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"I cant live a lie any longer!" Imasu burst out. "I have tried to be encouraging. Dignitaries of the town have been sent to me, asking me to plead with you to stop. My own sainted mother begged me, with tears in her eyes - "
"It isnt as bad as all that - "
"Yes, it is!" It was like a dam of musical critique had broken. Imasu turned on him with eyes that flashed instead of shining. "It is worse than you can possibly imagine! When you play, all of my mothers flowers lose the will to live and expire on the instant. The quinoa has no flavor now. The llamas are migrating because of your music, and llamas are not a migratory animal. The children now believe there is a sickly monster, half horse and half large mournful chicken, that lives in the lake and calls out to the world to grant it the sweet release of death. The townspeople believe that you and I are performing arcane magic rituals - "
"Well, that one was rather a good guess," Magnus remarked.
" - using the skull of an elephant, an improbably large mushroom, and one of your very peculiar hats!"
"Or not," said Magnus. "Furthermore, my hats are extraordinary. "
"I will not argue with that. " Imasu scrubbed a hand through his thick black hair, which curled and clung to his fingers like inky vines. "Look, I know that I was wrong. I saw a handsome man, thought that it would not hurt to talk a little about music and strike up a common interest, but I dont deserve this. You are going to get stoned in the town square, and if I have to listen to you play again, I will drown myself in the lake. "
"Oh," said Magnus, and he began to grin. "I wouldnt. I hear there is a dreadful monster living in that lake. "
Imasu seemed to still be brooding about Magnuss charango playing, a subject that Magnus had lost all interest in. "I believe the world will end with a noise like the noise you make!"
"Interesting," said Magnus, and he threw his charango out the window.
"Magnus!"
"I believe that music and I have gone as far as we can go together," Magnus said. "A true artiste knows when to surrender. "
"I cant believe you did that!"
Magnus waved a hand airily. "I know, it is heartbreaking, but sometimes one must shut ones ears to the pleas of the muse. "
"I just meant that those are expensive and I heard a crunch. "
Imasu looked genuinely distressed, but he was smiling, too. His face was an open book in glowing colors, as fascinating as it was easy to read. Magnu
s moved from the window into Imasus space and let one hand curl around Imasus callused fingers, the other very lightly around his wrist. He saw the shiver run through Imasus whole body, as if he were an instrument from which Magnus could coax any sound he pleased.
"It desolates me to give up my music," Magnus murmured. "But I believe you will discover I have many talents. "
That night when he came home and told Ragnor and Catarina that he had given up music, Ragnor said, "In five hundred years I have never desired the touch of another man, but I am suddenly possessed with a desire to kiss that boy on the mouth. "
"Hands off," said Magnus, with easy, pleased possessiveness.
The next day all of Puno rose and gathered together in a festival. Imasu told Magnus he was sure the timing of the festival was entirely unrelated. Magnus laughed. The sun came through in slants across Imasus eyes, in glowing strips across his brown skin, and Imasus mouth curled beneath Magnuss. They did not make it outside in time to see the parade.
Magnus asked his friends if they could stay in Puno for a while, and was not surprised when they agreed. Catarina and Ragnor were both warlocks. To them, as to Magnus, time was like rain, glittering as it fell, changing the world, but something that could also be taken for granted.
Until you loved a mortal. Then time became gold in a misers hands, every bright year counted out carefully, infinitely precious, and each one slipping through your fingers.
Imasu told him about his fathers death and about his sisters love for dancing that had inspired Imasu to play for her, and that this was the second time he had ever been in love. He was both indÃgena and Spanish, more mingled even than most of the mestizos, too Spanish for some and not Spanish enough for others. Magnus talked a little with Imasu about that, about the Dutch and Batavian blood in his own veins. He did not talk about demonic blood or his father or magic, not yet.
Magnus had learned to be careful about giving his memories with his heart. When people died, it felt like all the pieces of yourself you had given to them went as well. It took so long, building yourself back up until you were whole again, and you were never entirely the same.
That had been a long, painful lesson.
Magnus had still not learned it very well, he supposed, as he found himself wanting to tell Imasu a great deal. He did not only wish to talk about his parentage, but about his past, the people he had loved - about Camille; and about Edmund Herondale and his son, Will; and even about Tessa and Catarina and how he had met her in Spain. In the end he broke down and told the last story, though he left out details like the Silent Brothers and Catarinas almost being burned as a witch. But as the seasons changed, Magnus began to think that he should tell Imasu about magic at least, before he suggested that Magnus stop living with Catarina and Ragnor, and Imasu stop living with his mother and sister, and that they find a place together that Imasu could fill with music and Magnus with magic. It was time to settle down, Magnus thought, for a short while at least.
It came as a shock when Imasu suggested, quite quietly: "Perhaps it is time for you and your friends to think of leaving Puno. "
"What, without you?" Magnus asked. He had been lying sunning himself outside Imasus house, content and making his plans for a little way into the future. He was caught off guard enough to be stupid.
"Yes," Imasu answered, looking regretful about the prospect of making himself clearer. "Absolutely without me. Its not that I have not had a wonderful time with you. We have had fun together, you and I, havent we?" he added pleadingly.
Magnus nodded, with the most nonchalant air he could manage, and then immediately ruined it by saying, "I thought so. So why end it?"
Perhaps it was his mother, or his sister, some member of Imasus family, objecting to the fact that they were both men. This would not be the first or the last time that happened to Magnus, although Imasus mother had always given Magnus the impression he could do anything he liked with her son just so long as he never touched a musical instrument in her presence ever again.
"Its you," Imasu burst out. "It is the way you are. I cannot be with you any longer because I do not want to be. "
"Please," Magnus said after a pause. "Carry on showering me with compliments. This is an extremely pleasant experience for me, by the way, and precisely how I was hoping my day would go. "
"You are just . . . " Imasu took a deep, frustrated breath. "You seem always . . . ephemeral, like a glittering shallow stream that passes the whole world by. Not something that will stay, not something that will last. " He made a small, helpless gesture, as if letting something go, as if Magnus had wanted to be let go. "Not someone permanent. "
That made Magnus laugh, suddenly and helplessly, and he threw his head back. Hed learned this lesson a long time ago: Even in the midst of heartbreak, you could still find yourself laughing.
Laughter had always come easily to Magnus, and it helped, but not enough.
"Magnus," said Imasu, and he sounded truly angry. Magnus wondered how many times when Magnus had thought they were simply arguing, Imasu had been leading up to this moment of parting. "This is exactly what I was talking about!"
"Youre quite wrong, you know. I am the most permanent person that you will ever meet," said Magnus, his voice breathless with laughter and his eyes stung a little by tears. "It is only that it never makes any difference. "
It was the truest thing he had ever told Imasu, and he never told him any more truth than that.
Warlocks lived forever, which meant they saw the intimate, terrible cycle of birth, life, and death over and over again. It also meant that they had all been witness to literally millions of failed relationships.
"Its for the best," Magnus informed Ragnor and Catarina solemnly, raising his voice to be heard above the sounds of yet another festival.
