Too bad for him my days of doing that are over. I mean, last time I did that, I ended up with a surprise gift nine months later.
I may not have done well in school, but that's a lesson evenIcan learn.
"A little. I'm out of practice, unless you consider thePaw Patroltheme song."
"I don't even know what that is, but c'mon. It'll be fun."
I shrug. "Maybe. We'll see."
But as soon as the music starts, I know I'll be getting up there. I have to. I can feel the energy coursing through my veins, just like it did every time I was about to get up on stage with the Sassy Cats.
I don't even know that I loved performing that much. I loved the energy and the adoration from the crowd. That was where I got my high.
A high I no longer feel.
As much as I love Paisley, life with her is different.
When I'm on stage and people are yelling and screaming for me, it fills me up. It makes me feel whole.
It's the only time I feel that way.
Even in my most perfect moments with my daughter, I'm not full.
And I've been running on an empty tank for so long, trying to do what's best for my daughter.
It's time for mama to put some gas in her tank.
Chapter 4: Henderson
This is the pits, lying to Tabitha.
If I believed in dating and love and all that crap, she'd be the exact type of person I'd want to spend time with. She doesn't take herself so seriously. Not like the actresses I'm used to dealing with.
I still can't believe she gave that man a hundred dollars. Without even blinking.
Either she has no concept of money, which is a strong possibility, or she's a genuine, generous person.
Little details can tell a lot.
On the other hand, she's hiding a lot from me. If she thinks this is a potential date, wouldn't she be a bit more forthcoming about her past? She singsa little. Granted, I wasn't a big Fate's Daughter fan. Okay, I wasn't a fan at all, but if they had a hit song, she had to have done a fair amount of singing.
I'll be interested to see what song she picks. I wonder if it will be her song? If it is, I'm so out of here.
No way I'll get up there myself.
Many moons ago, I thought I had a decent voice. It wasn't a skill I cultivated, though, because I was determined to be a "serious actor." In my head, "serious actors" did not dare sing and dance and do musical theatre. Although I did have a role or two where I had to sing a few bars and always held my own.
Grayson even told me that if I took some vocal lessons and worked at it, I'd be in contention for decent parts. I wasn't going to lower myself like that.
It turned out to be a colossal mistake. It's how I ended up being the managing director at my mate's theatre rather than being on stage myself.
So yes, singing is a sore spot for me.
As are actresses in general.
If I didn't love the thrill of a production—and if I were qualified to do anything else—I'd find another job. But there's something in seeing your vision go from pages on a script to being a living, breathing, kinetic thing that moves people to tears.
I'm addicted to that feeling.
