The fire had long since died to ash, and the morning light pressed faintly against the curtains, grey and uncertain.
He lay on the study’s worn settee, his cravat discarded, his waistcoat askew, a sheaf of notes half-crushed beneath his shoulder. None of it mattered. Not when the memory of her still lingered like a presence in the room.
Catherine, he thought as the previous night’s memories came to him with a rush.
His eyes closed, and the moment replayed with vivid clarity. Her arrival in the library. The way she had stood in the lamplight, her wrapper soft against her form, her hair loose from its usual order.
Her face had been bare of artifice, her expression open, uncertain, lovely beyond measure. He had said her name. Touched her cheek. And then, he kissed her. And she kissed him in return. Not with caution, nor with hesitation, but as though she had long been waiting for him to cease pretending—as though she had known all along what had been quietly growing between them.
A convenient arrangement, he thought. That was how this had begun. But last night had stripped away all pretences. Her lips, her hands, and the look in her eyes when he told her she had become everything did not belong to convenience. It belonged to something deeper and truer.
He shifted upright, pressing a hand to his brow. What if she regretted it? What if, come morning, she saw it as a misstep born of shared stress and late hours? What if he had presumed too much?
He shook his head. He would not allow himself to doubt what had passed between them. Not after the way she had touched his face, the way her voice had trembled when she promised they would face whatever came next together.
He had never needed anyone before. Now, he could not imagine continuing without her.
Breakfast passed with a curious stillness, one that no amount of clinking porcelain or scholarly chatter could pierce.
Catherine sat across the table, her spine straight, her hands resting lightly on either side of her plate. She responded to conversation with practised ease, her smiles precise, her voice pleasant, but every word, every movement, felt studied. As though she had reconstructed the careful distance that had once existed between them, piece by meticulous piece. Marcus found it intolerable.
She had always carried herself with poise, but this was different. Last night, he had seen her unguarded. He had felt her warmth pressed against him in the hush of the library. He had touched her cheek, whispered her name, and kissed her lips with a reverence that surprised even himself. And she had kissed him back.
There had been nothing uncertain in the way her hands had come up to touch his face. Nothing hesitant in the way she whispered that what they had built was no longer merely practical. But this morning she would not meet his eyes. She spoke briefly to Rosalind about something, and she smiled politely at their guests. But not once did she look at him.
Marcus forced himself to eat, though he tasted nothing. His cup of coffee remained mostly untouched. He murmured something about reviewing a set of notes on Harold’s earlier inquiries into Roman civic inscriptions. No one questioned it. The scholars were already deep in their morning rituals of discussion and analysis.
He stole a glance at her. She was listening to William with a politely interested expression, though her fingers twisted the edge of her napkin.
She regrets it,he realised. The thought settled coldly in his chest.
Perhaps she was only caught up in the moment. We have been under strain for days, pressed together by danger and deception. Perhaps she felt some flicker of affection—or only its shadow—and allowed herself to respond. But in the light of morning, she has reconsidered, and judged it imprudent. Improper.
I should have shown more restraint, he thought.A gentleman does not take advantage of a lady in distress. And yet—I touched her face, spoke her name with far too much feeling, kissed her like a man no longer content with quiet admiration. She did not pull away, but perhaps that was kindness, not desire. Perhaps I mistook sympathy for something more.
He looked down at his untouched toast and pushed the plate aside.
Across the table, Catherine’s hand trembled slightly as she reached for her teacup. The gesture should have meant nothing, but it sent a jolt through him. She was not untouched by last night. She had not—despite all this careful formality—forgotten. That tremor in her hand revealed more than her composed expression ever would.
He forced himself to speak.
“Will you join me in the study after breakfast?” he asked, keeping his tone neutral.
Her gaze flicked up, briefly, startled. Then down again.
“Yes,” she said. “Of course. I believe we still need to finalise the inventory documentation.”
He gave a brief nod, though his throat felt dry. She had answered calmly, but her voice had caught just slightly on the word ‘yes’. It was enough to make hope flicker again, faint but stubborn.
They rose from the table not long after.
Catherine excused herself with gentle efficiency, giving instructions to Mrs Thornberry and asking Rosalind to check on the guest arrangements for the midday meal. Marcus retreated to the study, pacing the floor while he waited. She entered precisely twenty minutes later, a stack of folded documents in her arms and a carefully arranged expression on her face.
“I brought the remaining condition reports,” she said, placing them neatly on the desk.
He moved aside a leather folio, making space for her papers.
“Thank you,” he said.
