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He would. She knew it. Loyalty was in his nature, as surely as patience, understanding and the steady offer of support.
His hand stroked her back. She could not think, could not gather up enough logic to ascertain how to go forwards. Every path she could take seemed to double back into dishonor for her family. There was no forwards. The only direction she could imagine was down. And so she let gravity think for her. She slid down him an inch. His breath caught. His hands settled on her hips, and he guided her on top until she clasped him tight, her thighs resting against his.
Yes. This was what she wanted—risk and all. She wanted him. She wanted his body, the feel of him against her, inside her. Some dishonorable part of her even wanted his child, wanted an excuse to escape the dilemma that stretched before her.
She sank lower, her passage stretching to accommodate him.
“God, Margaret,” he whispered in her ear. “You’re so tight. So damned hot.”
And now that she’d encompassed him, a more pressing matter emerged. “What should I do?”
His fingers clenched her side. “Whatever feels best for you.”
“But I want to know what feels good for you.”
His eyelids shivered shut, and his member twitched inside her. “It all feels good for me. Trust me. At this point, it’s all exquisite. You’re exquisite.” His hands cupped her hips.
Tentatively Margaret rose up on her knees. Pleasure drifted through her. Through them. She sank down on him once more, and his hand drifted to her breast. A delicious heat engulfed her.
“Ah, yes. I really love that.”
She did it again.
“Talk to me,” he whispered. “Tell me what you feel. What you want.”
“Touch me,” Margaret whispered. “I want you to touch my back.”
His hands fluttered up her back in slow, gentle caresses. She rose up on him again, finding a rhythm. Her hands found the curve of his biceps; her legs clasped the steel of his thighs. “You feel hard.”
“Hard is good.” His voice was husky. He thrust inside her.
“And big.”
“Big is better.”
His hands slipped to her hips and helped the rhythm along. She could feel her tension build, a slow fire stoking deep inside her, growing hotter and hotter with every stroke. His teeth gritted; the night air could no longer cool her skin, and her temperature rose. He insinuated his hand between their bodies, and as he pressed his fingers to her sex, ecstasy overtook her. It crashed over her in wave after glorious wave. When he’d wrung every bit of satisfaction from her body—when the fire that filled her had flared up into a bright pillar and burned everything from her—then he pressed his head into her neck.
“You feel like Margaret,” he whispered. “And Margaret is best of all.”
As she slumped bonelessly against him, he lifted her again, thrusting inside her. She hadn’t imagined there was any pleasure left in her, but it came. It came in little sparks at first. Then it caught fire in her soul. He gasped once, and then, just as she was cresting into her own orgasm, he came, too.
For long moments after, he said nothing. Instead he put his arms around her, holding her close. He was warm. And hard. And big. She didn’t want to think beyond those moments, didn’t want to admit that there was anything else to say. But as their clean sweat began to grow chilled, he spoke once more. “I’ll be damned, my dear, if this is the last time I have you.”
He was wrong. Utterly wrong on both counts. He wouldn’t have her again, and they were both already damned.
For the first time in months, Margaret felt the full weight of loss settle on her shoulders.
But she’d shouldered heftier burdens on her own. Her eyes stung, but this time she didn’t lean on him. She didn’t weep. Instead she moved his hands off her shoulders and disentangled their bodies. Disentangled his life from hers.
BY THE NEXT AFTERNOON, Margaret had left her family home and her lover.
She sat on the squabs opposite her brother. From the road, she could hear the creak of the carriage, the clop of horse hooves. They made a regular procession: this conveyance, another for the servants and luggage and yet another carefully converted to transport her father to London. They had been traveling for some hours already, and given the leisurely pace of their travel, days of their journey still waited. Those days were going to be very long, if she and Richard spent the entire time not conversing with each other. They would seem even longer if he chose to lecture her.
But so far, he hadn’t said a word. He’d simply looked out his window at the passing landscape, watching hill after hill disappear into oblivion. And she’d waited, her fists clenched together, for the coming explosion.
She could already predict what he would say. It was nothing she hadn’t told herself before. A lady’s virtue was her most precious possession, and she’d squandered hers not once, but twice—the second time on the man who sought to destroy her family. No doubt her brother was wondering if he could trust her. Or any of the reports she’d sent.
Richard sighed heavily, and turned away from the landscape that flitted by the carriage window.
“Are you going to rip up at me?” Her voice sounded stilted and formal. After their hours of silence, it also seemed unexpectedly loud. “Because if you are, I should prefer that you get it over with.”
Richard cocked his head and squinted at her. Margaret held her spine straight and met his gaze. She wasn’t going to let him cow her. If she was in the wrong, it was only because there was no right choice to be had. It took her a few moments to realize that he was squinting not in an attempt to intimidate her, but because his eyes had been dazzled by the sunlight reflecting off the lake outside.
“Do you see me as such a monster, then?” he finally asked.
She had no response. Had he been Edmund, he would have heaped aspersions on her head. But Richard was quieter than their middle brother—quieter and, she’d always thought, kinder. More understanding.
He sighed. “No, Margaret. I’m not going to remonstrate with you. I should think you’ve had enough of that.” He shook his head. “Tell me—was Father as horrid the entire time I was away as he was this morning?”
“At least he’s speaking now.” Margaret shook her head. It had almost been a relief, when the first words out of his mouth had been to call Richard a girlish idiot. “He’s been worse. Far worse.”
“Egad.” Richard sounded tired. “Well. Edmund and I got ourselves as far away from him as we dared. And we gave not the first thought to what it meant for you to be left behind. It destroys me to say it, but that Turner fellow was right. We haven’t done well by you.” He turned his head to look at her thoughtfully.
That Turner fellow had another name, and Margaret could not but think it—Ash—without conjuring up his face in her mind. That cleft chin, those solid cheekbones. And best of all, that hint of a lazy smile that took over his face as he looked at her and called her a magnificent creature…
Her brother mistook her silence. “Did he hurt you badly, then?”
Margaret shook her head. “He didn’t hurt me. He didn’t hurt me at all.”
“He’s such a big, uncivilized brute of a man. And you’ve looked pale and wan these past hours. You’re a lady, Margaret—or, at least, a gentlewoman. And Turner always struck
me as crude and…and earthy.”
“Earthy?”
Richard gestured uncomfortably. “Not used to speaking with ladies, or making accommodations for their more genteel requirements.”
“Ah. Yes. I suppose at first he seemed a little uncouth to me.” Her brother didn’t need to know precisely how uncouth. Had Ash really propositioned her within minutes of meeting her? At the time, she’d been outraged. Now, it just sounded like…like something Ash would do. Once he knew what he wanted, he was not apt to delay sharing his conclusion with others.
“You’re not happy, that’s for damned sure. I do wonder.”
“Richard…” She paused and looked across to her brother. He was still the same man who had fished her out of the fountain all those years ago. A little abstracted, yes, but kind. Quiet. He was listening to her. He didn’t want her hurt. And if sometimes her welfare failed to appear first on his list of concerns, it was natural absent-mindedness.
“Richard,” she finally confessed, “he told me I mattered.”
“That you what?”
“That I mattered. That I was important. After I was declared a bastard, nobody paid me any mind. But Ash Turner told me I mattered.”
Richard’s eyebrows drew down in confusion. “I understand,” he said, in direct contradiction to the puzzled quirk of his lips. “These past few months must have been difficult. But Margaret, after Parliament approves our Act of Legitimation, his opinion will be immaterial. That is why it is important—no, vital—that you and Edmund and I present a united front. I have no fear that the House of Commons will pass the bill when it’s presented to them. But the Lords, now…” He trailed off, tapping his lips. “It’s anyone’s guess what they will decide, and so far they are split down the middle, between those who want me legitimized, because I am innocent in this affair, and those who want me to remain a bastard, because our father so thoroughly scandalized them. The question of my legitimacy truly will come down to the votes of a bare handful.”
