a quiet sleeper, she noted as she stripped down to the skin. One who appeared to nestle into dreams without a lot of rolling about. As she recalled, he slept deep as well—hadn’t she heard Mrs. Gallagher shout him awake dozens of times when she’d spent the night with Darcy down the hall?
So they would soon see how much time and trouble it took to wake him by other means.
It was exciting to watch him when he didn’t know, when he was defenseless, when he had no idea of what she had in mind for him. His face held both strength and beauty, and, she supposed, a kind of innocence now. But then, she’d always considered Shawn a great deal more innocent than herself.
He believed in things. Believed they would just happen along at the right time without a body having to take a hand in it, put their back into it. That’s what bothered her the most about him when it came to his music. What did the man think, that someone would just wander into the cottage and buy up the tunes he had scribbled on papers?
It wasn’t enough to write them. Why didn’t he see that? Bone-lazy, she supposed, then shook her head. If she kept thinking of that, she’d work herself right out of the mood. And that would be a terrible waste of a morning.
Naked, she walked to the bed, slipped under the covers, and straddled him. Her mouth fit over his. She intended to start the process with a reverse on the waking of Sleeping Beauty. But she didn’t intend to stop with a kiss.
He was steeped in dreams, all a blur of color and shape. A pleasant place to be. Sensation slowly weaved its way through. The warm flavor of woman that stirred the blood and roused the mind. Then the scent of her— subtle, familiar, so that the next indrawn breath thickened the pulse. And the shape of her, the feel of flesh sliding along flesh.
He lifted a hand, lost it in that wonderfully wild tangle of hair. Even as he murmured her name, she was shifting over him, surrounding him, taking him in. The first burst of lust exploded inside him while he was still half sleeping.
He thrust up into her, helpless, trapped in a web of need woven while he’d been dreaming. For the first time in memory he could do nothing to finesse control over his own body. Nothing but let himself be taken.
When he opened his eyes, she rose over him in the soft gray light, her hair bright as fire, her eyes sharp and green. Then she bowed back, fisting her hands in her own hair as she rode them both to finish.
“Mother of God,” was all he could manage, and nothing could have pleased her more.
“Good morning to you.” She felt golden and bright. “
“And that’s all the time I have for you. I’ve got to be going.”
“What? Why?” He grabbed for her hand, but she slipped nimbly out of reach.
“Well, I’m finished with you, boyo, and I’ve work to do.”
“Come back.” He thought about sitting up, but only rolled to his side. “I’ll do better by you now that I’m waking up.”
“I did well enough by both of us.” She tugged her Tshirt on, then shrugged the flannel one over it. “And I’m expected at the hotel. As it is, I’ve got to take at least a quick look at your car, since I told Dad that was why I was coming by here first.”
“Tonight, then.” He only grunted when the cat leaped up on his ass and nipped it with his claws. “Find a way and stay here tonight.”
“Stay” was the word that made her uneasy, but she snuck a glance at him while she pulled on her work pants. His eyes were half closed. “I’m working at the pub tomorrow night. I can say I’m sleeping over with Darcy.”
“Why do you have to lie?”
“You know how people would talk if anyone knew we were seeing each other this way.”
“And that matters?”
“Of course it does.” This time when she looked over at him, she was surprised to note his eyes weren’t sleepy, but focused and alert.
“Is this something that shames you, then, Brenna?”
“No. But it’s private. I’ll have a look at your car now, and the fact is I’ll give it a good going-over first chance I have.” She leaned over to kiss him, then shoved back her hair. “I’ll be back ’round soon as I can.”
He rolled over onto his back, annoying Bub enough to set the cat to stalking off again. Alone, he stared at the ceiling until he heard her shut the front door behind her.
When, he wondered, had he started wanting more? Why should she be the one he wanted more from? What was this need that was growing inside him? Had it always been there?
Questions, he thought in disgust. Well, he seemed to have plenty of them, without the first answer.
He rolled out of bed and might have sulked off into the shower, but the sound of his own car starting up drew him to the window.
Brenna was just rounding to the bonnet, and as he watched she yanked it open, stuck her head under. He imagined she was already muttering curses because he’d neglected this or allowed that to get dirty. It never did him a bit of good to tell her that as far as he was concerned everything in there was dirty and mysterious and not of any particular interest to him. As long as the engine started when he turned the key, he didn’t give a rat’s ass what made the whole business possible.
She would, of course. A born tinkerer was Brenna. She was never happier than when she had something taken apart and all the pieces of it spread out for her examination. It made him think he should ask her to have a go at his toaster, as it was burning one side of everything he put in it.
Then she pulled her head out, slammed the bonnet smartly. She shot a look up at the window where he was standing, and her eyes, full of righteous annoyance, flashed to his. He sent her what he knew was a cheeky grin in return before she stomped off to her lorry. The way her mouth was moving, he assumed she was assigning him to the devil.
Rain sprinkled down on her as she hitched herself into her lorry. He watched as she, w
ith her usual energy and carelessness, bulleted in reverse into the road, then zipped away over bumps.
But he was no longer smiling. Amusement had fallen away into sheer shock. He had one of the answers now, and he didn’t care for it one bit.
He was in love with her. “
“Bloody, stinking hell. What in the wide world am I supposed to do with that?” He started to jam his hands into his pockets, but got no satisfaction, as he was naked. He turned, intending to drown himself in the shower in the hopes the feeling would pass.
Lady Gwen stood just inside the doorway, her hands folded neatly, watching him.
“Sweet Jesus.” However foolish it was, he snatched the blanket from the bed and wrapped it around him. “A man’s entitled to his privacy in his own home.”
Flustered and fumbling, he stared back at her. She looked as real as he felt, and as lovely as all the legends professed. Now her eyes were full of quiet sympathy, and an understanding that had his gut churning uneasily.
She was there, no question that she was there, and the cat had come back to ribbon around her skirts and purr ferociously.
“So, is this what you were waiting for before you showed yourself to me? For me to realize something that hurts? Well, it’s said misery loves company, but I prefer to nurse my own wounds alone.”
She walked to him, graceful, dignified, those soft eyes swimming with emotion. He saw her lift a hand, and though he felt no pressure, no slide of skin to skin, he felt the touch of it against his cheek as gentle comfort.
Then she was gone.
He did what he usually did when he came up against something he didn’t want to deal with. He tucked it into a corner of his mind, trusting he’d work out some solution eventually, and dived into his music. It balanced him, fed his heart. As close as he was to his family, he’d never been able to explain what it meant to him to be able to hear music in his head, to feel it inside him, then to be able to make it sound in the air.
It was the one thing he’d always had—and having, needed—and needing, feared losing.
Until Brenna.
He’d always had her as well, and needed her without realizing how deep that need was rooted. And now knowing, he feared losing her, and what he’d just discovered.
